Tag Archives: BiPolar Disorder

Bipolar mood swings, fighting with my diabetes


I am deeply depressed. Usually doesn’t last long due to my antidepressant and mood stabilizer, but currently suffering deeply.

I know I need to take care of my diabetes and eat right, but even foods I used to eat (low carb of course) don’t taste right.

I just threw away a bunch of food I couldn’t stomach. I know I have to take the insulin needles, but I am starting to freak out about that as well. It has been 2 months of needles, why now?

My numbers are higher than they just were. I was doing good keeping them in the low 120’s during the day and around 80 to 100 fasting. Today’s fasting was 124. Means I am eating too many carbs, but not sure where they are coming from. Need to get back under control. Over 140 at any time is causing damage that is unseen, but still happening.

I am still doing the silver sneakers exercise program 3 times a week. My body hurts. New pain on top of the old chronic pain. I haven’t given up yet and am struggling along.

Hard to think positive when you feel like this. Bipolar sucks.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Hate giving myself injections. Some do hurt!


Finding an uninjected spot is hard. My belly hurts at times and pressing against something hurts.

My sugars are still not level. I have to work harder at it.

I am happy (manic right now)

I am content

I am wise

I am going to find the perfect place to live and be able to afford it

I am healthy

I am pain free.


Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Negativity be gone!


This is a bad time to be working on my positivity. I know I didn’t want to blame my bipolar for everything that is wrong with my life, but I am sinking deep into a depression. My mood stabilizer isn’t working on the mood swings. I am still saying my mantras of “I am” and trying to not think negatively.

I am happy.

I am healthy.

I am prosperous.

I am content.

I am going to find housing that fits my needs.

I am so tired of sticking myself with needles every day. Some really hurt, although most don’t. Today my glucose readings were super high including my fasting sugar. If I eat three meals the last one is in the early evening. Too late obviously, I am not going to get up early to eat in the early morning either. So might only have 2 meals a day.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Bipolar Hypo-mania, Therapy Today


Therapy was needed today. Had some things I needed to sort out. Luckily I have a great therapist.

Still in hypo-mania mode. Better than depression.

Very emotional though. Crying more than usual.

Fasting sugar level was in the range this morning. Still eating much healthier and I did not eat the cake or pastries offered today at the chiropractor.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Healthier dinner


Ok so dinner was closer to healthy than normal.  Also low carbohydrate and high protein.

I had dark meat chicken (rotisserie), raw broccoli with just a little Italian dressing to dip into and cheese.

My day is later than normal people so that was technically meal # 2. Still have one to go.

I just had an hour consult with a nurse from my insurance company. Learned some new stuff about insulin and taking it. These consults are free. We also talked about mental health and my medications and treatment.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

My fridge is lower carbohydrate now and more healthy


I have fresh vegetables including broccoli (Danny Ray is saying “I told you so LOL”). Meats, high in protein (good for diabetics) and no carbs.

One of my problems with the insulin is that my meals must be more regulated. No eating, munching whenever I feel like it. Will be good in the long run and may even lose weight, but driving me crazy right now.

My fitbit announced at 2PM that I had hit my walking goal for the day. My goal is still low. It is just under 2000 steps per day right now. May be time to raise it.

My antidepressant is still working except for the mood swings (manic right now, or maybe hypo-manic) and I am sleeping too much still. Appointment tomorrow. She might lower it or raise the mood stabilizer. This has been the best one so far aside from the initial reaction to the Cymbalta which lasted 8 months.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Bipolar:Over the Rainbow or Down the Rabbit Hole


Just can’t win. Mood swings and never know where I am going to land. And antidepressant has me sleeping my life away solidly. Barely aware of phone or alarm.

Still physically ill. And my tummy is purple from the injections of insulin. Oh what joy!

I hope to rejoin the community fully someday soon. Still can’t type.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com