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Hospital for medical reasons, bipolar meds needed – going back on.

Going off the bipolar meds and anxiety meds most likely caused my hospital stay. My sugars were extremely high, my chest was tight and had painful fluttering, my blood pressure was high and so was my heart rate. I was dizzy and out of breath.

They did all the cardiac tests including a cardiac catheterization. My heart is fine which is good news. I caught a nasty cough from my roommate in the hospital. Still have it and it is almost 3 weeks later.

Went to Endochrinologist for my blood sugars. He left me on most of my oral meds and added Victoza which is a daily injection in my belly. Now I have no appetite at all. Sugars too low and the thought of food makes me sick to my stomach. Friends and family want me to eat and I don’t want to.

Extreme anxiety sent me back on Klonopin and now extreme depression has me refusing to get out of bed and also could be part of refusal to eat. Going back on bipolar meds as well. I can’t take this. I tried going without. Just can’t!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

In the hospital

Been in the hospital since Thursday. Scheduled for cardiac catheterization on Monday. Be back soon. 

Cell Phone Hell

My old phone is about to die completely. I ordered a new one online last Wednesday. Come to find out it is backordered and I get a new delivery date every day. Very annoying especially since calling is all my phone can  do now and the battery dies quickly.

This all started with 2 different techs at Apple. I have an iPhone. Verizon doesn’t work on them. Apple couldn’t help and the phone was quickly shutting down. I called Verizon since I needed a new phone. I had to pay off my old one which was around $100 and then set up my plan which is now unlimited across the board including the data. However, the rep didn’t know it was on back order although she should have been told when ordering it. She apologized, but it is already done and wait I must since I also ordered the supplies. By the time the money went back on my card it will most likely, hopefully, be here.

Still withdrawing from my psych drugs. Next week I go down to a very small dose. Wonder if it will be bad. So far I have been pretty well with this one.

I have been fantasizing about my ex-husband. Now that I have forgiven him (and I) for what happened 40 plus years ago I find myself drawn back to him. He doesn’t know how I feel. My children do and so does my therapist. Of course I also want to go back in time and start over. I know that isn’t possible. Neither of us are the same. I won’t take orders and he is now used to following “hers” and so things aren’t really ideal and he hasn’t made any indication that he wants to start over (yet), I have prayed to God to do what he thinks is best. Do I want him back or am I dreaming or am I just feeling alone. I am not interested in another man at this time for sure.

Oh well, life goes on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

Here I am, typing again. Bad week!

Well friends at the moment I must type again. My cellphone, which I was using to upload videos took a nosedive. Barely works so I decided to try a webcam. Had the buttons to connect to YouTube, but found out in support they no longer support YouTube or any other social media. I took it back to the store. I don’t skype so it was no good to me.

My printer was going. Got a new one and it wouldn’t hook up, so I took it back to the store and got another one and this one is working.

I am just totally done. My back is in severe pain and the headaches terrible. Still withdrawing from the second medicine. She is drawing this one out since it is a cut-table pill.

And either tomorrow or the next day I will have a new iPhone. It is pretty useless right now. I got unlimited everything including data. I am going to start using my  new phone to do things since when my son and I have to find a place to live we won’t be able to afford cable. I will use my phone for netflix, wordpress, facebook, etc. I need to learn how to use the calendar and other necessities I normally do with the computer or a calendar.

Still have my channel and will try again with the new cell phone though have to be more careful and keep the storage free. I used up all the storage and taking things off doesn’t help. Keeps disconnecting me and the buttons are sticking.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

Meet and Greet: 2/18/17

Daniel Ray’s meet and greet for Sunday.

Dream Big, Dream Often


It’s the Meet and Greet weekend everyone!!  Strap on your party shoes and join the fun!  

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See ya on Monday!!

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