My sugars are out of control and run from 250 to 350 fasting. Not good!
So besides the talk with my doctor who may or may not do anything. If he didn’t I wouldn’t be surprised. He hasn’t been particularly helpful up to now.
So I got vegetables and fruits. I also got some chocolate milk. I don’t drink milk unless it is thickly chocolate. This is 1% and I figured I would hate it, but it wasn’t that bad and so I can drink a little milk. I know I have to watch the sugar content. I need diabetes nutrition classes again. I don’t remember much from my original classes many years ago.
Got my walk in. Trip around Walmart and the trip in from the parking lot. Lots of walking, but surprisingly it isn’t too bad on the pain side. Sleeping last night was so painful and getting out of bed was hard and I lose my balance and crash into something all the time.
Praise be the Lord and thank you for a day less all the pain.
My problems are many, but diabetes is out of control. So either need a new dr (endocrinologist) or for my dr to step up to the plate and be a dr who cares about this. My numbers ran over 300 in the hospital and I was on insulin. My last recorded A1c was 9.9 and I know that isn’t good. It is bad and serious. I don’t want insulin and not sure I need it yet. Would like to control it with the oral medications instead if possible. I am terrified of needles.
I have requested a meter from this same dr, but was sent to voicemail with the nurses. No answer, no meter, but to go through insurance I need a script from the office.
It hurts to have the kids tell you that you are not the same strong mom they remembered. The one who fought mental disorders and who is now letting them control her among other things. I guess I needed that talk to get my head thinking straighter. They want me around and not killing myself either intentionally or by stupidity and not taking care of myself.
I want to be around. I feel selfless, less selfish helping others and happily. I feel that is what I am on this earth for. That is my religion talking. Even though I have returned to God, my Children spent very little time in church or learning because I gave up on him. I am trying to get them to understand how important this has become to me.
I don’t completely trust the drs I have, but changing them (negativity warning) seems like a lot of trouble with no guarantee that the next dr will be better. My experience with drs seems negative mostly. That is the way our system seems to be run. Hurry, hurry, hurry with no real thought being put into patient care.