Months ago I was doing good. I lost some weight, drank 9 bottles of water a day, quit soda, caffeine, artificial sugar and a lot of the carbs and ate some fruits and vegetables each day.
I felt better. My moods were under control and I felt healthier and had more energy for sure.
Now I am addicted to caffeine soda again, but no diet. But that is bad for my diabetes and I have been afraid to check it not to mention I had 3 steroid shots this last 3 month period. I am not watching my carbs.
My moods are out of control and not sure if it is still from missing 2 days or losing its potency or the fact that my diet is completely out of whack again.
I am depressed as hell and not getting out of bed.
I need a taskmaster. One that won’t listen to my whining excuses.
Because of how great I felt a few months ago I can truly say that diet does have a part in my mood control and how I feel even physically. Cutting out Aspartame reduced some of my pain. My chiropractor and Jonathan are both right in pushing me, but obviously not hard enough.
I have been forgetting my vitamins that were specified by my chiropractor for this and that. I am in the “I don’t care about life” stage.
I want to help people, but that is hard to do when you feel like death and dying yourself. No I am not thinking suicide at the moment. I am not that seriously depressed yet.
My anxiety is high, my self-harming is out of control, but no cutting. I am not that far out and hope I don’t because I have cut before.
I hate using the reader and I know I am missing a lot of people I read. I gather it only stays there til the new stuff comes in and pushes it down the list. The things I notice the most are all the prompts I use in my writing. I like doing them, but most are not to be found.
OK I guess that is enough whining for now. I don’t suppose anyone wants to hear about how bad my Fibromyalgia hurts right now and that is food regulated too from what the studies say. Sugar being a big no-no.
Tessa (grumpy as all get out)