Daily Archives: August 17, 2018

Crazy Sleep Cycles


All my life I have dealt with irregular sleep cycles. There is no rhyme nor reason to them and no predicting them.

If I don’t have plans during the day I don’t care what hours I sleep because I just sleep when I am tired. However with all the doctor appointments and the visits to my dad at the rehab facility I don’t know when I will be sleeping. I am taking naps whenever there is free time as I am feeling so drained and exhausted. It could be partly due to the meds I am taking although they tend to change over time so I can’t pin it to a specific medication.

If I lie down and I am not ready to drop off to sleep my brain just goes round and round and the racing thoughts drive me crazy. This is due mainly to my bipolar disorder. Also due to my fears that something is going to happen and so it runs through my mind non-stop. When I do get to sleep I usually suffer from nightmares. Horrible ones at that. If I sleep more than an hour or two at one time I am usually shocked since that is not normal for me. If I sleep for more than 6 hours straight it is even worse because there are more bad dreams and I am confused when I wake up.

Sometimes I just watch the clock go around and around and around. That is pretty bad also. And I usually fall asleep just before the alarm is set to go off. Nothing helps me get to sleep anymore. I take it when I can get it.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Why Fibromyalgia May Worsen Period Pain?


Why Fibromyalgia May Worsen Period Pain?

Back during this period of my life I had extremely painful periods and they were very heavy. Part of the problem was due to having Fibroids or on my uterus. They decided not to remove them so I lived with this problem most of my adult life. Thankfully I went into early menopause. It was so heavy I had to wear a super heavy tampon and 2 thick pads and change every few hours. No wonder I dragged myself around during this period of my life. I was losing a lot of blood, but the drs were not concerned, but it seems to me that blood loss that heavy would take a lot out of me. The cramps always affected my back too. To top it off I had pains in the middle of my cycle. I was told that was the egg dropping down. I gave up on OB/GYNs a long time ago. I do not get a checkup and internal exam anymore and haven’t for over 20 years. My daughters make sure they go regularly and that is good for them, but I got tired of the nonsense.

Yes I understand that they can find cancer earlier if you have regular checkups, but the way I figure it, if I am meant to die from it, no amount of constant checkups would matter. I believe that my life is already mapped out by God and when my time is up, I will go and not before. Besides I am tired of going for all these checkups and something weird showing up and they get me all upset that I might have cancer and it is nothing. Biopsies are painful, especially when the anesthesia they give you doesn’t work. I will take my chances.

I AM NOT RECOMMENDING THAT PEOPLE NOT GET REGULAR CHECKUPS. JUST MY PERSONAL OPINION!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com