Category Archives: Feelings

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 7/2/2020 – #4


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am a few days late for this one since I have been busy with my novel for NaNoWriMo.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly. (One meal a day is provided by Medicaid. So my food budget has decreased).

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God! No update on his status as yet.

–Social Security and Medicare are still intact. (There is talk about there not being money to fund Social Security, Medicare and Medicaid due to this pandemic’s financial drain on society.) I don’t even want to think about what would happen to me if something happens to them. You think you are set and something is bound to happen. 

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. Resent new paperwork and copies and a new signed application. I got a phone call that it had been received and should be processed in the next 30 days. I believe she was telling me it had been approved, but it would take a while to take effect. 

–I have received a back brace from my pain management doctor. It doesn’t fit me well since I am short-waisted and have a large bust. It took a while to figure out how to put it together and to put it on, but my back is actually in more pain from wearing it. Don’t know if I am doing something wrong or it just isn’t going to work due to fit. Not to mention I can’t wear my insulin pump the way I had been. I had to put the infusion set on my thigh now rather than my stomach as the tightness of the back brace cuts off the insulin where it was on my stomach. It also means I have to have a pocket to carry the pump in since I can’t clip it on my waistband like I usually do. It is causing me a lot of trouble and not sure if it is a help or not. It has only been one day so I will find out more as the days go by.

–I still have 2 days of physical therapy left. I am in less pain and able to do the exercises now and they have added some new ones.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 6/25/2020 – #3


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly. (One meal a day is provided by Medicaid. So my food budget has decreased).

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God! No update on his status.

–Social Security and Medicare is still intact. (There is talk about there not being money to fund Social Security due to this pandemic’s financial drain on society.)

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. According to the woman I talked to, I should qualify, otherwise, it will take them a long time of payments for that to get paid. Still waiting on their decision as the paperwork I sent along with my application has disappeared. Resent new paperwork and copies and a new signed application.

–I had my first injection in the left side of my spine and on July 9th they will do the right side. Feels a little bit better right now, but still too early to tell for sure. Still very stiff in the morning when I first get up.

–$30 in free fresh produce certificates have arrived.

–I also qualify for a cooling discount on my electric bill plus help from the state. There are programs for low-income people just have to find out what and where they are.

–I got my free fan for senior citizens with low income.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 6/18/2020 – #2


If anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head

–Food in my belly.

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–My 88-year-old dad is now positive for the virus, but he is asymptomatic and showing no symptoms of the disease so far. Thank God!

–Social Security and Medicare is still intact.

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. According to the woman I talked to, I should qualify, otherwise, it will take them a long time of payments for that to get paid. Still waiting on their decision as the paperwork I sent along with my application has disappeared.

–Medicaid which pays for an aide to help me bathe and dress, clean my apartment, do my laundry, and cooks breakfast and lunch. She also makes and changes my bed and does the laundry. Plus she takes my trash and recyclables down.

–Medicaid pays for my LifeStation Medical Alert Button monthly. It provides my incontinence supplies and provides me with one free meal every day.

–I had my first injection in the left side of my back and on July 9th they will do the right side. Feels better right now, but still too early to tell for sure.

–I got the call today telling me that I still qualify for the $30 in free fresh produce. I should receive the certificates in a couple of weeks.

–I also qualify for a cooling discount on my electric bill plus help from the state. There are programs for low-income people just have to find out what and where they are.

–This coming Wednesday they are giving Senior Citizens free fans. I plan to be there to get mine. I qualify.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

Covid-19 Strikes Home


Until 2 hours ago I was able to say that I did not personally know anyone with the virus. Then my sister called to say that our dad (in long term care/nursing facility) has now tested positive for the virus. He is asymptomatic and feeling fine. This brings the total of residents with it to 146 and 12 positive employees. 66 of the positive residents are now recovered. They are required by the state to test weekly.

I don’t know much about the asymptomatic cases, but I hope that means he will not get sick himself, he is just a carrier. So far he is fine and a large majority of their cases have been asymptomatic. This makes me wonder just how many people out there are running around spreading the virus because they don’t know they have it. For all I know I may be asymptomatic myself. How many of these loud-mouth know-it-alls who want to reopen the country and stop wearing masks are out there helping the virus to spread? You don’t have to have actual symptoms to be a carrier.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Well I kind of hit the wall when it comes to posting everything to 3 blogs – all creative writing is now on www.tessadeanauthor.com


I am finding it just too much to post everything on 3 blogs. So all my creative writing is now going on www.tessadeanauthor.com.

This blog will be dealing with my life and feelings, articles that might help, my work on positive thinking, etc.

My old writing blog www.finallyawriter.com will just be a place for my old stuff unless I eventually start moving it over to the newest writing blog. I am updating that blog looking for book ideas and trashing the stuff I don’t love and fixing the broken links as a lot of those prompt sites I wrote for have stopped posting their blogs for various reasons and in some cases due to the death (RIP) of the blog owners.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

Thankful Thursdays – Please Join Me – 6/11/2020 – #1


I am going to restart a post I used to participate in on another blog. It is no longer available so here is my version of it. This is number one and if anyone wants to join me and post what they are thankful for, please either create a post on your blog and put the link in the comments or just post in the comments.  You can use my logo in your post. If I get some interest in this post I will see about getting a new logo for it. Or if someone is able to create a similar logotype picture to use in the post that will be good also? I know several people created pictures for use on Linda G Hills “Stream of Consciousness” Saturdays. I am open to all suggestions. This is the extent of my talents in design, unfortunately. Now to the post at hand.

