Category Archives: Life

I know what you are thinking – where the hell has she been?


My life was turned upside down and still isn’t completely righted yet.

Not sure what I did write so some of this may be repeated.

Around January 12, I was treated for a urinary tract infection and yeast infection. The start of my antibiotic roll.

On January 20 I woke up and felt really funny. I struggled to the bathroom and was standing by my emergency call bell, but my mind was on the fact that the bed seemed a hundred miles away and still moving. I couldn’t catch it. I looked at the phone, but my mind couldn’t comprehend what the phone would/could do and who should I call in the middle of the night and why. Still forgetting the call button at my side I started that long trek to my bed and reached out to pull the emergency button by my bed and passed out.

Luckily the guard was still on duty. I was non-responsive. He called the ambulance. They struggled to get me to wake up enough to walk to the stretcher since I was in a strange position on the bed and the couldn’t get the stretcher beside me. I remember very little of this day. I was rushed to the hospital. It was freezing out and I had on a T-shirt and shorts and bare feet.

Next, I recall my clothes being pulled off and a burning sensation that I later learned was a drug test. Unbeknownst to me, I was exhibiting drug overdose symptoms and sure enough, they found narcotics in me since I take 4 a day for pain. They started the drug overdose protocol and the Narcan being administered was horrendous. My daughter was watching this and crying. Each dose shocked me briefly into consciousness and then back out I would go. After a couple of doses I was awake long enough to understand that the next dose might very well throw me into withdrawal. However, since my kidneys were shutting down and my blood pressure was under 50 which is very low and dangerous they were more focused on that and they just told me to prepare myself because if I go into withdrawal I am going to be in terrible pain. They were pumping me full of liquids trying to force my kidneys to function but they weren’t cooperating and I didn’t even feel an urge to go. The next dose I got I shot out of the bed screaming in pain and crying about the pain in my chest. They did an EKG to make sure it wasn’t my heart and then went about trying to get me to wake up fully and get my kidneys to function and my blood pressure back to normal or at least higher than it was. Finally, my kidneys started to function and all that liquid was released and pushing through my kidneys. Blood pressure rose some and they decided I didn’t need to go to the ICU. I was put in a regular room with the ICU on standby.

I didn’t overdose on purpose. Due to kidney failure my narcotics were not flushing out so as I continued to take my normal dose they built up and thank God I woke up for whatever reason and realized something wasn’t right and pulled the emergency button before I passed out.

At one point in my life, I tried to overdose and didn’t take enough so that was my wake up call. I sure as hell do not want to do that again. They sent me home the next day with antibiotics for the bronchitis I had. Unfortunately it was very serious and my asthma complicated it and I was back in the hospital for a total of 10 days with antibiotics in my IV and orally. Pumped full of Prednisone which since it was a steroid it sent my blood sugars soaring. Came home on that. Plus all the breathing treatments and a new one and found out they contain steroids, some of them anyhow and my sugars all this time later are still out of whack.

Because of this I have home health care which is helping me apply for medicaid which is help I can really use. Dressing myself and bathing is downright difficult and since I have a bath tub and not a walk in shower I need help. Embarrassing, but I got over it. It is nice having help. Hopefully I will be approved for this long-term with a ton of paperwork to fill out.

So anyway I haven’t been around or up to writing. I am still recuperating.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

4th Day In Hospital


In the last one and a half weeks I have had at least 4 infections I was non-responsive. I was just able to hit my emergency button.

Transported to hospital by ambulance. Don’t remember much. Blood pressure was bottoming out and since a narcotic was found in my urine they pumped me full of Narcan for a drug overdose. Horrible from what I remember. I didn’t overdose on purpose. My kidneys were not functioning so the narcotic wasn’t being flushed out and when I took subsequent doses it caused an overdose.

I spent two days and came home Tuesday night only to have to come back Wednesday afternoon.

Not sure what is going on. Infection running rampant and trouble breathing as well. Hope to be back soon as possible.

Tessa

Helen Keller – holiday quote


green stars

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, Happy Chanukah and Happy Kwanzaa. If I missed your special holiday I am sorry and please tell me and I will add it to my post. Love you all, no matter what God you celebrate.

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Daughter’s Baby Shower


Here I am at the baby shower.

Mother to be at 32 weeks at the baby shower.

We had a nice sit-down meal at a very fancy place. Great turnout and they have just about everything they absolutely need. My daughter is 40 now and this is number 3. Oldest is 21 and a US Marine and the middle child is going to be 13 when this one is born.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.

Friday #fotoflash October 11, 2019


DB McNicol’s #fotoflash

Photo courtesy of DB McNicol via Pixabay

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Young Hitch Hikers

By Teresa Smeigh 2019

Traveling at night was mom’s idea to avoid all the traffic on our way across the country to California. She constantly hushed us as she couldn’t concentrate when we did drive during the day. She found driving at night with all of us asleep made it hard for her to stay awake.

We were driving this one night, and it was pitch black out. The car sputtered and quit. We sat, hoping for someone to drive by and stop.

Suddenly the moon came from behind the clouds and lit up the area, and then we noticed the gas sign up on the hill light up. The electricity must have been out. It was too far for my mom to walk, dragging two little kids along with her just to get gas.

Just then some lights came up behind us. The car slowed, and it was a woman alone. She asked if we were ok and mom explained the situation. Since we were just two little kids and a woman alone she took a chance and gave us a ride to the gas station, which there turned out to be one much closer than that sign. We got our gas, and she brought us back. She waited to see if we got the car started and then thanking her profusely she went on her way.

Not all strangers ignore people in need.

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DB McNicol’s Rules:

Welcome to my Friday Foto Flash Fiction challenge! Each Friday I will post a new picture to be used as inspiration for your flash fiction written in 500 words or less. Be sure to include the photo, the source credit, and a link to this post with your storyEntries will close on Thursday at midnight Eastern Time.

Once your post is live, add your link to the list below. I hope you will visit the other entries (and check back often for new stories). Remember to leave them a comment in appreciation. Thank you and enjoy! Here’s your photo prompt.

Tessa – 

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Author of a book, a work in progress on the blog, https://tessacandoit.com/government-property-a-memoir-as-a-military-wife/

Highlighted chapters are done and ready to be read.