Author Archives: Tessa

About Tessa

My name is Tessa Dean and I am an author and blogger. My writing styles vary and I love writing using prompts. I am also writing my first book, a Memoir entitled "Government Property - A Memoir of a Military Wife".  This is being published on the blog rather than the traditional way. I am putting up chapters as I go along. I keep my blog filled with useful content, stories, and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. I have also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. I also wrote a series of articles on Bipolar Disorder for IBPF (International Bipolar Foundation). I am in my 60’s and disabled which allows me plenty of time to write to my heart’s content. I live in southern New Jersey and have 3 children and 5 grandchildren. My oldest grandchild is a Sargent in the United States Marine Corps.

News Flash – Just spent 6 weeks in hospital


Tessa Dean - Author

It wasn’t good news. I have congestive heart failure. I was on oxygen and it took almost 4 weeks in a rehab hospital to wean me off the oxygen. I still have some problems breathing, coughing, temperature (some possibly due to a flu shot), swelling in the feel and legs. I had four Covid 19 tests. All negative. They are very painful. I haven’t felt like writing and after 6 weeks in bed 24 hours a day, most days, I am having a hard time readjusting to the real world.

I have to find a cardiologist now. I have to have another sleep test since my sleep apnea is slowly shutting down my organs and I need to get it under control.

I got my hearing aids today although I am feeling scared to put them in.

I have a huge list of doctors to see. This is not helping…

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What Is An Overnight Sleep Study (Polysomnogram)?


What Is An Overnight Sleep Study (Polysomnogram)?

I have had three of these so far. I was fitted twice for a sleep mask to fit a BiPap machine since I can’t use a CPap, but no one could find a mask that fit me right. I finally gave up on it since it was actually waking me up all the way every night, all night. For those of you who can find a mask to fit (my head is child-size) you should do well with it.

The study itself wasn’t that bad once you get over the awkwardness of being hooked up to electrodes and knowing that someone is actually watching you sleep.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

 

Committed! Recovery at a Mental Health Hospital!


A new website that I contribute to and to spread the vision of hope and regrowth despite what we have been through. Stop by and we are still looking for contributors if you are interested.

Out of the Ashes

I didn’t feel as if I had anything left to live for. My mental anguish made daily living unbearable.

Bipolar Disorder 1 with psychosis, Borderline Personality Disorder among other Personality Disorders (there are many, not just one), Severe Anxiety so bad that I was terrified of people, new places and even getting up in the morning, along with Panic Attacks that would stop me dead in my tracks were just a few of my mental issues. I also suffer from severe OCD so bad that I have trouble leaving my house because I am sure the door is unlocked and the stove still on, no matter how many times I got out of my car and check the door lock and stove. I have PTSD which started due to several rape attempts when I was a teenager and then when the twin towers fell in 2001 I was sure every…

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Exercise for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome


Exercise for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I am going through this right now as I am doing physical therapy per my pain management doctor’s orders. In the first three weeks I thought I was going to die. It took two days to get over the intense pain and fatigue. I was only doing 2 days a week and for less than 30 minutes. Now I can do the original program and they added a few more exercises in.

Thursday, July 9th, I am getting my second injection on the other side of my spine.

I also have a back brace that doesn’t fit me right as I am short-waisted. The woman who ordered it, insists I am doing it wrong. I doubt it, but someone is supposed to show me on Thursday so we will see.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 7/2/2020 – #4


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am a few days late for this one since I have been busy with my novel for NaNoWriMo.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly. (One meal a day is provided by Medicaid. So my food budget has decreased).

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God! No update on his status as yet.

–Social Security and Medicare are still intact. (There is talk about there not being money to fund Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid due to this pandemic’s financial drain on society.) I don’t even want to think about what would happen to me if something happens to them. You think you are set and something is bound to happen. 

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. Resent new paperwork and copies and a new signed application. I got a phone call that it had been received and should be processed in the next 30 days. I believe she was telling me it had been approved, but it would take a while to take effect. 

