Tessa is still tired, Fibromyalgia Flare Continues! Moods!


I did it and went to bed just after midnight. I was very drowsy, but had new pains in my mid back region and I couldn’t lie on it or roll on either side without pain. The arm still hurts from the accident. Thank God no cramps last night at least that calmed down. I would have to say the Cymbalta does not work for the Fibro. It is working great as an antidepressant, but there is not one Fibro drug that helps with Fibro for me and for some reason I am having major flares for the past week or so, worse than usual.

I can still smile and be cheerful even with the pain. It is something I learned with the chronic pain which started in my 20’s. Smile and try laughter. Laughter is the best medicine and all that crap.

Now it didn’t help that at 9:00 AM my father came in my room (he doesn’t believe in knocking) and woke me up to bring a stranger in who needed to get behind my piles of boxes and stuff to get to the crawl space. I wasn’t ready to get up at 9:00 AM. I was finally sound asleep, damn it. It is so hard to sleep and he just scared me awake. I had to get dressed and move all that stuff so this guy could get back there. 

I am starting to feel anger again and that isn’t good. I was doing so well and no anger. I am at the point of wanting to tell everyone off and to just leave me alone. I don’t know if that means the crash is coming and I am going to fall off my stable mood and/or which way it will go – manic or depressive. 

I now have almost 2600 posts. I will never catch up, but my regular email is in there and I have to go through it. I used a gmail address and all, but it is set up to forward to my main email so I don’t have to keep going back and forth and I don’t know how to take it off there either. I set it up years ago.

I am going to read a few posts and then take a nap I think unless someone else has a different idea for me.

Tessa

11 thoughts on “Tessa is still tired, Fibromyalgia Flare Continues! Moods!

    1. Tessa Post author

      Unfortunately I didn’t get the rest I needed. My dad woke me up early this morning to move all the stuff out from in front of my crawl space so a salesman could get in there. All for naught and I couldn’t get back to sleep. I took a late afternoon nap, but my throat hurts and and I am sniffling and sneezing and I hope it is just allergies and not a cold. I don’t need to be sick now. I feel crappy enough. Thanks for the well wishes.

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  1. morgueticiaatoms

    I know the anger that correlates with a bipolar shift is scary but it’s not conclusively a sign that things are about to crash. (Optimism from me? The horror, right!) I just know you’ve had months of trouble getting proper rest, as I have had, and when we finally get to sleep..Is it really bipolar to feel angry or is it justified because, damn it, we need sleep even if it’s not on everyone else’s schedule! Food for thought.

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Thank you, you are right. Hmm positive from you, it is going to snow in July. 🙂 I think it was my anger towards the pain that had gotten so bad and I was angry at the dr to. But for some reason I was getting hysterical and crying too. I feel ok now.

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      1. morgueticiaatoms

        Ya know, we are so brainwashed into thinking anger is unhealthy and a symptom of our disorders. But I think being in pain and not feeling like the doctor is hearing you and helping…makes anger pretty logical. Glad you’re feeling okay.

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