Category Archives: Feelings

By Meera Lester – “365 Ways To Live The Law Of Attraction”


I have mentioned the Law of Attraction time and again. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. This  book has 365 ways (or days if you wish) of info. I will post some things if I think them relevant to positivity. Mainly that is what I am more interested in.

I understand the law of attraction. What you project out into the universe you draw to you. Think positive thoughts and you will attract positive people and things to you. Project the bad thoughts and that is what you will attract. As someone put it, whining about my pain and unhappiness will just draw more towards me.  I understand this, but it is very hard not to think negative thoughts when your life basically sucks and my pain is unbearable.

I have had many discussions with my dad about these subjects and a lot of other ones many of you may not believe in. And that’s ok, we are all different and have different beliefs.

Part of me wonders if I am being punished for something I did in a past life. Then again it could be this life. I have done some things that I knew were morally wrong and I feel wicked at times for having lived through some of the things I did in my life.

God has a plan for us and mine isn’t particularly pleasant this time around (if you believe in re-incarnation). And from what I have learned we will relive certain lives until we have learned the lessons God has set out for us. You will repeat a lesson until you learn it.

God bless us all!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

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Tons of clothes, helping others


I have an over-abundance of clothes taking up room and of a variety of sizes. Always kept them just in case I gained or lost weight and needed them. It has finally come to my attention that I have not touched those boxes in many, many years.

Talking to my therapist she suggested that I use the clothes donation to bless others. I have been feeling unhelpful with my blog. So she suggests that I donate all those clothes and feel better about myself by helping others.

I agreed with her and my dad that I need to get rid of these clothes as losing weight doesn’t seem to be happening. I have been at this weight and size for years. He said if I do miraculously lose weight slowly buy a few things to create a new fitting wardrobe, but to be honest I doubt I will lose weight. The insulin increases weight and my body structure is that of my mom’s. I am shaped how she used to be while alive and there is genetics to contend with.

Might as well clear up a lot of space by getting rid of all of those clothes.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

What Is Fibro Fog and ME/CFS Brain Fog?


What Is Fibro Fog and ME/CFS Brain Fog?

The brain fog is one of the hardest things to deal with. I can’t have conversations without forgetting words and I am always forgetting where I am going and how to get there. Very embarrassing. I have printed before some of the crazy things the fibro fog has caused me to do. It does explain a lot though. I never could figure out how I could get lost driving to work every day for years, but this explains it.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Be Careful What You Wish For, A Tale Of Woe


My mother always warned me to be careful what I wished for because I just might get it.

You know, mothers are pretty smart.

I was crying my tears of woe about my marriage at the time. I was not happy, my husband didn’t really care and I wanted out or so I thought.

When she walked into our life I thought it was what I wanted, but now it was too late because I had gotten what I had wished for and that was to be out of my marriage and that is exactly what happened. I was shocked. I wasn’t really thinking it would happen. NOT really!

There are many days I wish it would all be a dream and things were as they had been, but you can’t go back so easily.

I just woke up from a dream of a part of my pre-divorce life, crying.

ALWAYS BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

21 Symptoms Kids With Fibromyalgia Had That Were Brushed Off as ‘Growing Pains’


21 Symptoms Kids With Fibromyalgia Had That Were Brushed Off as ‘Growing Pains’

Although I had most of these and didn’t know why, a few of them brought back memories. Doctors still don’t take us seriously and now we are adults.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Bipolar in the workplace…


If you had asked me years ago while I was working I would have told you I was a great employee and most of the time I was. I had great work ethics and was polite and respectful.

However my bipolar mood swings hid my true work habits and even when brought up I didn’t really believe what I was being told.

I couldn’t focus. I was constantly day-dreaming and every review notated this. I didn’t believe them.

I was extremely emotional. I cried at the drop of a hat or if you looked at me sideways. When my supervisor took me to the manager and said “you deal with her, I can’t take it anymore!” it started slowly sinking in. I started thinking about it and then I started to become more aware of my behavior and was shocked. This was normal behavior for someone with bipolar disorder, but I didn’t notice it.

It is possible to hold a job with bipolar disorder, but it certainly isn’t easy. There were lots of other incidents and I now am aware of them. I am on disability now and 61 years old so close to retirement age anyhow. I know longer have the thinking abilities anymore to hold a job anyhow.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

They egged my car AGAIN!


I have lived here since 2004 and this is the 2nd or 3rd time it has happened. I don’t know why. There were other cars on the street as well and one time they threw glass bottles under the car and my old (as in very old age) neighbor helped me pick up the glass and had called to let me know before I came out and drove away on top of the glass. I couldn’t see them from my house.

My son quipped, “if they throw eggs scramble them!” I retorted, “I prefer my eggs on a plate!”

There were some fancy, expensive cars on the road with mine, but it was me they aimed at.

My pain is getting worse and it will be several weeks to over a month until I can be rescheduled since I had gotten sick before the last procedure. I had a taste of no pain for a while, but now it is back. I lie down for quite a while when I can although that does tend to make me stiff.

My friend and I have switched our brunch day to Sundays rather than Saturdays. Less crowded and better vibes. We were getting aggravated on Saturdays.

Still waiting for the bankruptcy to go forward. I am very anxious. Working on not spending money and wasting gas if I don’t have to go anywhere. Working on setting up a budget as well.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com