God is my savior. Please pray for me.
You guys are my friends and family. I am getting worse.This last medicinal change started to help and then bam I started flipping all over the place. My mood swings are bad and fast. I wanna scream and break things in rage. My hallucinations are fast and I see, feel and hear things. I just woke up from a nightmare where I was tied down with my arms close to my body and strapped to a gurney. I took several minutes to realize I was awake. One of my fears is being restrained and not be able to get away. I couldn’t get up right away because I felt restrained.
I love you all and thank you for all the support. I will be back later when I am under control again. I miss you now, I have been around so little lately. This last scenic ride ended up in the hospital in March. I don’t want to repeat that.