My Diabetes is still out of control. Went on Victoza (daily injection) and it dropped way too low and took my appetite away and family had to force me to eat. After a week and a half doctor said to stop it and go back on my oral meds and try them again. Sugar is higher now and I can eat again.
Back on Klonopin, Trilofon (mood stabilizer) and Paxil.
Well I am amazed. I have asked God to help me with my diabetes and my numbers which are never below 250 even fasting, were 122 this morning. Breakfast was too sweet. I actually left half of it on the plate. I couldn’t stand the sweet.
One of the ways I am aiming to fix in myself is this craving for sweets. Now I did have a soda though. One step at a time.
Journal – morning only – I figured I would put the journal on here so I don’t have to write it over:
December 14, 2016
Day after therapy and I am still animated. I know it is false since it is mania and not my only mood/mask I show. I still have energy and am cleaning up my room as much as my physical body will let me. This is a breakthrough. Depression I only do what I must do at the very minimum. A huge bag of paper is recycled. This is paper that was shoved on a desk top and some of my file drawers. I still have several boxes down here from when my kids moved me to the downstairs room to prevent falls. I still fall. Fell off the chair yesterday. Getting up was fun and difficult. I did finally make it without screaming the house down in the middle of the night.
My sleep is running for about 3 hours, bathroom break and then up around 5 or 6 AM. This isn’t a bad sleep cycle. I also have a BiPap machine for sleep apnea.
So far today I gathered all the plastic grocery bags and set them on the stairwell for my son. I dusted two large pieces of furniture and took everything off them and dusted them.
I checked my blood sugar. Still way out of control. My doctor is not concerned. He never has been and that is why I got where I was. If I stay manic I will take better control, as long as I don’t get overboard with the mania. Right now, it is at a good point. Helpful, not hurtful. I feel happy and even productive.
I have a long way to go. My moods just aren’t stable though. They still fluctuate.
I took my pills, my inhaler, my eye drops and a glass of water.
I am also setting a goal every day. Keeping it so far. I am working slowly on my poll list. I am taking things slowly because I don’t want to send myself into ultra-mania and lose control. All it takes is a push to send me over the brink.
Not sure of picture source-sorry if this belongs to you. Just let me know and I will take it down. It was in my media files most of which come from Pixabay.
I always kept snacks in my room and I ate them steadily. I no longer keep snacks in my room and eat less. Not that it helps my weight. I still eat out, that is the problem in a nutshell. Also blame it on the meds I take that cause weight gain. That doesn’t help.