Well as a step in making myself more useful and not something to be pitied, I cooked the dinner today. It was just chicken with veg on the side. I thought it turned out good.
I finished emptying a large box and put things away or trashed/recycled what wasn’t really needed. I pretend my son’s voice is in my head asking me “do you really need that?”
Gave the drs’ office the info so I can get my glucose meter and start checking my blood sugars. Maybe it will be ready tonight.
My chiropractor says he feels my Fibromyalgia is really Lymes Disease (chronic long term Lymes causes the same symptoms). Now my son started researching and he wants me to see if I can get the treatment (I had 2 deer ticks lodged on me for 3 days years ago) and see if that helps. I don’t know where to start or if the insurance will pay for it since the last test was negative except for one positive band out of the 4-5 required. Dr says those tests are no good anyhow. They are saying a lot of people are being mis-diagnosed.
My problems are many, but diabetes is out of control. So either need a new dr (endocrinologist) or for my dr to step up to the plate and be a dr who cares about this. My numbers ran over 300 in the hospital and I was on insulin. My last recorded A1c was 9.9 and I know that isn’t good. It is bad and serious. I don’t want insulin and not sure I need it yet. Would like to control it with the oral medications instead if possible. I am terrified of needles.
I have requested a meter from this same dr, but was sent to voicemail with the nurses. No answer, no meter, but to go through insurance I need a script from the office.
It hurts to have the kids tell you that you are not the same strong mom they remembered. The one who fought mental disorders and who is now letting them control her among other things. I guess I needed that talk to get my head thinking straighter. They want me around and not killing myself either intentionally or by stupidity and not taking care of myself.
I want to be around. I feel selfless, less selfish helping others and happily. I feel that is what I am on this earth for. That is my religion talking. Even though I have returned to God, my Children spent very little time in church or learning because I gave up on him. I am trying to get them to understand how important this has become to me.
I don’t completely trust the drs I have, but changing them (negativity warning) seems like a lot of trouble with no guarantee that the next dr will be better. My experience with drs seems negative mostly. That is the way our system seems to be run. Hurry, hurry, hurry with no real thought being put into patient care.
I am not saying there are not good drs out there. Some really do care about their patients, Jonathan Colter for one. Sorry don’t have your website handy. Ahhh here we go: https://allabouthealthychoices.wordpress.com/