Category Archives: moods

Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I am not interested in dating much. The reasons are far and wide. disorders are many and depending on the activity are beyond my pain and fatigue.

2. I am shy and new people and places scare me.

3. I have been hurt too many times.

I am not looking, but but not giving up completely. I do miss the companionship and support. I am not interested much in sex so that can kill a relationship, but there are others out there looking for companionship only. If it is meant to be, it will be.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog


You have to believe it, to see it!

Dr. Wayne Dyer uses that quote above instead of seeing is believing.

Last night before falling asleep I said over and over the “I am” statements. I must not have convinced myself because 5 minutes later my pain increased. Worse than it has been in some time. I have to believe it. Part of me doesn’t. Part of me wants to blame someone else for all my problems.

My faith in God is dwindling right now. I do not believe in him as strongly as I did for a while. What I was afraid would happen didn’t in so many cases, that I should believe more strongly.

I am happy!

I am healthy!

I am prosperous!

I am content!

I am not going to let this stop me. I know there is truth in this and have been successful at times. I must believe it to see it. It makes so much sense.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

My Journal for Sunday – Tessa

December 18, 2016

Went to my weekly brunch with my best friend of about 8-9 years. We had to skip yesterday and go today because of the ice. We usually go on Saturdays.

I have started to be interested in Word games again. An improvement. I am still feeling interested in life and not depressed. Probably more mixed moods.

Getting ready for my grandson’s birthday party. Hopefully all goes well with my ex-husband.


I am home, tired, and ready for bed. It is still early though. Parties of any kind take my strength away physically (upstairs) and mentally.

My ex and I are doing better. Thankfully.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

Healthy Poll, please answer – Tessa

As most of you know I have many health issues. At the moment the mental issues are outweighing the physical pain.

My 2 biggest concerns are Diabetes and Bipolar.

I have created a poll to help me find out what every one thinks is the health plan I should start with. I can’t do more than one at a time. It simply overwhelms me.

Give me your best ideas to get started.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

I don’t feel like writing…

It just isn’t inside of me to write today. I can write a story usually in 30 to 60 minutes depending on size, but when it isn’t there no matter of coaxing will help.

When it is there I have to let it out. Really strange how that works, for me anyhow.

I don’t know what to do with myself right now. I am bored. I can’t sit still. I have a ton of boxes to go through still, but not much room left and there is still stuff upstairs that I am going to want. I am letting things go, but I am just overflowing with my hoarded stuff.

I need room in my file cabinets and I have 4 drawers worth at least. I used to sort all the medical out and put in files, but it is out of control and I just throw them in piles all over. They are not in any type of numerical/date order so finding anything isn’t easy anyhow. They are mixed up even on one page. Wonder if I should go paperless. I don’t use them for taxes anymore since I don’t make enough to file taxes.

I can’t go paperless with them. Stupid company. No paperless option. I am just going to toss them all. I can get the info online. Same with pharmacy slips.

So I am going through paper and tossing into recycle bag. Not shredding. Nothing too important on the papers.

I am rounding up pics of the kids (grandkids mostly) and putting them in a bag and hanging the newer ones the girls gave me of their kids.

Sun is going in and out. Just wish it would stop at the out point and stay there.

Praise be the Lord,