Category Archives: Apartment

Trying to get back into the swing of things.


I am having trouble getting back to regular blogging. The pain has become a major issue and I can barely stand it. Days of crying, don’t help, but what am I to do.

I just got a new pain management doctor since I changed to Medicare and have Medicaid. Dual coverage they call it and so most things should be covered. No more monthly premiums and all those copays.

My Medicaid also provides a home health aide to help with showering and dressing and the housework, shopping, and laundry. I also now have dental including dentures if/when I need them, hearing including hearing aids, and I am already certified by my last doctor as needing them 10 years ago, and eye checkups with glasses. I think it is one pair per year for diabetics.

They pay for my medical alert button and provide 1 meal a day.

There are a lot of other things, but I am not sure of everything that is part of the program. They do pay the 20% of what Medicare doesn’t cover. And due to my low income I am eligible with a lot of state help and/or medicare help for my prescriptions thank God. I couldn’t afford any on my little government disability check and the government is trying to get out of paying us as it is. Don’t know what will happen if they succeed. I can’t work.

My mental health is not quite as stable as it was. My anxiety is out of control during this pandemic and the uncertainty with the Medicaid.

Plus I spent April writing my book for NANOWRIMO and still working on other writing this month and when you get out of the habit it is hard to get back into it.

My dad’s nursing home (Long Term Care) has tested everyone for the virus and he doesn’t have it. However, their numbers are now, at last check, over 74 positive residents (all asymptomatic) and 9 positive employees with the first 3 employees now returning to work after recovering. And sadly 2 of the residents have died from the virus. We held for so long and it turned out they didn’t know they had sick residents since they weren’t showing any symptoms. They had decided to test all the residents and then the governor made it mandatory to test all nursing home residents. Half our numbers for the state are nursing home residents and assisted living residents. They don’t go out so they got it from the sick employees. However it seems that a lot of people are asymptomatic and not showing any signs of being sick, but they can pass it to someone else. This is a nasty virus and no wonder it is spreading so rapidly.

Our state is one of the worse and they are slowly starting to open things up a little bit. From what I have heard on the news there have been increases in the states that opened up earlier. That is what I expected would happen. We aren’t out of danger yet. Despite social distancing and wearing masks the numbers are still rising rapidly. I haven’t heard the last numbers we had. We have a lot of people still who insist that we don’t need masks or need to stay away from each other. I heard they had a party here last night and I think the largest number of people in groups is 10. I didn’t go, so I don’t know what happened. I am a huge risk factor so I am trying to protect myself.

I got notification from the pharmacy that I had a prescription for Narcan (to help prevent overdosing). I thought it was a mistake and contacted my prescriber which was my psychiatric nurse who writes my anxiety and psych meds. She told me that the governor has declared that anyone taking pain meds and anxiety meds must have Narcan available. Now I have to contact my pain management and report a new medication since that is the rule there, but as my psych nurse says he will have to write those same medications so I might get another one sent in from their office. She doesn’t prescribe me pain meds but knows I take them so she sent it in for me. I think that should have been done by pain management. I don’t have it yet as I am not making a separate trip when I know that I have other medications coming up for renewal.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Must use walker at all times


Doctor says I am a fall risk, duh! I was told to use the walker at all times and that included inside my apartment where I usually hobbled about. Finally getting used to it. I was leaving it all over the place LOL! Most of my falls, although not all of them have been in my apartment.

Started the application process for state aid (medicaid) and what a pain it is. Tons of paperwork. Designed to get you to quit most likely.

Pain management doctor took my Percocets away which I figured would happen. I was thinking of not mentioning what happened, but my daughters told me to tell her. What happened was serious. So she told me to cut them in half and she was going to prescribe Nucynta. Problem is the insurance company is fighting it. So I am in more pain because of the half of pill and if she doesn’t get it approved soon I am going to run out of them and I don’t know if the smaller dose would cause withdrawal or not. Of course, the doctor is not returning my phone calls. Even if I get the Nucynta I have to start out on a very small dose so don’t know how much pain relief  I might have anyhow. Chronic pain sucks.

My children have decided that it is too dangerous for me to live alone. Doesn’t leave a lot of options. None of them have room for me and that leaves long term care in a nursing home or assisted living, but that would be expensive since medicaid will cover the medical part, but not a living facility. And the nurse from medicaid that did my assessment agrees with my kids on the living alone part. I have lived alone exactly 3 years in my life total. The nurse is putting me down as needing help in many areas. Now just have to get through the medicaid part which can take months and constant requests for this or that paper. My sister just did it for my dad who is in a long term care facility for his stroke and dementia. This is a different program though.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

Two bad things about living in a high rise building.


