My old phone is about to die completely. I ordered a new one online last Wednesday. Come to find out it is backordered and I get a new delivery date every day. Very annoying especially since calling is all my phone can do now and the battery dies quickly.
This all started with 2 different techs at Apple. I have an iPhone. Verizon doesn’t work on them. Apple couldn’t help and the phone was quickly shutting down. I called Verizon since I needed a new phone. I had to pay off my old one which was around $100 and then set up my plan which is now unlimited across the board including the data. However, the rep didn’t know it was on back order although she should have been told when ordering it. She apologized, but it is already done and wait I must since I also ordered the supplies. By the time the money went back on my card it will most likely, hopefully, be here.
Still withdrawing from my psych drugs. Next week I go down to a very small dose. Wonder if it will be bad. So far I have been pretty well with this one.
I have been fantasizing about my ex-husband. Now that I have forgiven him (and I) for what happened 40 plus years ago I find myself drawn back to him. He doesn’t know how I feel. My children do and so does my therapist. Of course I also want to go back in time and start over. I know that isn’t possible. Neither of us are the same. I won’t take orders and he is now used to following “hers” and so things aren’t really ideal and he hasn’t made any indication that he wants to start over (yet), I have prayed to God to do what he thinks is best. Do I want him back or am I dreaming or am I just feeling alone. I am not interested in another man at this time for sure.
You guys are my friends and family. I am getting worse.This last medicinal change started to help and then bam I started flipping all over the place. My mood swings are bad and fast. I wanna scream and break things in rage. My hallucinations are fast and I see, feel and hear things. I just woke up from a nightmare where I was tied down with my arms close to my body and strapped to a gurney. I took several minutes to realize I was awake. One of my fears is being restrained and not be able to get away. I couldn’t get up right away because I felt restrained.
I love you all and thank you for all the support. I will be back later when I am under control again. I miss you now, I have been around so little lately. This last scenic ride ended up in the hospital in March. I don’t want to repeat that.
My daughter made me a logo and now she is going to make a matching header for that blog and just a header for my writing blog. I hope the writing blog is funny and cartoonish. That is what I told her I wanted. The books on there now are very serious, remind me of encyclopedias.
She is a talented computer graphic artist. She does work on the side and some of it just happens to be her family’s. She did my son’s certified personal training and group training logos plus something he can use on a t-shirt if he wanted it.