Category Archives: anti-depressant

My cat!


She has been listed as a therapy cat,

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Withdrawal, Dentist and Life in General


Hi friends, miss you guys. Withdrawal and a serious dental problem at the same time has been a lot of fun, NOT! My pain level is a 15 out of 1/10. I am just finally starting to feel better and the pain level is coming down. I am able to eat things that aren’t completely soft finally.

Been thinking about my ex-husband and our lives and think I have finally forgiven us both for the disaster of the marriage. The Lord boomed it out to me in my room and flustered me at first. VENGEANCE IS MINE, SAYETH THE LORD!!

It is not my job to punish either of us for what happened. Problem now is that I find myself wanting my marriage back. Not sure how real that is. I just might be lonely as my son has suggested. AND there has been no indication the ex wants to start over so it is mainly in my head right now. Besides we can’t go back to when things were better. I enjoyed having babies and being a military wife.

Still have pills to withdraw from. Be around when I can.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

This is a copy of my journal I write for my therapist


Journal – morning only – I figured I would put the journal on here so I don’t have to write it over:

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December 14, 2016

Day after therapy and I am still animated. I know it is false since it is mania and not my only mood/mask I show. I still have energy and am cleaning up my room as much as my physical body will let me. This is a breakthrough. Depression I only do what I must do at the very minimum. A huge bag of paper is recycled. This is paper that was shoved on a desk top and some of my file drawers. I still have several boxes down here from when my kids moved me to the downstairs room to prevent falls. I still fall. Fell off the chair yesterday. Getting up was fun and difficult. I did finally make it without screaming the house down in the middle of the night.

My sleep is running for about 3 hours, bathroom break and then up around 5 or 6 AM. This isn’t a bad sleep cycle. I also have a BiPap machine for sleep apnea.

So far today I gathered all the plastic grocery bags and set them on the stairwell for my son. I dusted two large pieces of furniture and took everything off them and dusted them.

I checked my blood sugar. Still way out of control. My doctor is not concerned. He never has been and that is why I got where I was. If I stay manic I will take better control, as long as I don’t get overboard with the mania. Right now, it is at a good point. Helpful, not hurtful. I feel happy and even productive.

I have a long way to go. My moods just aren’t stable though. They still fluctuate.

I took my pills, my inhaler, my eye drops and a glass of water.

I am also setting a goal every day. Keeping it so far. I am working slowly on my poll list. I am taking things slowly because I don’t want to send myself into ultra-mania and lose control. All it takes is a push to send me over the brink.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

This computer is acting up again.


I just got it back and it is doing crazy things, it quits while streaming and I keep losing the internet connection. It is just me. Every other device hooked to it works. I want to strangle someone right now I am so aggravated.

I got my anti-depressant doubled today. Hopefully this will help stabilize me. I took Cymbalta before but I was only stable at the lower doses. I had gone all the way up to 120 mg. Now I am on 60 mg.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

What’s up peeps? Not me, I am still down. New med again.


Had an emergency appointment today for the psychiatric nurse. My meds aren’t working and I am still dragging myself around surrounded by depression. It sucks. I don’t even want to be on here and I love my blog. I force myself to write poems for the other blog. I don’t want to stop completely or I  might not start up again. It is rough when you stop.

We are going back to a low dose of Cymbalta and see if that works. It worked before until we got to the top dose. Wish me luck!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Change in Anti-depressants


Yesterday I was started on a new anti-depressant, Trintellix, formerly called Brintellix. I have had good reviews of it and maybe it is all in my head (pun intended), but I feel different this morning. More hopeful you could say.

I have also agreed to weekly therapy for a while and to bring my son in for a session. Our lives are intertwined.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com