Cell Phone Hell

My old phone is about to die completely. I ordered a new one online last Wednesday. Come to find out it is backordered and I get a new delivery date every day. Very annoying especially since calling is all my phone can  do now and the battery dies quickly.

This all started with 2 different techs at Apple. I have an iPhone. Verizon doesn’t work on them. Apple couldn’t help and the phone was quickly shutting down. I called Verizon since I needed a new phone. I had to pay off my old one which was around $100 and then set up my plan which is now unlimited across the board including the data. However, the rep didn’t know it was on back order although she should have been told when ordering it. She apologized, but it is already done and wait I must since I also ordered the supplies. By the time the money went back on my card it will most likely, hopefully, be here.

Still withdrawing from my psych drugs. Next week I go down to a very small dose. Wonder if it will be bad. So far I have been pretty well with this one.

I have been fantasizing about my ex-husband. Now that I have forgiven him (and I) for what happened 40 plus years ago I find myself drawn back to him. He doesn’t know how I feel. My children do and so does my therapist. Of course I also want to go back in time and start over. I know that isn’t possible. Neither of us are the same. I won’t take orders and he is now used to following “hers” and so things aren’t really ideal and he hasn’t made any indication that he wants to start over (yet), I have prayed to God to do what he thinks is best. Do I want him back or am I dreaming or am I just feeling alone. I am not interested in another man at this time for sure.

Oh well, life goes on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems



13 thoughts on “Cell Phone Hell

  1. Sonyo Estavillo

    First of all, sorry about your cellphone nightmare. It sucks when phones don’t work properly there’s nothing worse than technical issues when you rely heavily on “said gadget.”

    On your ex-husband, I just wrote about this very thing today. I think ultimately it hurts us to go backwards. I was married once before my currant marriage and I can say that the first marriage still hurts. When you think about people you used to love, I believe it will always hurt and there will be a part of us that will wish for a time machine. But, the past is there for a reason. I firmly believe our past makes us hopefully stronger. Hope you get a chance to check out my post on social media and how it affects our inability t0 move on from our ex’s. I believe in today’s age of social media and technology, it’s much harder in the 21st century to move on from a relationship.


    FYI- I’m also a mental health advocate and deal with depression. Really glad to hear that you are tapering off your meds. 🙂

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    1. Tessa Post author

      I thank you very much. Cell phone Hell continues. I waited all this time and they canceled the order. My phone currently won’t hold a charge. Text or take pictures and heaven only knows what else. Still going through withdrawal and on the 2nd drug, halfway through.

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  2. Wendy

    Well done for reducing your prescription.. Just a thought… forwards is much better than backwards in most cases… Sometimes we feel we want to go back because it’s what we know, what we’re used to. It’s our ‘comfort zone’ even when it isn’t always ‘comfortable’… Have you ever done a Vision Board… if not, it’s a lovely thing to do.. there are some posts about how to go about it on my blog if your not sure. xx


    1. Tessa Post author

      I am facing days when I am afraid to let go of the meds, but I haven’t had meds all my life.

      Not sure what a vision board is. Will try to check it out. Thanks!

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