Over the weekend we had a very real fire on the floor below me. I am on the 6th floor. Being disabled I have to go to the fire escape tower and wait there. Someone going down told us there was smoke on the floor below us. The fire happened to be on the other end of the building. The elevators are shut down when the alarm goes off. The guy in the apartment was unconscious and taken to the hospital where he spent several days recuperating from smoke inhalation. Others were given oxygen at the scene. I don’t know if more than just the one guy went to the hospital or not. He was making dinner and fell asleep and set his apartment on fire. This is not his first time they tell me. He has either been smoking which isn’t allowed either or cooking and falls asleep. He is endangering us all and shouldn’t be allowed to live here after all the warnings.

Then tonight both elevators went down at the same time. Now we are used to having one down a lot, but both were down and I and others can’t climb the stairs so we were stuck downstairs for hours before they got the repairman here. Firemen got the guy who was stuck out but did more damage getting him out.

This has been a bad week for sure.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

New kitchen floor is in now


It is similar to this one, but the tiles are longer.

Today they put in my new kitchen floor. It is a nice one too.

Before I had white square tiles that were permanently dirty and yellow. Washing the floor didn’t help.

Now we have the long, textured tiles in a gray that will hide dirt and I doubt they can turn yellow. The floor looks like something they would use in the flipping and fixer-upper shows.

The guy installing it said they were surprised they weren’t using the cheap commercial tiles. This is public housing so the nice tiles surprised me as well. Now if they would just put in nice soft carpet with a layer of padding it would be great. I fell on this concrete floor with an indoor/outdoor carpet and I was amazed I didn’t break my knee caps.

PS I just found the baseboards are not sticking to the wall. That can be an issue.

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Life in a senior high rise and currently revamping other (writing) blog


Well some of you may know that one year ago my name came up for a spot on the public housing (subsidized) list. I was terrified as to how I was supposed to live on the pittance the government gives me for disability. I knew I couldn’t get an apartment let alone food and other needs. Well public housing was the answer. The big problem with that is the super long waiting list. Regular housing is 5-10 years. More anxiety. Well the first good news is that the waiting list for seniors and disabled is less than 2 years long and as things work out I qualified for that housing just months before my dad had a stroke and I would have had no home.

Second good thing is that the rent is only 30% of your gross adjusted income. I had, by the powers to be, already filed for bankruptcy, and therefore all bills were gone and that was livable. I have been here for a year now. I was super frugal that first year, but have now decided that even with the ton of medical bills I can have cable TV and Wifi. I am in heaven right now. I may have to lower my tv selections in order to continue, but won’t know until I figure out how things go with the bill for that and my insulin pump bill and supplies are added in. I had money left over each month so barring no car problems (car is a 2006 and does have a lot of non-motor issues) I can do this.

Life here in the senior high rise I ended up in, is not bad. I am on the 6th floor so I have a great view out of my windows. It is not a super small apartment. It is ample room, other than needing a little more storage, but that is because I am a packrat. And it is all just mine, no sharing LOL!

They provide us with activities here. My favorite is art class. We are learning how to paint with a real art teacher and it costs me nothing. They pay all the fees for the teacher and supplies. We have 2 classes per month. Cool!

We have BINGO once a week. That is a small fee for the cards and a 50/50 ticket (which actually just gives 2 of us a chance to win, they  don’t keep any of that).

My kids have been encouraging me not to be a shut-in and to join things so now I have 2 writing groups and definitely one book reading club (maybe 2 if the one for the building comes through). So with all the reading and the writing I do, I have a pretty full calendar when you add in the doctor visits. I occasionally go to Overeaters Anonymous. I was going twice a week, but now with the insulin pump and having to keep track of my carbs, that I don’t go on binges like I used to. Plus fitting in those meetings is hard since they are the same time as my other activities.

And I am starting to revamp my other blog, the writing one. I wrote a lot of stuff to fit crazy prompts and therefore it wasn’t something I would normally write so I am deleting a lot of stuff, plus occasionally rewriting some posts that I still like, but need work.

Dad is still the same, but in the long term care part of the building now. They put him in the non-functioning part though and he is not that bad. We don’t like him in that area as we feel he needs stimulation to keep his brain functioning, but we have done all we could at this point. His house still needs to be sold. He has a reverse mortgage and that needs to be paid off very soon so we need a buyer now.

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

High Rise Activities


Here where I live in the senior high-rise we have a painting activity that is provided by the housing authority and paid for by them. It is a great art class and I never painted before, but the teacher has turned me into a painter.

Now they are planning a new project. It would be a second painting class, but this one would be painting on wood and making murals that would be hung throughout our building. Sounds like fun.

We also play BINGO weekly. We just had a change in leaders and things are definitely going better and better prizes, plus a meal of some kind. Whether pizza, subs cut up into chunks or hotdogs and of course some kind of dessert. Occasionally it is just deserts. Fun way to spend an evening.

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Joining the 21st century


Well today I had WiFi internet, cable tv and a digital phone installed. No more iPhone hotspots for WiFi which was always running out and running slow. I can actually watch up to date tv no more shows from 30 to 40 years ago over and over.

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com