Category Archives: Holiday

Happy Holidays from Tessa and Family

All I can say is that I am happy that it is over. I do not like the holidays.

I wished for something to happen so I would not have to attend. I got sick, upset stomach and severe body pain. Unfortunately it was not bad enough to get me out of it.

I am not in a good mood right now. Mood swings again.

Hope everyone had a great holiday.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems



Paying for yesterday

As some of you read I walked yesterday more than my doctor has recommended and that I can do without major pain the next day.

Sure enough last night into this morning the pain has been tremendous. I couldn’t get comfortable in bed. Every movement brought pain and I have no real pain meds. I use Ibuprofen and Meloxicam.

I am thankful not to be in a wheelchair, but unless things improve that option will be coming down the road. I am working on the 5 minute walking in the hopes of improving some of these joints so I can use them without major pain. I would like to walk again. I spent our time at Disney World in a wheelchair as that was entirely too much walking at once. The dash across the airport 4 times was no fun either. I was so far behind and dragging slower and slower. Here I am walking and dragging a walk-on suitcase and a tote bag. Kids couldn’t help, they had their own to worry about.





Happy Memorial Day weekend from NJ

I just watched the parade of this community go by my house. We are so big and spread out I would suppose each community has its own parade and food is available afterwards. (Free Food). Will get my walk in today. Longer than usual most likely. The town will be there and a lot will drive. The ones like us that aren’t too close to the park to walk in our conditions.

I had carrots earlier so real food appeals to me. The carrots were a snack.

Worked on some of the medical bills and EOB’s. You can’t imagine how many I have unless you are being treated for a lot of things like me. I haven’t started paying the hospital. Waiting to see if I qualify for help from Charity Care. I have payment plans set up with the smaller non-hospital ones.

My son is going away and overnight for the holiday. I had to make sure I got my meds before he left. He is still here. Cleaning his tent and kayak.

No mail so no bills today. I dread getting the mail.

I was supposed to get a left mammogram and ultrasound due to a small cyst. I was supposed to have a cat scan of my lungs. All postponed due to the cost. I have to get glasses, but the program on my Medicare Advantage plan will pay for standard glasses on their frames so hopefully can avoid a charge there, but my eyes are getting worse. They affect my daily life for sure so have to get them no matter what.

The carrots are giving me a tummy ache. They do quite often. Have to watch how many I eat. My stomach will reject veggies at times. Other times I can eat them. I also have a headache. Nerves, but I decided to follow my pledge and join into outside activities.