Author Archives: Tessa

About Tessa

Teresa (Tessa) Smeigh at 60 plus is still going strong despite her disabilities affecting both physical and mental abilities. She has bipolar disorder (mental), Fibromyalgia (nerves), degenerative disc disease (spine), and arthritis (joints). Her new journey's include Diabetes controlled by insulin. Despite that she is active in Mental Health Advocating, writing for www.IBPF.org (volunteer for non-profit) and has several blog posts already published by them. Actually she know longer write for them due to personal reasons and the rudeness of the staff. She is also working on 2 fiction books (mysteries). The books will probably never be finished. She keeps her blog filled with useful content, daily devotionals (She is a Christian), stories and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. She has also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. She is from Deptford, NJ. Her family and blog keep her busy.

Exhausted!! Moved!


Well I am bushed! I am in bad shape and my kids and dad had to do all this work. I did what I could which wasn’t much.

My dad and kids feel much safer with me here. It is public housing, but a very nice place. It is a senior home mainly. It is a locked door with a guard except during the day Monday thru Friday from 8 AM to 5 PM.

The bad thing is that 4 people on the same floor died the other night. There is a lot of death in a senior place so is expected and something I will have to get used to. Sleep is often interrupted.

The funny bit about moving here is that it is that I can look out my window and see the duplex I used to live in 20 years ago. I am on the 6th floor and the view is pretty nice.

I don’t have cable or WIFI. I am using the hotspot on my cellular phone which is unlimited. Trying to figure out if I can hook the printer up too. It all has to be on the same network in order to work but this is  a hotspot on my phone and not actually a WIFI connection.

I am currently resting. I am sore and tired. Will have to do some more before bed especially make the bed.

My cat is sulking under the bed. She wants my son and her regular room. Not even coming out for treats.

The evening sun is coming in the windows. Could be worse with the morning sun in the windows. Like it this way better.

Somebody moving had a solid wood coffee table they gave us. I needed one and I don’t mind the scratches and such. All my furniture is that way LOL!

About 8 hours later and the cat has finally come out and investigated and ate her treats.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Hit by a huge tractor-trailer


Not physically, but my body feels like it for sure. And now can’t call to the next room to get help. Struggle or stay where I am. I am sure this feeling will eventually pass. During the move I lost my pain and arthritis pills which is not helping. I have found the pain pills, but without my arthritis meds my joints are screaming.

Thank heavens for the rolling cart. Easier on me than the cane, but easy to use on curbs and doors.

I haven’t seen the cat this morning yet and she didn’t sleep with me.

Dressed but didn’t brush my hair yet. It is among the missing still.

Didn’t sleep well. Something crashed around 2 AM and then I was starving. Thought I was having a blood sugar low, but it was 109 so no low, but I had to eat then. I had the shakes just like it.

Have to clean the cat box, but no scoop. Must find if packed or need to buy one and must get food. Have frozen food, but no microwave hooked up yet. This is what you get when they tell you to hurry up and wait.

Not sure if I mentioned the car accident. Cost me $500 of my saved apartment money and there is a problem with the brakes. Probably a result of the bang from the crash. More money needed. Oh joy!

I am on the 6th floor and it is hot as hell and not even over 53 degrees F.

I am supposed to go to my grandson’s ball game after my weekly brunch with best friend.

I can’t remember to turn things off. Gotta watch the electric bill.

I have to travel everywhere with my little old lady cart. Might need it.

Had bankruptcy court the same day as the accident and getting the apartment.

One good thing, no fighting with dad. I miss him but not the fighting all the time.

I Am tired but unable to sleep right.

Have to check my blood sugar and do a few things before leaving.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

New Apartment


Finally have my new apartment. Lots of cleaning and unpacking to do.

Forgot one of the closets. It’s a large clothes closet with plenty of space and shelves. I have two good size closets.

I will be busy for quite a while.

Tessa

Opiates for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome What You Need to Know About Narcotics


Opiates for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

What You Need to Know About Narcotics

I take Percocets. I still suffer pain, but without it, things are much worse. I do my best to keep my doses on time. I keep a list with the times I should take them and when I actually do so no taking too early.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Positive vs negative


We draw to us what our thoughts are. Think positive thoughts and bring more positivity into you life, not the negative.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Meera Lester-365 ways to live the law of attraction


She talks about the people who are so self-focused that they seem to derive pleasure from dwelling on all the things that are going wrong in their life. I am afraid that is me. It is not exactly pleasure, but it draws attention and it also draws more of the same thing. The more I dwell on it the worse it gets and the more I draw to me. Every day something else happens and I go here I go again. Why do these things happen to me? The simple answer is that I draw them to me, by constantly dwelling on them. It isn’t easy to stop either.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bipolar Disorder 1 under control for over 6 months now with this new medicine cocktail


Aside from the Cymbalta this is the only other cocktail that has worked. Sometimes I miss the mania, but basically it is better without it and all the mood changes.

And this one lets me sleep. No real side effects and sleep. Some days though I sleep way more than necessary, but I take it. I don’t want to mess with this cocktail and screw it up trying to make it better.

Bankruptcy court April 16th in a town I hate to drive in and includes highways which really scare me.

Next epidural is April 17th and on the neck this time. Back is not taking. She says she has other things we can try besides the surgery so I am to quit worrying about that for now. Neck is getting worse and have a problem with numbness (or pins and needles as it should be called).

Still nothing from public housing about the apartment.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com