Bipolar mood swings, fighting with my diabetes


I am deeply depressed. Usually doesn’t last long due to my antidepressant and mood stabilizer, but currently suffering deeply.

I know I need to take care of my diabetes and eat right, but even foods I used to eat (low carb of course) don’t taste right.

I just threw away a bunch of food I couldn’t stomach. I know I have to take the insulin needles, but I am starting to freak out about that as well. It has been 2 months of needles, why now?

My numbers are higher than they just were. I was doing good keeping them in the low 120’s during the day and around 80 to 100 fasting. Today’s fasting was 124. Means I am eating too many carbs, but not sure where they are coming from. Need to get back under control. Over 140 at any time is causing damage that is unseen, but still happening.

I am still doing the silver sneakers exercise program 3 times a week. My body hurts. New pain on top of the old chronic pain. I haven’t given up yet and am struggling along.

Hard to think positive when you feel like this. Bipolar sucks.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

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13 thoughts on “Bipolar mood swings, fighting with my diabetes

  1. bethanyk

    I’m so sorry you are feeling so low! Health issues and pain issues just contribute and you are trying so hard! I hope this passes quickly. I’m sorry you are now having trouble with the needles too. How frustrating

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Thank you. The fear of the needles is the crazy part. I should have had that fear in the beginning, not 2 months after starting the insulin. Crazy world!

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      1. bethanyk

        We just plain cannot choose what all of a sudden will affect us!! It is so frustrating. I just had something similar and thought REALLY?? NOW? Why is this bothering me now!!!!! I’m so sorry that you are having to deal with the needle fear and you need to use the needles. How upsetting. I”m so sorry

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  2. TheFeatheredSleep

    Totally relate to this because when you feel ill your mental illness always worsens and people will say inane things like ‘you should be happy and grateful to be feeling better’ when you are actually feeling really suicidal – and that just worsens it. I get where you are in your head and I can only tell you, you know better than most, societal judgement just makes us worse and this isn’t YOUR FAULT OR CAUSED BY YOU so hang in there sister and know, to many you are loved and important and valued.

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  3. FLO

    You are stronger than you think you are. You’ve overcome many trials and you will overcome this one, too. Hang in there. You have many people out here who care about you.

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