–I have received a back brace from my pain management doctor. It doesn’t fit me well since I am short-waisted and have a large bust. It took a while to figure out how to put it together and to put it on, but my back is actually in more pain from wearing it. Don’t know if I am doing something wrong or it just isn’t going to work due to fit. Not to mention I can’t wear my insulin pump the way I had been. I had to put the infusion set on my thigh now rather than my stomach as the tightness of the back brace cuts off the insulin where it was on my stomach. It also means I have to have a pocket to carry the pump in since I can’t clip it on my waistband like I usually do. It is causing me a lot of trouble and not sure if it is a help or not. It has only been one day so I will find out more as the days go by.

–I still have 2 days of physical therapy left. I am in less pain and able to do the exercises now and they have added some new ones.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Multiple Chemical Sensitivity in Fibromyalgia and ME/CFS


Multiple Chemical Sensitivity in Fibromyalgia and ME/CFS

I have a major problem with perfumes, heavily scented soaps, and strong candles (like Yankee Candles). The smell of gas doesn’t bother me, although it can be unpleasant to smell. These issues started after I worked for 8 years in a factory that exposed us to high levels of chemical smells from melting plastic.

I don’t use many cleaning products so not sure if they are an issue or not. The ones I use don’t bother me much.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 6/25/2020 – #3


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly. (One meal a day is provided by Medicaid. So my food budget has decreased).

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God! No update on his status.

–Social Security and Medicare is still intact. (There is talk about there not being money to fund Social Security due to this pandemic’s financial drain on society.)

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. According to the woman I talked to, I should qualify, otherwise, it will take them a long time of payments for that to get paid. Still waiting on their decision as the paperwork I sent along with my application has disappeared. Resent new paperwork and copies and a new signed application.

–I had my first injection in the left side of my spine and on July 9th they will do the right side. Feels a little bit better right now, but still too early to tell for sure. Still very stiff in the morning when I first get up.

–$30 in free fresh produce certificates have arrived.

–I also qualify for a cooling discount on my electric bill plus help from the state. There are programs for low-income people just have to find out what and where they are.

–I got my free fan for senior citizens with low income.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 6/18/2020 – #2


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly.

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God!

–Social Security and Medicare is still intact.

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. According to the woman I talked to, I should qualify, otherwise, it will take them a long time of payments for that to get paid. Still waiting on their decision as the paperwork I sent along with my application has disappeared.

–Medicaid which pays for an aide to help me bathe and dress, clean my apartment, do my laundry, and cooks breakfast and lunch. She also makes and changes my bed and does the laundry. Plus she takes my trash and recyclables down.

–Medicaid pays for my LifeStation Medical Alert Button monthly. It provides my incontinence supplies and provides me with one free meal every day.

–I had my first injection in the left side of my back and on July 9th they will do the right side. Feels better right now, but still too early to tell for sure.

–I got the call today telling me that I still qualify for the $30 in free fresh produce. I should receive the certificates in a couple of weeks.

–I also qualify for a cooling discount on my electric bill plus help from the state. There are programs for low-income people just have to find out what and where they are.

–This coming Wednesday they are giving Senior Citizens free fans. I plan to be there to get mine. I qualify.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Orthostatic Intolerance and Low Blood Pressure


Orthostatic Intolerance and Low Blood Pressure

This is related to the last article I posted. The doctors used the word orthostatic Intolerance many times when I went in due to falling. They feel I had a sudden drop in blood pressure and that caused the falling. It was also attributed to the time I lost my eyesight briefly and couldn’t see for a short period of time. It did come back thankfully.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome & Dizziness


Chronic Fatigue Syndrome & Dizziness

This is a big issue for me. I have terrible balance problems and Dizziness (also Vertigo) and I have been told that I must use a walker at all times. I have also passed out and woken up to find myself on the floor, on top of a side table that broke under me and hurt like hell and in other crazy situations. They can’t find a medical cause for this. However, this study seems to fit my condition. I have both Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I will fall asleep just sitting here on the computer. I used to fall asleep at work on my computer as well. When it gives me a warning I lie down so I don’t fall.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg