I pledge to be held accountable for my health. I will exercise (silver sneakers at a local health club), eat right and cut out sugar, get rid of the insulin and diabetes pills and eliminate my diabetes entirely and lose weight so I can get rid of my myriad other illnesses and pills.
It starts the same way for all of us. We are born as infants fully reliant on our parents or caregivers to supply our every need. We slowly begin to develop both physically and mentally and begin to integrate our existence with the lives of others. We develop these skills as a result of nurturing or the innate will for instinctive survival.
At some point during this developmental phase we approach a fork in the road. Some follow the fork that leads to new opportunities for growth and personal development; others maintain the only path they have ever known, the path of simple survival.
As we traverse these two paths, the experiences we encounter lead to the development of our CHARACTER. This, in essence, is the integration of all our experiences resulting in the principles we follow to live our lives. These experiences shape our morals, and ethics providing…
Yesterday’s experiment with lunch and treat was probably high sugars, but I didn’t check. I repeated the experiment today (I mean the day before) and yesterday. It is 5:30 AM now and technically the next day. This time I checked my blood sugars afterwards. It was 3 hours so they had already started on their way down and it was 364, not good at all.
I went to bed last night at 10 PM and actually slept fitfully, but made myself stay in bed until I fell back asleep. I woke up at 5 AM and had to eat. So I checked my blood sugar and it was 118 and then had a breakfast bowl with my diabetic meds. I have to take my thyroid meds later on when my stomach is empty. I know freshly cooked is better, but not ready for that yet. One change at a time.
Now if I could eliminate the nasty dreams I would probably sleep better. They wake me up, but the anti-psychotic I just stopped taking that cause the extra insomnia is starting to leave my system. I will be staying on the old one I have been taking all along and nothing else until she comes back from vacation in mid-August. That will get it out of my system before starting a new one. Whatever that may be. Running out of meds to try.
I have been binge watching CSI:Miami. I have a crush on David Caruso. I could watch him for hours. Another married man. I need to find a man around here that is not married and wants a relationship. We talked about relationships in therapy yesterday. I am a little afraid of starting over again. I have had nothing, but bad luck with men ever since the disastrous marriage. Never had good luck. So my David Caruso fantasies will have to work for now. Even I know a man is not going to drop in through the ceiling so I have to leave the house to find one. One step at a time. Healthy life first. I choose to be well now. I can’t wait to see how far I get.
He listened and even acknowledged he should have been following this more carefully and been more aggressive In treatment.
I am now on an increased does of my Glipizide and he added 2 500 mg tablets of Metformin. Now we wait to see if it helps.
I need to take my sugar count every day and take my list or meter into the doctor in my next appointment in a month. I have been taking it everyday anyhow.
I am so glad he listened and treated me this time. He said we might have to consider an endocrinologist if his treatment doesn’t work. I told him about my numbers and the insulin in the hospital and he seemed happy that maybe I would just go on insulin. If the increased treatment doesn’t work I may have to go on it, like it or not, but not ready for that yet.
Went to the store and got fresh fruit and Veggies plus protein to add to diet each meal. And protein just before bed from what I remember.
The plus, thank the Lord, is my diabetes meds are free through the stores program where I get my medications refilled. I can’t complain about that.