Mood Swings – Bipolar vs BPD


I have been diagnosed with both. The 2 are similar in symptoms. The biggest difference is the mood swings which drives me nuts.

Bipolar mood swings tend to be wider spread apart depending on your diagnosis. When I first started showing symptoms of Bipolar I was running about 3 months apart. 3 months of mania followed, by the swing which was mania turning to depression and 3 months of depression and so on.

When I was a teenager I noticed my mood swings were mostly rapid now. I found out I had BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and one of the main differences are the rapid mood swings which can change in an hour or so. Makes it hard to know what mood I am in when they keep on swinging like this. This disorder came about due to trauma during the teen years. I was almost raped twice and then the nonsense with my now ex-husband. I knew things had changed, but I didn’t know why. I didn’t know I had a second major mood disorder. The personality disorders consist of many different ones and I have symptoms from most of them.

Add them to anxiety, panic disorder, PTSD and OCD and that makes a mental mess. Those of you who are still young you have a lot to look forward to. I am 59 and suffered all my life with something. Bipolar kicked in young too.  Not many babies are on anxiety medicine which continued through my childhood and then adult hood.

I would like to say it will go away, but I would be lying. If you find the right medication cocktail you can be stabilized for a while, but most people either never find the combination or it only lasts a few months to a year and it quits working. Right now I am not stable obviously as I am bouncing back and forth.

I wish you luck in your search for a winning cocktail. And I had to do a 9 day stint in the hospital for attempted suicide. Speak to your doctor before it gets that bad.

Tessa ❤

 

 

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13 thoughts on “Mood Swings – Bipolar vs BPD

  1. Izrael

    Finding the right medication combination can be an ordeal. My medications had to keep on changing for five times before I found the right one. But, my dosage kept on increasing just to stabilise my illness. Right now, I am working with my doctor to slowly decrease the amount. Hope that you will keep on fighting on this great battle of mental illness. 🙂

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        1. Tessa Post author

          I wish it were that easy. My body doesn’t like the new stuff out there. My mood stabilizer is very old. One of the first ones out. I am surprised I can use Cymbalta, but it makes my Fibro worse but works as an antidepressant . Go figure.

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  2. morgueticiaatoms

    My former counselor (sunshine spewer, I called her) told me she did not think I have the borderline diagnosis simply because, A, I don’t fear abandonment, I relish it, and B, my moods do rapid cycle but due to cyclothymic shifts. Borderline apparently the hourly mood swings are more often than not triggered by an outside stressor. Mine are rarely triggered and I know enough now to tell the difference. (Get told you’re having pork chops for supper, get disappointed, mood crashes to anger-outside stress trigger…Sitting doing a word search puzzle and for no reason you burst into tears…Cycling mood.)
    I think this is where Borderline diagnosis gets tricky, as it does so mimic cyclothymia, bipolar one/two. And with such limited visit time to get everything out…I wonder how many get a confused diagnosis.
    Thanks for sharing your story, it’s always better hearing it from someone who lives it as opposed to some counselor who has only read about it.

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Thank you Morgue. We are at their mercy no matter what. I was in the hospital 9 days and then partial hospital 3 weeks and they decided to confirm it. The initial trauma, the fear of abandonment although when it first happened I was bothered by it and then rejoiced in it.When I was first dx with BP there was one kind. Now there are many. They added BPD, but didn’t take away the BP, but they are so similar hard to pinpoint. I just recently did an article on the two and it seems like the Paranoia comes from the BPD. I suffer from it terribly. Before the personality disorders I suffered terribly and blamed it all on BP. As time goes on they seem to break them all down more. Going to have a huge list if they keep it up and PTSD is also similar. I have that beauty to.Anxiety and panic and OCD. Just a lovely bunch of coconuts.

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  3. Ngobesing Romanus

    Your faith will move mountains for you as it keeps growing Tessa. Nothing is impossible with God. The problem is when we are too long in suffering a pain we tend to doubt the possibility of ever coming out of it. Yet, people who have been in worse situations came out of them. Faith ever, my dear friend! Keep turning to him even when things seem bad. He will surprise you.

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