Category Archives: Non-Fiction

Seeking help again! Hopefully no hospital—Tessa

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God is my savior. Please pray for me.

You guys are my friends and family. I am getting worse.This last medicinal change started to help and then bam I started flipping all over the place. My mood swings are bad and fast. I wanna scream and break things in rage. My hallucinations are fast and I see, feel and hear things. I just woke up from a nightmare where I was tied down with my arms close to my body and strapped to a gurney. I took several minutes to realize I was awake. One of my fears is being restrained and not be able to get away. I couldn’t get up right away because I felt restrained.

I love you all and thank you for all the support. I will be back later when I am under control again. I miss you now, I have been around so little lately. This last scenic ride ended up in the hospital  in March. I don’t want to repeat that.


Fibromyalgia and Mammograms

Getting a Mammogram with Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

A mammogram is painful for most women. Add Fibromyalgia into the equation and the pain in the nerves in the area is tremendous. Most of us can’t stand the lightest touch.

I have had many mammograms in my 59 years of life. The first ones didn’t bother me much, but once the Fibromyalgia had settled in to full flare-up there was no way I could get by without intense pain.

Ladies I now inform my technician of my Fibromyalgia and ask them to press only as hard as they absolutely have to. Amazingly they don’t have to squish as hard as they do. They were able to get the pictures without squeezing hard. And I don’t have to scream in agony. Yes, they can hurt that much due to the Fibromyalgia.


Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

Daily Gratitude March 15, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making my fall so I didn’t break a  bone.



Daily Gratitude March 10, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making me listen to the doctor about my diet. It is hard to do all at once. I crave a soda and sugar and every time I pass my old haunts I want to stop. At home is the good stuff.


PS Has anyone heard of a smoothie, pre-made, and containing Aloe Vera. He wants me to take that one to help heal my insides, but couldn’t find it. Thanks!

Daily Gratitude March 07, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for finally starting to clearing up my IBS and the stomach pains and the acid reflux. Feels good to eat and not lose it all.



Daily Gratitude March 04, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to sit up and notice. I judged my ex-husband and tried to punish him myself. Now I am the one suffering severe physical pain. Punishment is not my place, but the Lord’s and for all I know he has already been punished. I was working towards forgiveness of my ex. Not towards extra pain for me.



Daily Gratitude March 02, 2016

Dear Lord, I want to thank you for making the pain so bad I had to seek help that will change my life. I have changed to a healthy diet and started taking my acid reflux medicine again. Hardly any acid reflux in the last week and stomach pains and other complications from it have toned themselves down. Now I could use the pains to lessen themselves. I can barely walk up and down the steps and I live on the 2nd floor.