I am deeply depressed. Usually doesn’t last long due to my antidepressant and mood stabilizer, but currently suffering deeply.
I know I need to take care of my diabetes and eat right, but even foods I used to eat (low carb of course) don’t taste right.
I just threw away a bunch of food I couldn’t stomach. I know I have to take the insulin needles, but I am starting to freak out about that as well. It has been 2 months of needles, why now?
My numbers are higher than they just were. I was doing good keeping them in the low 120’s during the day and around 80 to 100 fasting. Today’s fasting was 124. Means I am eating too many carbs, but not sure where they are coming from. Need to get back under control. Over 140 at any time is causing damage that is unseen, but still happening.
I am still doing the silver sneakers exercise program 3 times a week. My body hurts. New pain on top of the old chronic pain. I haven’t given up yet and am struggling along.
Hard to think positive when you feel like this. Bipolar sucks.
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses
-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems