I am not myself, nor have I been for at least 5 months or so since I was last in the hospital. I haven’t recovered from that stay and the medication they put me on and so far my psychiatric nurse who prescribes my meds has not has much luck with the few things we have tried. I see her again on Thursday. Just a few more days to til I try something new with its possible reactions.
I can’t take much more of this depression. I am pulling away again from my family and friends. I am trying to pretend everything is ok so no one starts worrying about me, but my son, for one, sees right through me. Our conversations usually end up with me crying. Heck I am crying over every little thing as it is.
I am trying to keep my faith strong and write which is a struggle right now. I am not reading much, nor creating as much as I used to when I am feeling better.
For those of you that pray, please pray for me, for those that don’t please send positive thoughts that I can beat this again. I don’t want another hospital stay since it usually hurts more than helps and it is no fun.
I cannot beat this on my own.
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses
-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems