Congratulations to me! 2015

I know that is a strange title because why would I congratulate myself. Now most people might think this is weird, but I know some of you out there will understand what I am saying here.

I showered and washed my hair yesterday AND today. Big deal you are probably muttering to yourself, but to me it is a big thing. I have been so severely depressed that I have showered MAYBE twice a week and washed some clothes every 3 or 4 weeks and no I don’t have that many clothes. Personal hygiene means nothing to me in that state. I lie in bed most of the night and day and was in my night gown during most of it.

Today I emptied the full basket of clean clothes and put them away and then I took down another load and actually washed, dried and put them away. You have to understand that these are major accomplishments when I am depressed.

I believe I am in a mixed state right now and hope to go just a little more towards the mania. Depends on the medications. I am finally getting into a mood where I can start on my hoard decluttering. While depressed I just throw things in piles or on the floor in piles. Right now I have a small walk-thru cleared in here and that is the important thing. The cat is lying on a pile of cat food cans I have not put away. Of course she hopes I will open another one for her.


15 thoughts on “Congratulations to me! 2015

  1. FLO

    Doesn’t sound stupid at all. I’m glad the meds are getting balanced better. Doesn’t it feel really good to shower and get your body and your hair clean? I’m thinking about Sara on the cat food cans and I’m smiling. Maybe she’s just showing ownership of all the cat food? lol Glad things are going better for you.


        1. morgueticiaatoms

          My small goal involves meeting up with you and the spawnlings so they can go gripe how awful we are in a hotel pool while we sit poolside and sip tasty drinks and discuss how awful they are but how much we love them anyway 😉

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Thanks but what makes me mad is that eventually I am going to end up back where I was. For example today I am tired, no energy, but I actually had almost 5 full straight hours of sleep and then went back to sleep for a couple of hours. I feel more tired than not sleeping.


  2. morgueticiaatoms

    Yayness, Tessa!!!!!

    Those without mental goblins will scoff and think this is no big thing, but for those of us who live it…We know otherwise. YOU ROCKED THE CASBAH, LADY! I am waving virtual pompoms for you.

    It’s a win against depression and we should all cheer on every little win there.

    I bathed and dyed my hair this week, so I am feeling a little ‘woo hoo, yay, me.” But months of gray roots and bathing once a week…I earned that little pat on my own back. Like you earned your self congratulations.

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    1. Tessa Post author

      Yes it is certainly a big deal. There was a point in my life where I got up every morning, took a shower and actually went to work. That seems so long ago. Now I’m lucky if I get one shower a week.

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