I need psychiatric drugs for my mental health conditions:
Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, anxiety, panic, PTSD, OCD and ADHD.
However, I happen to be med resistant. I am constantly trying new drugs and cocktails trying to find one that will give me some relief.
My anti-psychotic (mood stabilizer) has been the same for almost 4 years now. We keep tweaking the anti-depressants, but nothing works for long if at all. I have been on Wellbutrin for over a week now and nothing good or bad is happening. I am on the lowest dose and that leaves room for more experimentation. I also take clonazepam for anxiety at a pretty high dose.
I am so tired of the constant tweaking and changing of medications and gaining nothing, but grief. I am depressed. My mood stabilizer keeps the mania away, but makes me depressed and if this is stable, I don’t want to be stable. Life just plain sucks right now and thinking positive will not bring me out of this. I am trying to work through It and not spend all day and night in bed and keeping my 2 blogs running and creating stories and poems.
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses
-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems