Category Archives: Pain

Life in a senior high rise


This has been quite an experience. It has been one month now.

Today I set off the alarms for emergencies such as falling etc. The guard (yes we have guards here) was pounding on the door. Scared the hell out of me but hey I know it works.

So far most of the time I get in a handicapped spot and don’t have to worry about the  placard since I got license plates instead. Some of the closer spots are not handicapped so sometimes it is better to park there. This is at the back door. My guests have to come in the front so I can use the intercom and buzz them in or else I have to go downstairs and let them in. They have to sign in anyhow might as well come in the front although that means they have to walk around to the front door. There are a few spots in the front side of the building, but they rather park out back so if they do they get to walk around. I have an intercom for a reason.

We have been getting a lot of rain and thunderstorms this week. I am on the 6th floor and can see the trees below me swaying in the wind. A unique experience.

I can’t remember if I mentioned the knee going out and the trip to the hospital since I couldn’t put weight on it. Stayed one night and then sent home with no one to help me. I was using a walker for when I had to get up and I had my family take the food and medications and put them down on the counter. The only thing they did for me was a referral for home care, but even though they were covered under my insurance it wasn’t for the services they wanted me to have. They couldn’t get that through their head. Thus I was on my own. Thank God I have hand rails in the bathroom. So far I had one shower. My leg isn’t strong enough to hold my weight to get in and out of the tub so back to basin washing.

I have put a lot of money into my car. The accident cost me $500 in repairs and now another $500 for new brakes and calipers before I have another accident. The brakes just catch and slam the car to a stop as if I slammed on the brakes. Very disconcerting and now I am waiting til Friday for the parts and repair. Only drive if absolutely necessary.

These unplanned expenses are coming out of my apartment fund for things I need. It is dwindling fast. I have to make a very tight budget and live by it and it doesn’t leave much for fun things. I will be lucky if I can get food all month. Since it is public housing my rent is 30% of my disability check so everyone is different. Though it is considered senior housing, they have disabled people like me who are younger. I think the cutoff is 50 for them and must be 62 for a senior. I am 61 1/2.

This apartment is a fair size, but Tessa the hoarder is having a hard time letting things go. I did a bunch before we moved and now I find I must get rid of more. And they do inspections here and can’t have a mess, Trash must go out every day to the trash chute in the hall. Recycles must go downstairs. Kind of annoying, but they are trying to avoid nasty little critters. Exterminator comes tomorrow.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

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Opiates for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome What You Need to Know About Narcotics


Opiates for Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

What You Need to Know About Narcotics

I take Percocets. I still suffer pain, but without it, things are much worse. I do my best to keep my doses on time. I keep a list with the times I should take them and when I actually do so no taking too early.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Are alternative healings just the placebo effect?


As I have mentioned my dad has done faith healing for as long as I can remember and his people that received the healings (including me) believed they were being healed. I am well aware of the placebo effect and I can’t say for sure that he is healing me or that I just expect to feel better. I believe the point is that it helps and I don’t need a scientific ruling to say it is true or false. I accept that I feel better, therefore his healing helped.

Healing can be done hands-on or from afar. Reiki is one of those types of healings.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Fall potentially dangerous


I fell this morning. I caught myself on my bed wrenching my back, but at least I hit the bed and not the other furniture or the floor itself. My balance is definitely an issue.

We just had a pretty heavy snowstorm. My dad and son dug us out.

My bankruptcy court date is April 16th in a town I detest, Camden NJ. Not a good town to be in. All of this for about 5 minutes before the judge most likely. I know it isn’t long. Hopefully no one wants to sue me and make me hire my attorney at attorney fees. It didn’t happen last time and hopefully won’t happen this time. You can file, but that doesn’t mean the creditor has to accept it. It really isn’t worth their time because they usually don’t win. I have nothing to pay them with, but it will cause me trouble and that just might be worth their time (to see me suffer some more). I didn’t do this on purpose. I am not having fun and it is expensive to pay a lawyer to file. What I saved from not paying the credit cards the last 3 months goes to the lawyer and to the Public Housing to get somewhere to live.

I wish I had an idea when the funding will come through for more housing. I guess I didn’t make the first cut. She told me I could do some light packing and this gives me time to get rid of stuff here rather than hauling it over there and have to get rid of it there.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Still no apartment, epidural and bankruptcy


From a supposed move in time of March 1, no communication at all. Very frustrating. I know it doesn’t matter to them and we are just needy nobodies to them. Do they think I would put myself in this position if I didn’t have to. Very humiliating the treatment can be. I am afraid when they finally call to view the apartments I will be otherwise engaged in something I can’t change.

Still waiting for my court date for the bankruptcy. I did get the court number for my case, but still no date set.

I just had my 3rd lumbar epidural. I actually feel less pain this time. Maybe it will work this time and we can start on the neck. This time I did it with iv sedation and not a local. I never felt or knew it happened until they were waking me up. Costs more, but the way to go.

The office changed their name to Corda Pain Institute. Sounds more professional, but they are completely out of control and over booking and can’t handle parking, seating and the wait times are ridiculous as they also brought more doctors on. Every time I go which is usually 2-3 weeks apart, they have changed their procedures. And the left hand doesn’t know what the right hand is doing. They are driving me crazy.

SoI have started packing and donating to the thrift shop as well as trashing a lot. Most of it needed doing anyhow. Less to take with me. Took a car load to thrift store today. And both my dad and son are getting rid of things they don’t want either. Had trouble getting rid of things so far, but really they have no value to me or they wouldn’t have sat in boxes for over 14 years, some long.

So tired of going nowhere.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Fibromyalgia Pain From Clothing


Fibromyalgia Pain From Clothing

People find this hard to believe that clothing can cause a Fibromyalgia flare.

I wear loose bras and clothing. Preferably nothing tight. I don’t care what people think if it helps relieve my pain.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Is Fibromyalgia Hereditary?


Is Fibromyalgia Hereditary?

My daughter and I definitely have it and I worry about symptoms I often see in my son. Hopefully he is just having similar symptoms.

The daughter with Fibro also has all of my other awful disorders and lots of pain besides the new pain from the accident at work where the cabinet fell off the wall and injured quite severely her hand and arm. They still don’t know what the problem is and she is dealing with workman’s comp and a lawyer.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com