Tag Archives: BiPolar Disorder

Psychotherapy – a poem


Psychotherapy by Tessa Smeigh November 2018

am I crazy?

psychotherapy!

depression,

mania,

comes and goes just like clock work

I know what is next

Tessa

Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work mostly although occasionally I do add something new here), new work is mainly on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

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What are the treatment options for Fibromyalgia? Also my opinions on Bipolar Disorder.


What are the treatment options for Fibromyalgia?

Now some of these make work for some people, but in my experience most of us do not respond to any of these treatment suggestions. And the side effects can be worse than a cure.

I have been allergic to some, for example Savella, caused me a terrible rash. Not just hives, but a very nasty and sore rash on both arms when I finally stopped it and it went away.

Cymbalta did not help my Fibromyalgia, but at first worked on my Bipolar depression and then 8 months later I developed psychosis which seemed to be the Cymbalta. My Bipolar Disorder is another problem on its own. I am currently stable and have been for a year or more now. I take Remeron (anti-depressive) and Trilofon (an anti-psychotic). Anyone one taking just an anti-depressant who has Bipolar Disorder or who develops the symptoms should see their psychiatrist and check out taking an anti-psychotic with your anti-depressant because used alone someone with Bipolar will usually see an increase in manic cycles. This wasn’t known when I first was treated with medication for my Bipolar. Now I know why I had such extreme mania. Just remember everyone is different and I am not a doctor just a long time sufferer of Bipolar Disorder (started when I was just a little kid).

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Bipolar Disorder 1 under control for over 6 months now with this new medicine cocktail


Aside from the Cymbalta this is the only other cocktail that has worked. Sometimes I miss the mania, but basically it is better without it and all the mood changes.

And this one lets me sleep. No real side effects and sleep. Some days though I sleep way more than necessary, but I take it. I don’t want to mess with this cocktail and screw it up trying to make it better.

Bankruptcy court April 16th in a town I hate to drive in and includes highways which really scare me.

Next epidural is April 17th and on the neck this time. Back is not taking. She says she has other things we can try besides the surgery so I am to quit worrying about that for now. Neck is getting worse and have a problem with numbness (or pins and needles as it should be called).

Still nothing from public housing about the apartment.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

When Friends and Family Don’t Understand Bipolar Disorder


When Friends and Family Don’t Understand Bipolar Disorder

My family tries, but it doesn’t always happen. I try to not let it hurt me, but sometimes I end up crying about it especially when I feel left out and lonely and misunderstood. I am trying to mend a bridge now. I am trying to think like they do and how they must feel although that isn’t easy. Currently I am in a fairly decent place so my mind and brain aren’t sabotaging me.

I don’t feel it is my fault, but my brain doesn’t always join in on the plans in play.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

What Are the Best and Worst Foods for Bipolar?


What Are the Best and Worst Foods for Bipolar?

Although I have done some research on bipolar and diet and even wrote an article for another site, I have not found the changes to be significant. Another case of everyone is different.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bipolar in the workplace…


If you had asked me years ago while I was working I would have told you I was a great employee and most of the time I was. I had great work ethics and was polite and respectful.

However my bipolar mood swings hid my true work habits and even when brought up I didn’t really believe what I was being told.

I couldn’t focus. I was constantly day-dreaming and every review notated this. I didn’t believe them.

I was extremely emotional. I cried at the drop of a hat or if you looked at me sideways. When my supervisor took me to the manager and said “you deal with her, I can’t take it anymore!” it started slowly sinking in. I started thinking about it and then I started to become more aware of my behavior and was shocked. This was normal behavior for someone with bipolar disorder, but I didn’t notice it.

It is possible to hold a job with bipolar disorder, but it certainly isn’t easy. There were lots of other incidents and I now am aware of them. I am on disability now and 61 years old so close to retirement age anyhow. I know longer have the thinking abilities anymore to hold a job anyhow.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome


Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I am not interested in dating much. The reasons are far and wide.

1.my disorders are many and depending on the activity are beyond my pain and fatigue.

2. I am shy and new people and places scare me.

3. I have been hurt too many times.

I am not looking, but but not giving up completely. I do miss the companionship and support. I am not interested much in sex so that can kill a relationship, but there are others out there looking for companionship only. If it is meant to be, it will be.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com