Have to find my lost inspiration! Bipolar is just part of me, not all of me!

I blame so much on the bipolar disorder, but it is only part of it. I have lost most of my inspiration in life. Granted I never had much to begin with, but my writing is suffering, my blog is suffering. My family life is suffering and I just started to make amends with my children. I don’t want to die old and alone with no family.

I started the amends process last night. Lots of crying among us, but a start has been made and I have to admit my son is probably right when he says I am looking for attention. That I don’t feel real without it. I need validation.

Others suffer from things worse than me and go on with life. I use my mental and physical health as excuses. I am intuitive and I know things and could have made a great counselor if I had felt the need and desire.

I want to make a difference in people’s lives as well as my own. I have to start with me for the most part.

I need to bring God back into my life. I have even pushed him into the background. Blaming him for my misery. Life isn’t easy and getting back on track will take some work, but TESSA CAN DO IT!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems



6 thoughts on “Have to find my lost inspiration! Bipolar is just part of me, not all of me!

  1. morgueticiaatoms

    For what it’s worth, I don’t see you posting much about bipolar. Your health issues, yes, and maybe your physical pain is a hindrance to you finding this ‘inspiration’..You’re a good woman, Tessa. Do the best you can-even God would not ask for more. ❤

    On Fri, Sep 15, 2017 at 5:23 PM, Advocate for Mental and Invisib

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Morgue, lately I haven’t been posting about my bipolar. It is fairly under control and not causing me a lot of trouble so you are right there. It has been more about my physical pain right now. But I do still use it as an excuse for whatever I need an excuse for. Been thinking about redoing my blog to show other things. I was posting about Fibro hints and the website I used must have gone belly up because the info in the website is gone and so is the site actually. Don’t know if they are coming back or not. I want to post info to help people with all things besides mental health especially now that my mental health isn’t so bad. Now my anxiety is through the roof LOL! Love you, ❤

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