As those of you who might have been reading the few posts I have posted lately know, I am in bad shape physically and mentally. This has been exceptionally worse the last few months.
I have been fighting my Diabetes and currently it won. I am now insulin dependent and still high. I am fighting it tooth and nail. And truth is that the prick of the blood testing is worse than the prick of the insulin pen needle. That being said I still have to prick myself 8 times a day if I follow the schedule (and I don’t always). I am nowhere under control even with the insulin.
My current antidepressant is finally working. I am out of the deep depression and I sleep (a lot still) without sleep medicine. I worked on my room this weekend. What a change and it hit me, I am not depressed. It is funny feeling when the realization takes over.
The biggest problem is physical. I have been sick for about 4 weeks straight. I have been to the ER to be rehydrated after a severe stomach condition (still have it a little bit and so will be seeing a gastroenterologist Tuesday). The food I have been eating causes pain and other stomach issues. I have gone through bronchitis twice, gone away and then came back.
I could barely get out of bed because of one thing or another.
Right now I am not as bad. Maybe I will hang around longer this time.
Miss you all!
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses
-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems