I needed a ride to therapy today since I lent my car to my son since his is in the shop and he had to go to work.

I write a thorough journal for her to read and it is exactly how I am feeling. Makes our sessions better.

My fasting sugar was 348 when I got up. Expected it to be high, but not quite that high. Endocrinologist has me on very little medicine and it didn’t work when my PCP put me on it and it doesn’t work now, plus he eliminated one.

New antidepressant is not letting me sleep, but she just told me to stay on it. She wants me on it for a few weeks, at least 2 weeks. She is expecting it to change and it is making me somewhat suicidal in thoughts. I don’t care if the world ends tomorrow.

I hate the fact that I have lost my major interest in my blogs. I would rather sleep (like that is happening with this new antidepressant). It is hard to build a blog when you have lost interest. I remember my thrill in the beginning. This one is over 2 years old. My writing blog is over several years older.


Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems


7 thoughts on “Therapy

    1. Tessa Post author

      I was quite a blogger there for quite a while, but feeling like I do now, it has become a struggle to keep up with them. I did a lot today though. Thanks!

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  1. fearlessinjesuschrist

    Don’t be so hard on yourself. I’m glad you have a safe place to go at your counselor’s office. I would also say, do not take everything your doctor say as gospel. You have to take control of your own health. I listened to doctors for many, many years and was misdiagnosed along the way. I’ve learned to advocate for myself!

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