Category Archives: Family

Happy Day – subscribe to my YouTube channel (Teresa Smeigh)

Bipolar and ex-husbands

Still raising hell!

My phone order should be fixed now.

I wrote another letter to my ex-husband asking for forgiveness for the last letter and to tell him that I finally have come to peace with what happened when we were teenagers and hope he can forgive me.

I read it twice and I think it is ok and shouldn’t cause problems like last time. Hopefully it isn’t the weaning off of the psychiatric medicine that caused me to write another letter. I hope he responds to me and not the children.

I can’t sleep. Too riled up.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

Here I am, typing again. Bad week!

Well friends at the moment I must type again. My cellphone, which I was using to upload videos took a nosedive. Barely works so I decided to try a webcam. Had the buttons to connect to YouTube, but found out in support they no longer support YouTube or any other social media. I took it back to the store. I don’t skype so it was no good to me.

My printer was going. Got a new one and it wouldn’t hook up, so I took it back to the store and got another one and this one is working.

I am just totally done. My back is in severe pain and the headaches terrible. Still withdrawing from the second medicine. She is drawing this one out since it is a cut-table pill.

And either tomorrow or the next day I will have a new iPhone. It is pretty useless right now. I got unlimited everything including data. I am going to start using my  new phone to do things since when my son and I have to find a place to live we won’t be able to afford cable. I will use my phone for netflix, wordpress, facebook, etc. I need to learn how to use the calendar and other necessities I normally do with the computer or a calendar.

Still have my channel and will try again with the new cell phone though have to be more careful and keep the storage free. I used up all the storage and taking things off doesn’t help. Keeps disconnecting me and the buttons are sticking.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

Grandson on his way to boot camp for the US Marine Corps


Me, middle is my grandson leaving for boot camp Monday and on the right is my son. Been thinking alot about when I was a Marine wife and the life on the base. I miss it and it was 40 years ago.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems


I am sitting here thinking about family. Mine are a comfort and they’re there for me and all my issues. I think they realize now what is going to be like from now on, but they will be there.


Here is my dad with me and my two daughters. On the left is the nurse. Both have 2 children. I don’t have new pictures of the kids and besides they really don’t like the children on social media too much.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

The Con Man and Me… (non-fiction) – Part 3

After he left I went to bed. He was supposed to work the midnight shift.

Over the next few days he never came home, didn’t call, didn’t answer my calls or the other tenants. They were coming to me with problems.

Now I had finally met the owner, but he still thought I lived upstairs. All of a sudden he came to the apartment and caught my son and I there and wondered what was going on and where was “P”?

Well things started to fall apart fast. We all told him what we knew and the owner started to think I was in collusion with “P” and I said no I didn’t know what he was doing. He told us he was part owner. The owner said no he wasn’t. Well then it all started to come out. All the deals he made. The money he was hiding and using. I was scared to death. This guy was a big fancy DC lawyer.

We all went to the police and filed a report. The only thing the police really cared about was could my son say he molested him. They had several complaints. My son said no. They couldn’t change his mind. They lost interest, but the owner filed a suit against him because he lost almost $100,000. Ours were attached but of no significance to the police.

As the owner worked through all the bills and stuff he found out that he hadn’t paid anything in months and the utilities were about to turn off. I suddenly had a electric bill to pay, the cable went off. I couldn’t afford that huge apartment and he wasn’t honoring anything about we had all paid rent to “P”. He brought someone in and he lived with us for a bit to manage the place, but I had to find a place to go because the rent he wanted and the fact I would have to share the apartment with this other man was not cool for me. He threw the kids in the basement out.

I started packing my belongings and found “P” took nothing with him that didn’t fit in his gym bag. That was why he was getting rid of papers. I found a letter from his wife who he owed money to for the kids he demanded so no one would know he was gay and he did something the federal government wanted him for as well. So he ran.

That is how we ended up with my mom and dad. My son had 2 years of high school to go through still.

Eventually he was caught and I went to the sentencing for closure. He looked nothing like the man I knew. I got nothing back and filed for bankruptcy. I won’t go into all the things he actually did to others there and on the job.

Have I learned anything? Yes and no. I am still too far trusting, but just a little more cautious.