Category Archives: Gratitude Post

I am thankful for:


I am thankful for:

I can’t fit a desk in this room which I need and I was fit to be tied, but Dad had a hospital bed tray on wheels that he wasn’t using.

It works perfect. I can move it to either side. I can move it down to end of bed and use as a regular desk. I can push it against the one window once all the boxes are gone.

My calendar fits on it great and I can write on it and see it easily. Can even write on top or move the calendar off for a project.

Especially important as I have to start doing my article research a different way. I can write on here if needed while my article stays up on the computer. Some of you know about my recent fiasco. I don’t need another one. I also have to redo those topics if I still want to use my older stories in my files. I don’t need a repeat and writing while under the influence of psychiatric drugs is bad news.

Love,

Tessa

 

 

Praise and thanks to the Lord


I just got word that I am being given a second chance to write for IBPF. I thank the Lord.

I knew something was going to happen since I heard God’s voice the other night. He woke me up.  I had read that hearing your name called when it can’t be someone from this realm, it usually is God. No message just warning you that something is about to happen.

I was very upset over what happened with them and it was my fault, can’t deny that, even if accidental. I just knew that it was God warning me of my second chance coming.

Thank you Lord.

Love,

Tessa

 

 

Hallelujah and praise the Lord!


Well my loved ones something happened this morning and I think I am finally snapping out of it. I cried for hours mainly about my deceased mother and the possibility of losing my father any time sooner or later. Only the Good Lord knows.

During this period I felt something snap and I felt more like myself.  I wonder if the Lord flipped the switch. I found myself thinking about starting my devotions again and writing stories /poems again even too.

I am tired of the crap from IBPF where I was writing articles for. I don’t need them. I can post my own articles on my blog. She has several she hasn’t published or acknowledged for months. I will figure them out and published them also on my blog. I don’t need this aggravation. it was nice while it lasted, but I know I can write and I don’t need them for validation.

Thank you Lord for your blessings and bringing my life back to me.

Love,
Tessa

 

Daily Gratitude March 10, 2016


Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making me listen to the doctor about my diet. It is hard to do all at once. I crave a soda and sugar and every time I pass my old haunts I want to stop. At home is the good stuff.

Tessa

PS Has anyone heard of a smoothie, pre-made, and containing Aloe Vera. He wants me to take that one to help heal my insides, but couldn’t find it. Thanks!

Bipolar, Fibromyalgia and my progress, also therapy progress. Gratitude List.


I have said before that there is a link between my bipolar and fibromyalgia. If I am manic, my fibromyalgia is very painful. I just found this out recently.  Also the fact they made me stop my anti-inflammatory so I could take an anti-biotic had ALL my joints singing a horrible tune. I could hardly move. I thought I was going to have to call son or dad to get me out of bed. Terrible experience. Thank God I am back to normal, well normal for me.

Had therapy the other day. She says I am making huge progress. I wrote a letter to my ex-husband, and 3 children. I didn’t sugarcoat, but I didn’t go off on a nasty tangent like I wanted to. I know God wouldn’t like that. Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord. I give my ex credit he didn’t go off on me. He didn’t call me. He called the children who verified I was not going crazy and needed hospitalization, but just getting it off my chest. I also told them all about the baby I lost a long time ago and was still grieving. Nobody has talked to me except my son. Not sure if that is good or bad. My therapist thought the letter was well written and my homework this week is to color. I like to color, but can’t focus very long. She wants to see color. So I just bought crayons and pencils, not sure which medium I prefer and I have 3 coloring books, all different. Plus I write a journal the kind with all my feelings and that takes time, but she reads that during the week and has our topics ready and her questions are ready. Working well and I don’t mind her reading my deepest thoughts. That is how to heal. I can’t print all of them in this blog though you guys know most of what I say to her. I finally healed the scabs. Now I pick terribly at my skin on my hands, yank my ears, twist my hair and bite myself. Plenty more to go.

Tomorrow I go for my med management session with my APN nurse. I have to mention an article I read about study that shows sedatives like Klonopin, Xanax and so on have an increased chance of suicides and cancer rates and they are quite high. Going to try and remember to ask about this tomorrow. Been taking them for years on a steady basis and I now have a cyst in my breast. They don’t know if it is benign or not.