I am thankful for:

–A roof over my head (Praise God that I found out about public housing and managed to get my name on the list. County-wide program in my state, but would think most states/countries probably have similar programs. It is a long waiting list unless you are a senior or disabled and that was around 2 years. I am in a senior hi-rise and unfortunately, people do die all the time so there is a lot of turnaround).

–Food in my belly.

–Family, Friends, and Neighbors who care what happens to me.

–None of my family is sick with the coronavirus including my 88-year-old dad in a nursing home full of sick patients with the virus. He’s been tested 3 times now.

–I actually received my stimulus check unlike millions of others who didn’t, including my son.

–Social Security and Medicare is still intact.

–I have applied for charity care for my hospital bill from the end of January that was 10 days long. According to the woman I talked to, I should qualify, otherwise, it will take them a long time of payments for that to get paid.

–Medicaid which pays for an aide to help me bathe and dress, clean my apartment, do my laundry, and cooks breakfast and lunch. She also makes and changes my bed and does the laundry. Plus she takes my trash and recyclables down.

–Medicaid pays for my LifeStation Medical Alert Button monthly. It provides my incontinence supplies and provides me with one free meal every day.

–And my new rollator (walker with wheels and seat)

–I found a new pain doctor, referred by someone he was able to make walk again. There’s hope for me.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

 

To My Readers – Please read as I have a question


I have been trying to figure out how to word this so it makes sense and not confuse the hell out of everyone.

It has to do with the reader. I know all of my blogs, all 3, come through on one spot in the reader. They are not separated by the blog they were coming from. If I answer a comment or follow a blog that has followed using one of my blogs, does it go back to the blog used or does it just use what is the number one blog to reply or follow?

I tried to make my www.tessacandoit.com blog the number one blog and delete the www.finallyawriter.com, but it wouldn’t allow me to do it because www.finallyawriter.com is the blog I started with and therefore cannot be deleted without deleting every other blog I have.

I was wondering if I have to try and figure out how to make my new blog, www.tessadeanauthor.com, number one so the answers and follows come from there. If the reader knows what blog to use to answer or follow from then I don’t have to worry about that. Does that make sense? I know I just confused myself. LOL!

I do know that updating three blogs with all my writing is getting old fast. Some of you simply follow me from whatever prompt I enter and don’t follow my blog itself. And I just noticed that someone I have been following forever had the follow me as not followed and I was sure I followed her. I know once in my reader if I hit follow it doesn’t let me know what blog it is that is following them.

Maybe this question is unanswerable.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

#Black Lives Matter


I just posted an emotionally challenged video on my youtube channel about how Black LIves Matter. I will post the video here rather than writing it all out on here.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses

New Author’s Website – http://www.tessadeanauthor.com

Author – Old Writing –  http://www.finallyawriter.com

About my life –  http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

I am also a youtuber in the authortube section on writing. See my videos here:  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSpNS-6gfJ0s8eD1berLwQg

NJ still in crisis


My state is still in crisis due to the coronavirus. We have over 130,000 new cases and over 8000 deaths. Pretty sobering and quite scary.

My father is in long term care and most of those facilities are being hit hard. My dad’s facility is doing quite well. No residents are sick and the 6 positive employees are quarantined. My dad is 88 and I worry about him and this virus, but out of all the facilities in the state we are one of the few with no cases at all except for 6 employees.

I just switched my medical insurance to Original Medicare, Part D prescriptions and Medicaid. I should now be pretty much covered completely and have benefits I didn’t have before. I can even get hearing aids now. Needed them 10 years ago, but couldn’t afford them. Medicaid covers them. I also now have dental and eye care. They cover dentures and eyeglasses. Two things I need or will need in the case of the dentures in the future. I am also covered for an aide and that will be so much help. I am really struggling right now. I can’t clean or push a vacuum cleaner or change my bed. I grocery shop and do laundry but it is very difficult. I need help showering and dressing among other things of a personal nature. I will get one meal a day provided to me at no cost. This Medicaid program is called MLTSS and is fairly new and I am not sure it is in all states, but it is specifically for the blind, disabled and aged who need nursing home care, but want to stay in their homes. My kids don’t want me living alone, but I am not ready for a nursing home. My dad is in one and he’s 88, but I am only 63. I just have medical issues that I need help with and this program is designed to take care of those issues.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

Dad’s Birthday and the Nursing Home


My dad turned 88 yesterday the 19th. He had a stroke so his mind is often not with us. Dementia has also begun. Visiting can sometimes be rough as he has moments where he doesn’t know who we are or he will mix up the family members so he is confused as to which kid belongs to my sister or me or which kids (the grandchildren) belong to our children. We try to explain the relationships to him, but sometimes it is too much for his damaged brain (due to a severe stroke) to understand.

His body is still very strong considering he doesn’t exercise and is in a wheelchair and he looks good for 88 years old. He looks better than I do most of the time.

Due to the coronavirus there has been no visitation for many months. They had just reopened to visitors after the flu was so rampant. They had one employe with the virus, but they were rapidly diagnosed and removed. Two of the residents were sick and tested, but we haven’t heard the test results. They were isolated from the rest of the residents. Compared to a lot of nursing home environments they are doing well protecting their residents and they keep us advised through text message blasts.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.