Psychiatric Drugs and the Med Resistant Patient

I need psychiatric drugs for my  mental health conditions:

Bipolar, borderline  personality disorder, anxiety, panic, PTSD, OCD and ADHD.

However, I happen to be med resistant. I am constantly trying new drugs and cocktails trying to find one that will give me some relief.

My anti-psychotic (mood stabilizer) has been the same for almost 4 years now. We keep tweaking the anti-depressants, but nothing works for long if at all. I have been on Wellbutrin for over a week now and nothing good or bad is happening. I am on the lowest dose and that leaves room for more experimentation. I also take clonazepam for anxiety at a pretty high dose.

I am so tired of the constant tweaking and changing of medications and gaining nothing, but grief. I am depressed. My mood stabilizer keeps the mania away, but makes me depressed and if this is stable, I don’t want to be stable. Life just plain sucks right now and thinking positive will not bring me out of this. I am trying to work through It and not spend all day and night in bed and keeping my 2 blogs running and creating stories and poems.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

13 thoughts on “Psychiatric Drugs and the Med Resistant Patient

  1. boompawolf

    I struggled for years trying to find meds where the side effects weren’t worse than what they were trying to treat. It took 11 years. I have more than one diagnosis as well. Praying for you. I know it’s scary, and defeating, and exhausting dealing with it.

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  2. bringbackhisgirls

    Dearest Tessa,
    “The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.” (Exodus 14:14)
    I quote this verse, with the hope and prayer that you would lay all of these burdens down at Jesus’ feet. I pray that you would be able to rest in our Sovereign Jesus, who wants to take on your every burden, sorrow, and despair. I know how crushing it can all be. But I pray for you now, sister, that Jesus would bring you relief– whether or not that would include finding a medication that works.

    I love you so much, sister. And so does our Great Jesus– He Loves and is for you, more than any other could be. I am praying, dear sister. Rest in Him. ❤

    Your Sister in Christ,

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Dear Annalee, great to hear from you. Thanks for the verses and your love, Love you too. it is very hard to be in constant pain and still put your complete trust in him. I am still working on it. I believe and I know that he does things when he sees fit and what he deems necessary. Doesn’t always agree with our wishes and prayers. Thanks, your sister in Christ, Tessa

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      1. bringbackhisgirls

        I understand what you are saying. I cannot imagine your pain, and I am so sorry, Tessa. Just keep casting all your worries, cares, and burdens onto Him. I am praying that Jesus would wrap His arms around you, and sustain you. ❤

        Love you.

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  3. morgueticiaatoms

    I think one of the biggest “conspiracy theories” ever is that you can “snap” out of depression with optimism and faith alone. If that were true, NONE of us would put these meds in our body, none of us would leave a house of worship.
    Sometimes, it simply does suck.
    Sometimes, it does not.
    It’s called….life with a mental illness.

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  4. Susan Langer

    I am praying for you. Stay in the present and not in the past or future.God Bless.

    No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, neither angels nor principalities nor powers, neither things present nor things to come, neither height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39

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