Monthly Archives: March 2018

Positive vs negative


We draw to us what our thoughts are. Think positive thoughts and bring more positivity into you life, not the negative.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

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Meera Lester-365 ways to live the law of attraction


She talks about the people who are so self-focused that they seem to derive pleasure from dwelling on all the things that are going wrong in their life. I am afraid that is me. It is not exactly pleasure, but it draws attention and it also draws more of the same thing. The more I dwell on it the worse it gets and the more I draw to me. Every day something else happens and I go here I go again. Why do these things happen to me? The simple answer is that I draw them to me, by constantly dwelling on them. It isn’t easy to stop either.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bipolar Disorder 1 under control for over 6 months now with this new medicine cocktail


Aside from the Cymbalta this is the only other cocktail that has worked. Sometimes I miss the mania, but basically it is better without it and all the mood changes.

And this one lets me sleep. No real side effects and sleep. Some days though I sleep way more than necessary, but I take it. I don’t want to mess with this cocktail and screw it up trying to make it better.

Bankruptcy court April 16th in a town I hate to drive in and includes highways which really scare me.

Next epidural is April 17th and on the neck this time. Back is not taking. She says she has other things we can try besides the surgery so I am to quit worrying about that for now. Neck is getting worse and have a problem with numbness (or pins and needles as it should be called).

Still nothing from public housing about the apartment.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Attracting the good or the bad


I am guilty of this. I moan and whine about my lot in life, my pain, my lack of money or whatever, that believers of the Law of Attraction feel that I am drawing those bad things to me. I could just as well be drawing the good to me instead. It works both ways. We attract what we feel good or bad.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Are alternative healings just the placebo effect?


As I have mentioned my dad has done faith healing for as long as I can remember and his people that received the healings (including me) believed they were being healed. I am well aware of the placebo effect and I can’t say for sure that he is healing me or that I just expect to feel better. I believe the point is that it helps and I don’t need a scientific ruling to say it is true or false. I accept that I feel better, therefore his healing helped.

Healing can be done hands-on or from afar. Reiki is one of those types of healings.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

By Meera Lester – “365 Ways To Live The Law Of Attraction”


I have mentioned the Law of Attraction time and again. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. This  book has 365 ways (or days if you wish) of info. I will post some things if I think them relevant to positivity. Mainly that is what I am more interested in.

I understand the law of attraction. What you project out into the universe you draw to you. Think positive thoughts and you will attract positive people and things to you. Project the bad thoughts and that is what you will attract. As someone put it, whining about my pain and unhappiness will just draw more towards me.  I understand this, but it is very hard not to think negative thoughts when your life basically sucks and my pain is unbearable.

I have had many discussions with my dad about these subjects and a lot of other ones many of you may not believe in. And that’s ok, we are all different and have different beliefs.

Part of me wonders if I am being punished for something I did in a past life. Then again it could be this life. I have done some things that I knew were morally wrong and I feel wicked at times for having lived through some of the things I did in my life.

God has a plan for us and mine isn’t particularly pleasant this time around (if you believe in re-incarnation). And from what I have learned we will relive certain lives until we have learned the lessons God has set out for us. You will repeat a lesson until you learn it.

God bless us all!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Fall potentially dangerous


I fell this morning. I caught myself on my bed wrenching my back, but at least I hit the bed and not the other furniture or the floor itself. My balance is definitely an issue.

We just had a pretty heavy snowstorm. My dad and son dug us out.

My bankruptcy court date is April 16th in a town I detest, Camden NJ. Not a good town to be in. All of this for about 5 minutes before the judge most likely. I know it isn’t long. Hopefully no one wants to sue me and make me hire my attorney at attorney fees. It didn’t happen last time and hopefully won’t happen this time. You can file, but that doesn’t mean the creditor has to accept it. It really isn’t worth their time because they usually don’t win. I have nothing to pay them with, but it will cause me trouble and that just might be worth their time (to see me suffer some more). I didn’t do this on purpose. I am not having fun and it is expensive to pay a lawyer to file. What I saved from not paying the credit cards the last 3 months goes to the lawyer and to the Public Housing to get somewhere to live.

I wish I had an idea when the funding will come through for more housing. I guess I didn’t make the first cut. She told me I could do some light packing and this gives me time to get rid of stuff here rather than hauling it over there and have to get rid of it there.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com