I have always seen, heard and felt things. In my household they were spirits. My drs think they are part of my mental illness. They think I hallucinate both auditory and visually. I am unsure. I always thought they were spirits. They could also be nightmares although I always swore I was awake and as I said they were believed in my household and I have seen some and heard some things that were really weird and I know I was awake.
My mother was considered a medium and she channeled people. People who knew things about me that she didn’t. I won’t get into everything I have lived through in my almost 60 years, but it started when I was a child and some of them I plan to write up eventually.
Tonight I went to bed at 8:30 and woke up at 12:30. I laid there trying to go back to sleep and I must have somewhat because I remember dreams. What has me freaked out now is I am sure I was awake and a voice was calling “Terri get up” (I go by Terri in my real life world since changing a name is a big thing, but I can write under Tessa since I like it better), but in addition to being called several times, something was running its hand up and down my leg. Real sensations. Up I come and on goes the big light again.
Now did I dream, hallucinate or am I just going crazy? Something calls my name a lot, but not used to the tactile feelings so much. That felt like I was being petted or rubbed lovingly.
Yes I know I need sleep. I am coming off of sleeping pills, but this is not new. It happens a lot. I do believe in things that go bump in the night. I wish they wouldn’t do it in my room.
I also hallucinate and the funniest items were these dancing Mahjong tiles that were dancing around my room. I stopped taking Gabapentin and that stopped. I also saw giant spiders crawling over the top of my bedroom door when I was in the bathroom. Still Gabapentin.
I am sure everyone has their own opinion on whether it was real or not.