Category Archives: Life

Exhausted!! Moved!


Well I am bushed! I am in bad shape and my kids and dad had to do all this work. I did what I could which wasn’t much.

My dad and kids feel much safer with me here. It is public housing, but a very nice place. It is a senior home mainly. It is a locked door with a guard except during the day Monday thru Friday from 8 AM to 5 PM.

The bad thing is that 4 people on the same floor died the other night. There is a lot of death in a senior place so is expected and something I will have to get used to. Sleep is often interrupted.

The funny bit about moving here is that it is that I can look out my window and see the duplex I used to live in 20 years ago. I am on the 6th floor and the view is pretty nice.

I don’t have cable or WIFI. I am using the hotspot on my cellular phone which is unlimited. Trying to figure out if I can hook the printer up too. It all has to be on the same network in order to work but this is  a hotspot on my phone and not actually a WIFI connection.

I am currently resting. I am sore and tired. Will have to do some more before bed especially make the bed.

My cat is sulking under the bed. She wants my son and her regular room. Not even coming out for treats.

The evening sun is coming in the windows. Could be worse with the morning sun in the windows. Like it this way better.

Somebody moving had a solid wood coffee table they gave us. I needed one and I don’t mind the scratches and such. All my furniture is that way LOL!

About 8 hours later and the cat has finally come out and investigated and ate her treats.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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New Apartment


Finally have my new apartment. Lots of cleaning and unpacking to do.

Forgot one of the closets. It’s a large clothes closet with plenty of space and shelves. I have two good size closets.

I will be busy for quite a while.

Tessa

Are alternative healings just the placebo effect?


As I have mentioned my dad has done faith healing for as long as I can remember and his people that received the healings (including me) believed they were being healed. I am well aware of the placebo effect and I can’t say for sure that he is healing me or that I just expect to feel better. I believe the point is that it helps and I don’t need a scientific ruling to say it is true or false. I accept that I feel better, therefore his healing helped.

Healing can be done hands-on or from afar. Reiki is one of those types of healings.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Changing life


I slept all day after a lousy night, in which I couldn’t stop shaking. Dad said I could put the little heater on again. I forgot a whole pain pill time and combined with the lack of arthritis meds made it hard to move. Hours later and I am finally able to move. I didn’t even dress today. I am still in my flannel pjs.

Due to the snow we are not going to brunch again on Saturday. Maybe we will try Sunday.

December 16, 2017

Can’t sleep since I slept all day. I skipped a complete dose of percocets and was starting into detox. Quick got one in as I mentioned earlier.

Later in the day I checked my mail and I had a list of senior and disabled housing (not all subsidized) from the Division of Senior Services. My insurance provided me with a social worker and she asked me about my needs and fears so she gave me numbers and info and then even called them for me. It is a long list almost 2 full pages, but not all of them say subsidized on them and I hope all the ones listed under Gloucester County Housing are covered by the application I already filled out and have a confirmation number for.

I feel hopeful right now even though I know they have waiting lists. They are for seniors 62 (I am 61 til October) and/or the disabled (BINGO). I do dread the thought of filling out tons of applications right now.

It is nice to feel that surge of hope running through me since this bankruptcy has me really kind of down. Hopefully the bankruptcy won’t stop me from being eligible.

I am cooking dinner and writing this at the same time since I can carry the chromebook around.

I contacted Laura, my psych nurse, about changing my appointment and she says I am currently stable enough to wait several months, plus she knows I keep her advised as to how I am feeling.

I am starting to get used to cooking dinner again. I understand the seriousness of my situation and it is starting to sink in. Right now I am cooking bacon and eggs. First time in a long time I cooked the bacon in a pan and will use the juices (fat) to cook the eggs in.

I have been forgetting a pain pill, well actually sleeping through it. I feel the beginnings of detox and take it right away. Sugar numbers have been low and occasionally too low.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bankruptcy is not easy or cheap


Eventually this should pay off, but right now it is downright difficult. Everytime I turn around there is another fee, some of which might be waived. Then they want more paperwork. The letter claims we discussed it, but I don’t remember it. I don’t know if it is my anxiety stopping me from remembering or the lawyer doing his standing thing without really having said it, but just thought he did, plus I have been through this before back in 2004.

Confused? Join the club.

In order to pay these additional fees I have to cancel all my dr appointments for the next couple of months. And that is just the the normal fees. If one or more of the creditors want to sue me, I would have to retain him at his hourly rate to have him defend me. That is not cheap. He charges $350 for each billable hour.

Of course I am anxious and can’t get his assistant on the phone. I am surprised I slept at all last night.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

My chromebook now prints


What a task. It took many websites through Google and 20 or so different youtube.com sites to put together a procedure that worked and it now prints. First I had to get my printer hooked up to our WIFI network. I couldn’t do it at first when I installed it for my old computer. So googled there too since the directions didn’t work.

I am slowly learning the more important tasks with the “Dummies” book, youtube.com and googling.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Have to cancel epidural due to possible bronchitis and the start of pneumonia


They can’t take a chance on infection getting into my spine, I was wheezing but didn’t realize it wasn’t my asthma.

Tessa