Category Archives: Life

Bipolar:Over the Rainbow or Down the Rabbit Hole


Just can’t win. Mood swings and never know where I am going to land. And antidepressant has me sleeping my life away solidly. Barely aware of phone or alarm.

Still physically ill. And my tummy is purple from the injections of insulin. Oh what joy!

I hope to rejoin the community fully someday soon. Still can’t type.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Drop your glasses on the ground and stomp 3 times, take the resulting pile to glass store – some one shoot me


Last night in my drugged condition I took 2 doses of slow acting Tresiba insulin. Dangerously low this morning. Then before I knew it it was dangerously high. My life couldn’t suck more, could it??? Probably should shut up, things could suck more.

By the way the eyeglass store put my glasses back together for free. That was nice of them.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Sometimes I wish I could just vanish…


As those of you who might have been reading the few posts I have posted lately know, I am in bad shape physically and mentally. This has been exceptionally worse the last few months.

I have been fighting my Diabetes and currently it won. I am now insulin dependent and still high. I am fighting it tooth and nail. And truth is that the prick of the blood testing is worse than the prick of the insulin pen needle. That being said I still have to prick myself 8 times a day if I follow the schedule (and I don’t always). I am nowhere under control even with the insulin.

My current antidepressant is finally working. I am out of the deep depression and I sleep (a lot still) without sleep medicine. I worked on my room this weekend. What a change and it hit me, I am not depressed. It is funny feeling when the realization takes over.

The biggest problem is physical. I have been sick for about 4 weeks straight. I have been to the ER to be rehydrated after a severe stomach condition (still have it a little bit and so will be seeing a gastroenterologist Tuesday). The food I have been  eating causes pain and other stomach issues. I have gone through bronchitis twice, gone away and then came back.

I could barely get out of bed because of one thing or another.

Right now I am not as bad. Maybe I will hang around longer this time.

Miss you all!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Antidepressant and sick again


This antidepressant remeron is supposed to be a sedative too. Always a problem for me because I react the opposite. I wanted to stop, but she had forgotten that I take an OTC sleep aid and at a high dose. She made me double my dose of antidepressant and stop the OTC sleep aid. I have been up all night to late morning, early after aftersoon since I have been taking the the sleep aids with the new antidepressant.

I was shocked. I fell asleep early last night, slept all night to mid afternoon when my son woke me up. Maybe she was right. I have to let her know how it goes last night and the next few days because I will need a new prescription since I will run out doubling them.

I am also back on another antibiotic, cough pearls, a steroid and a rescue inhaler for the wheezing, sore throat, terrible cough and congestion in my chest.

I am so tired of this.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Ping backs don’t work for me.


I was just reading a site that said only WordPress blogs give ping backs. Mine used to a long time ago, but now my blogs are both using their own domains. So now I know why I can no longer do a pingback.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Finally able to eat and retain the food.


I am finally able to eat and no pain or other problems from the food. I still don’t know what happened. Just glad it is seemingly over.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com