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Sometimes I wish I could just vanish…

As those of you who might have been reading the few posts I have posted lately know, I am in bad shape physically and mentally. This has been exceptionally worse the last few months.

I have been fighting my Diabetes and currently it won. I am now insulin dependent and still high. I am fighting it tooth and nail. And truth is that the prick of the blood testing is worse than the prick of the insulin pen needle. That being said I still have to prick myself 8 times a day if I follow the schedule (and I don’t always). I am nowhere under control even with the insulin.

My current antidepressant is finally working. I am out of the deep depression and I sleep (a lot still) without sleep medicine. I worked on my room this weekend. What a change and it hit me, I am not depressed. It is funny feeling when the realization takes over.

The biggest problem is physical. I have been sick for about 4 weeks straight. I have been to the ER to be rehydrated after a severe stomach condition (still have it a little bit and so will be seeing a gastroenterologist Tuesday). The food I have beenĀ  eating causes pain and other stomach issues. I have gone through bronchitis twice, gone away and then came back.

I could barely get out of bed because of one thing or another.

Right now I am not as bad. Maybe I will hang around longer this time.

Miss you all!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems





Change in Anti-depressants

Yesterday I was started on a new anti-depressant, Trintellix, formerly called Brintellix. I have had good reviews of it and maybe it is all in my head (pun intended), but I feel different this morning. More hopeful you could say.

I have also agreed to weekly therapy for a while and to bring my son in for a session. Our lives are intertwined.


Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems