I went out and bought a new bible that has passages by Joyce Meyer’s in it. I also bought a prayer book. They were Christmas presents. I ordered new devotional books from eBay last week.
The bible I bought online was 2 pieces of thin cardboard, tissue-like paper, small letters and smeared ink. I should have known that for $5.50 and that included shipment I wasn’t getting much. I put it in my donation bag and went over to Barne’s and Noble and bought books I could look at.
I think being able to talk about God with dad is making him happy. He doesn’t want to talk to me when I am manic because I spit words out like blockbusters and skip around and he is very deaf. I am not quite as deaf as him. I finally leave alone when I can see he is getting frustrated when I am manic and trying to talk to him.
Yesterday he tells me I am putting on a little weight and then tells me to have more pie. I don’t let him bother with his comments about my weight or anything else anymore. At first he hurt my feelings a lot, but then I realized that is just how he is. So I suck it up, just like buttercup LOL!
These mood changes are annoying. Right now I am manic, earlier I was depressed. I wanted to buy so much more at the book store. I had to restrain myself and drag myself out the door of the store.
Christmas is over and it went well. I was calm. The trouble-making faction didn’t come.
I have been working on expenses and what I could do to possibly have money each month to put towards rent when the time comes. No weekly brunch around $80 and no cat about $80 too. My medical bills run around $400 to $500 a month, but I don’t know how much of that I can really cut out. I have to pay the credit cards unless I file for bankruptcy again. I don’t really want to do that, but I might not have a choice. No car payment, but I do have auto insurance and repairs. Cut down the food bill and the gas bill for my car.