Category Archives: Gratitude Post

Praise and thanks to the Lord


I just got word that I am being given a second chance to write for IBPF. I thank the Lord.

I knew something was going to happen since I heard God’s voice the other night. He woke me up.  I had read that hearing your name called when it can’t be someone from this realm, it usually is God. No message just warning you that something is about to happen.

I was very upset over what happened with them and it was my fault, can’t deny that, even if accidental. I just knew that it was God warning me of my second chance coming.

Thank you Lord.

Love,

Tessa

 

 

Hallelujah and praise the Lord!


Well my loved ones something happened this morning and I think I am finally snapping out of it. I cried for hours mainly about my deceased mother and the possibility of losing my father any time sooner or later. Only the Good Lord knows.

During this period I felt something snap and I felt more like myself.  I wonder if the Lord flipped the switch. I found myself thinking about starting my devotions again and writing stories /poems again even too.

I am tired of the crap from IBPF where I was writing articles for. I don’t need them. I can post my own articles on my blog. She has several she hasn’t published or acknowledged for months. I will figure them out and published them also on my blog. I don’t need this aggravation. it was nice while it lasted, but I know I can write and I don’t need them for validation.

Thank you Lord for your blessings and bringing my life back to me.

Love,
Tessa

 

Daily Gratitude March 10, 2016


Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making me listen to the doctor about my diet. It is hard to do all at once. I crave a soda and sugar and every time I pass my old haunts I want to stop. At home is the good stuff.

Tessa

PS Has anyone heard of a smoothie, pre-made, and containing Aloe Vera. He wants me to take that one to help heal my insides, but couldn’t find it. Thanks!

Bipolar, Fibromyalgia and my progress, also therapy progress. Gratitude List.


I have said before that there is a link between my bipolar and fibromyalgia. If I am manic, my fibromyalgia is very painful. I just found this out recently.  Also the fact they made me stop my anti-inflammatory so I could take an anti-biotic had ALL my joints singing a horrible tune. I could hardly move. I thought I was going to have to call son or dad to get me out of bed. Terrible experience. Thank God I am back to normal, well normal for me.

Had therapy the other day. She says I am making huge progress. I wrote a letter to my ex-husband, and 3 children. I didn’t sugarcoat, but I didn’t go off on a nasty tangent like I wanted to. I know God wouldn’t like that. Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord. I give my ex credit he didn’t go off on me. He didn’t call me. He called the children who verified I was not going crazy and needed hospitalization, but just getting it off my chest. I also told them all about the baby I lost a long time ago and was still grieving. Nobody has talked to me except my son. Not sure if that is good or bad. My therapist thought the letter was well written and my homework this week is to color. I like to color, but can’t focus very long. She wants to see color. So I just bought crayons and pencils, not sure which medium I prefer and I have 3 coloring books, all different. Plus I write a journal the kind with all my feelings and that takes time, but she reads that during the week and has our topics ready and her questions are ready. Working well and I don’t mind her reading my deepest thoughts. That is how to heal. I can’t print all of them in this blog though you guys know most of what I say to her. I finally healed the scabs. Now I pick terribly at my skin on my hands, yank my ears, twist my hair and bite myself. Plenty more to go.

Tomorrow I go for my med management session with my APN nurse. I have to mention an article I read about study that shows sedatives like Klonopin, Xanax and so on have an increased chance of suicides and cancer rates and they are quite high. Going to try and remember to ask about this tomorrow. Been taking them for years on a steady basis and I now have a cyst in my breast. They don’t know if it is benign or not.

 

Daily Gratitude March 04, 2016


Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to sit up and notice. I judged my ex-husband and tried to punish him myself. Now I am the one suffering severe physical pain. Punishment is not my place, but the Lord’s and for all I know he has already been punished. I was working towards forgiveness of my ex. Not towards extra pain for me.

Tessa

 

Daily Gratitude March 02, 2016


Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to seek help that will change my life. I have changed to a healthy diet and started taking my acid reflux medicine again. Hardly any acid reflux in the last week and stomach pains and other complications from it have toned themselves down. Now I could use the pains to lessen themselves. I can barely walk up and down the steps and I live on the 2nd floor.

Tessa

 

Daily Gratitude February 25, 2016


Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to seek help that will change my life. My diet is making me sick which I knew but didn’t take a real listening to until the pain became so bad that I could barely walk due to my knees. I was in complete pain throughout my body today and went and was told that my body is full of inflammation and caused by my horrid diet. Now I must listen if I want to lose the pain and all this weight. I wondered when I would finally listen.

Tessa

 

Daily Gratitude February 24, 2016


Dear Lord, thank you for continuing to keeping my Fibromyalgia pain low. About a 4/10 for the thirteenth day. Dear Lord I am rejoicing because you threw knee pain relief in there too. Walking, especially up and down stairs was very painful. Last night it hit 9/10. Not good. It could barely hold my weight. Today I got downstairs without thinking about it. He took it away for now. Into every life some rain must fall. For me it has been pouring, but I thank the Lord for letting me to live and to continue to do his bidding for him.

Tessa