Tuesday at Ten { a defining moment in my life . . . . . }


Tuesday at Ten { a defining moment in my life . . . . . }

Karen writes:

Welcome to Tuesday at Ten! The Tuesday blog Link up where you have 6 full days to use the “prompt phrase” as a part of your writing.

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This weeks prompt phrase is:

{a defining moment in my life . . . }

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I am trying to think what would be “a defining moment in my life.” There have been so many. Some I would like to do over. What had the largest impact?

I think what has been the most defining moment in my life is the night I tried to commit suicide. I didn’t succeed and thank God for that as it seems it wasn’t my time to go.

What it did do though is show me the true love of my family. The children, now all adults, were crying and probably even hurt that I thought to even try to commit suicide. That hurt I saw in them made me realize just how much I meant to them and they to me. Even if they didn’t understand the reason, they didn’t want me to leave them like that. I could never do that to them again and I promised them that. When I feel suicidal I immediately get in contact with someone who can help me, be it my psychiatric nurse or my therapist. Last resort is another stay at the hospital’s psychiatric ward.

It is not just my life that counts, but the lives of my family too. They don’t deserve to lose their mother that way.

Thank the good Lord that I have been stable for about 5 months now and haven’t felt the need to end my life.

7 thoughts on “Tuesday at Ten { a defining moment in my life . . . . . }

    1. Tessa Post author

      I know that God has other plans for me so he saved me. I am glad for that. I am a fighter and I just gave up. I have a purpose now and it will take me through my pain and help others through theirs too.

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  1. Wanda W (@TheWateredSoul)

    Appreciate you sharing your testimony Tessa. For those left behind in the wake of suicide there are so many unanswered questions. It’s such a blessing that you and your family were spare from such a tragedy. God indeed has purpose for you life.

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    1. Tessa Post author

      You are welcome. I believe sharing my testimony helps others besides my family. God indeed has purpose for my life and I am still learning what it is.

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