Monthly Archives: February 2016

Cleansing my heart!

I just wrote an emotional email to my family. I will not be posting it here as it is too personal, but it cleansed my heart and let me free up the pain and is allowing forgiveness and forgetfulness. I feel so much lighter. I hope it frees up some of the pain inflicted by others on the rest of us.

We were a family for 23 years, but we never got it right. I will say the marriage should never have happened in the first place and that was partly me, My mental disorders being tricked by the King of this happy little story. I should have said NO and meant NO and let him do with his mental health what he wanted. He fits the role of narcissist. No longer will I allow myself to be treated that way.

Jesus Christ is my love, my path, my savior and he loves each and every one of you no matter your religion or lack of religion.


Daily Gratitude February 25, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to seek help that will change my life. My diet is making me sick which I knew but didn’t take a real listening to until the pain became so bad that I could barely walk due to my knees. I was in complete pain throughout my body today and went and was told that my body is full of inflammation and caused by my horrid diet. Now I must listen if I want to lose the pain and all this weight. I wondered when I would finally listen.



Fibromyalgia lies, oh it so lies…My two week period of pain and many different kinds of pains, etc.

My Chiropractor is an expert in Fibromyalgia as well. Also have a rheumatologist doctor and my family doctor weighing in.

Today  my knees finally gave up. I could barely hold the weight. It was the joints. For 2 weeks I thought my Fibro was getting better, while this other pain kept getting worse. I went to the chiropractor today. I listed all my pains: jaws, face, head, neck, the whole spine and back, the hips, the knees, legs, arms and feet. Feet and arms are numb.

Then there is the upset stomach, IBS, acid reflux. (Probably all the junk I ate) I got a lecture on my diet. Not the only doctor reading me the riot act.

I am overweight and actually seriously obese and getting worse. I am at my highest weight. I noted this the other night I think. I am 240 pounds and 4’11” tall. Eating is part of my comfort zone. He said my body is full of inflammation.

Now my doctors are taking my comfort away and being damned strict about it. I am suffering from all the sugar I eat. The wheat I eat. I must immediately stop sugar (also have diabetes) wheat which includes my sandwiches, pizza, pasta. potatoes, some fruits.

I asked him what on this earth can I eat. He says meat, fresh fruits and vegetables. My son and I found a diet that is lacto-ovo-pescatarian  (semi-vegetarian. only fish, dairy, and eggs). I can live with that and throw in some fresh fruits and veggies and occasionally red meat.

I have to stop it cold turkey, my son has been working on slowly changing his diet. I don’t have that time. I can’t keep up this level of pain and no pain relievers. I know the no sugar edict is a must for so many things.

Tomorrow I have to go to grocery store and buy the ingredients. All junk food out of my bedroom. No fried foods. Hopefully settle stomach.

I had today – eggs, fish, raw carrots. Very low carbs. Might lose some weight another plus.


Daily Gratitude February 24, 2016

Dear Lord, thank you for continuing to keeping my Fibromyalgia pain low. About a 4/10 for the thirteenth day. Dear Lord I am rejoicing because you threw knee pain relief in there too. Walking, especially up and down stairs was very painful. Last night it hit 9/10. Not good. It could barely hold my weight. Today I got downstairs without thinking about it. He took it away for now. Into every life some rain must fall. For me it has been pouring, but I thank the Lord for letting me to live and to continue to do his bidding for him.



Daily Gratitude February 23, 2016

Dear Lord, thank you for continuing to keeping my Fibromyalgia pain low. About a 5/10 for the twelfth day. Dear Lord I would rejoice if you threw knee pain relief in there too. Walking, especially up and down stairs is very painful. Last night it hit 9/10. Not good. It can barely hold my weight.



