I have said this many times in my life and most likely will many times again. Last week I was complaining about my medication and how it worked for a week and made things worse the next week when we upped the dosage.
I was ready to write a long complaining post again. The usual when I am feeling the deep depression. Either that or I was going off the grid for awhile because all I did was go to bed or binge watch another series on Netflix.
However, I had my session with my psychiatric nurse and I explained how the medicine worked or really didn’t work LOL, and we didn’t change the medicine, but went back to the lowest dose again and will maintain the whole month at the lower dose.
She explained to me that it is possible that my liver may not be able to metabolize the higher doses. It happens to some people. It would explain why I was stable on Cymbalta for 8 months and when we increased the dose all hell broke loose.
Today I feel better. It started late last night. This Trintellix is fast acting just like my friend promised. I stopped the medicine on Wednesday and restarted the low dose again on Thursday and by Friday night I was feeling better.
Please Dear Lord, allow this medicine to work. I have suffered for almost 60 years with bipolar and I would like my life to be calmer and easier if that be thy will.
I am not myself, nor have I been for at least 5 months or so since I was last in the hospital. I haven’t recovered from that stay and the medication they put me on and so far my psychiatric nurse who prescribes my meds has not has much luck with the few things we have tried. I see her again on Thursday. Just a few more days to til I try something new with its possible reactions.
I can’t take much more of this depression. I am pulling away again from my family and friends. I am trying to pretend everything is ok so no one starts worrying about me, but my son, for one, sees right through me. Our conversations usually end up with me crying. Heck I am crying over every little thing as it is.
I am trying to keep my faith strong and write my daily devotions which is a struggle right now. I am not reading much, nor creating as much as I used to when I am feeling better.
For those of you that pray, please pray for me, for those that don’t please send positive thoughts that I can beat this again. I don’t want another hospital stay since it usually hurts more than helps and it is no fun.