Bipolar Disorder and Hormonal Fluctuations – Article written by me

Bipolar Disorder and Hormonal Fluctuations

By Teresa Smeigh February 2016

Mother and Daughter

Mother and Daughter

I noticed a difference in my bipolar symptoms during PMS (premenstrual syndrome). The moods increased in severity and were different than most of my friends. This can also be true during pregnancies although I did not notice a difference during my pregnancies. I had 3 of them and I felt wonderful during that time.

A lot of mood experts also seem to agree that bipolar symptoms can worsen in the 5 to 10 years before the end of the menstrual cycle, a period generally known as peri-menopause.

If you are a woman with bipolar disorder, menopause may cause you double problems. Fluctuating hormones during menopause can worsen bipolar symptoms.

Although doctors don’t completely understand the complex biochemistry behind the reaction, clinical research consistently suggests that a significant number of women with bipolar disorder are more sensitive to hormonal shifts during menopause and the powerful changes going on in the body. Not everyone gets an increase in symptoms during menopause.

At menopause in particular, they report more depressive episodes than women without bipolar disorder, at least partly because of a normal menopausal decrease in the powerful hormone estrogen.

What researchers do know is:

  • High levels of estrogen tend to have a “brightening effect” on mood, while low levels promote a dampening of mood.

  • Estrogen will decrease during menopause and the five-year old to 10-year old period before menopause

  • A drop in estrogen can have particular consequences for the bipolar patient, doubling susceptibility to depressive episodes.

By the time you’re in your mid-30s, your doctor should begin checking your hormone levels to make sure menopausal hormone fluctuations are not overlooked as a contributing factor to your mood issues.

If there is a worsening of symptoms without any other change in life, the doctor would ask their patient if they are going through menopause. They would be asked to contact their primary care doctor to look at hormone levels.

Suppose the diagnosis of bipolar disorder is relatively confirmed before a woman’s mid-forties. And now she’s having increased difficulty controlling her symptoms she used to just handle. Her medications had been working pretty well, but not anymore. She should be checked for menopause. Among women who have bipolar disorder, almost one in five reported severe emotional disturbances during the transition into menopause.

One study suggests that late-onset bipolar disorder may be associated with menopause.

There are two suggested options for treatment.

If your doctor finds a hormonal imbalance, he or she may suggest one or both of these options:

  • Hormone replacement therapy (HRT). If your symptoms don’t improve after adjusting the dosage of or otherwise make changes in your current regimen of bipolar medications, HRT might be beneficial. However, HRT must be considered carefully because it increases the risk of heart disease, stroke, and blood clots. Some women are advised against HRT because of existing health conditions that may be worsened by it.

  • Talk therapy. Speaking with a qualified therapist may help. Some women may need or want to talk about pessimistic thoughts, about their life, and about the fact that they can no longer bear children, says one doctor.

Sometimes the problem gets worse with treatment before it gets better. This may take time and patience to discover.

I had found my bipolar disorder worsening during peri-menopause and menopause and had to be hospitalized due to severe depression. A cocktail of medications were tried and it took several months before the correct medications were finally found and stabilized me. I have had bipolar disorder for over 50 years and doctors had been unable to find a working cocktail during all that time. Today I am now stabilized and experiencing little trouble with medications and menopausal induced stress as I am now out of menopause.


Ladies: 122 Reasons why Chocolate is better for you than Sex!

I could use some chocolate, right now.

Inchcock Today

The following advisory information for Women has been supplied by the WBA (Women Bloggers Association), for which thanks and appreciation, are offered.

122 Reasons why Chocolate is better than Sex for Women

The average piece of chocolate is at least, six inches long.
Chocolates stay hard for a week.
Chocolate won’t tell you size doesn’t count.
Chocolates don’t get too excited.
A chocolate never suffers from performance anxiety.
Chocolates are easy to pick up.
You can fondle chocolates in a supermarket – …and you know how firm it is before you take it home.
Chocolates can get away any weekend.
With a chocolate you can get a single room – …and you won’t have to check in as “Mrs. Chocolate”.
A chocolate will always respect you in the morning.
You can go to the movie with a chocolate … and see…

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