Tag Archives: BiPolar Disorder

Healthier dinner


Ok so dinner was closer to healthy than normal.  Also low carbohydrate and high protein.

I had dark meat chicken (rotisserie), raw broccoli with just a little Italian dressing to dip into and cheese.

My day is later than normal people so that was technically meal # 2. Still have one to go.

I just had an hour consult with a nurse from my insurance company. Learned some new stuff about insulin and taking it. These consults are free. We also talked about mental health and my medications and treatment.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

My fridge is lower carbohydrate now and more healthy


I have fresh vegetables including broccoli (Danny Ray is saying “I told you so LOL”). Meats, high in protein (good for diabetics) and no carbs.

One of my problems with the insulin is that my meals must be more regulated. No eating, munching whenever I feel like it. Will be good in the long run and may even lose weight, but driving me crazy right now.

My fitbit announced at 2PM that I had hit my walking goal for the day. My goal is still low. It is just under 2000 steps per day right now. May be time to raise it.

My antidepressant is still working except for the mood swings (manic right now, or maybe hypo-manic) and I am sleeping too much still. Appointment tomorrow. She might lower it or raise the mood stabilizer. This has been the best one so far aside from the initial reaction to the Cymbalta which lasted 8 months.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Bipolar:Over the Rainbow or Down the Rabbit Hole


Just can’t win. Mood swings and never know where I am going to land. And antidepressant has me sleeping my life away solidly. Barely aware of phone or alarm.

Still physically ill. And my tummy is purple from the injections of insulin. Oh what joy!

I hope to rejoin the community fully someday soon. Still can’t type.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Sometimes I wish I could just vanish…


As those of you who might have been reading the few posts I have posted lately know, I am in bad shape physically and mentally. This has been exceptionally worse the last few months.

I have been fighting my Diabetes and currently it won. I am now insulin dependent and still high. I am fighting it tooth and nail. And truth is that the prick of the blood testing is worse than the prick of the insulin pen needle. That being said I still have to prick myself 8 times a day if I follow the schedule (and I don’t always). I am nowhere under control even with the insulin.

My current antidepressant is finally working. I am out of the deep depression and I sleep (a lot still) without sleep medicine. I worked on my room this weekend. What a change and it hit me, I am not depressed. It is funny feeling when the realization takes over.

The biggest problem is physical. I have been sick for about 4 weeks straight. I have been to the ER to be rehydrated after a severe stomach condition (still have it a little bit and so will be seeing a gastroenterologist Tuesday). The food I have been  eating causes pain and other stomach issues. I have gone through bronchitis twice, gone away and then came back.

I could barely get out of bed because of one thing or another.

Right now I am not as bad. Maybe I will hang around longer this time.

Miss you all!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Diabetes runaway, 500 5 hours after lunch, 300 this morning fasting.


Not only that I am suffering bad stomach problems which I finally had to use the Zofran for nausea. I get pains after eating.

I am sleeping better with just the Antidepressant Remeron, but not as well as the first 2 days. I slept last night from 12 midnight to 5 AM this morning. Finally decided to get up since I am not tired or groggy. The sleep aids always made me so groggy all day I stayed in bed.

Ooops lost my focus and forgot what I was doing. My stomach has hurt for hours now. At least the pains are lessening.

Tomorrow I see the endocrinologist and see what his next brainy idea is. Nothing working so far,

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Antidepressant and sick again


This antidepressant remeron is supposed to be a sedative too. Always a problem for me because I react the opposite. I wanted to stop, but she had forgotten that I take an OTC sleep aid and at a high dose. She made me double my dose of antidepressant and stop the OTC sleep aid. I have been up all night to late morning, early after aftersoon since I have been taking the the sleep aids with the new antidepressant.

I was shocked. I fell asleep early last night, slept all night to mid afternoon when my son woke me up. Maybe she was right. I have to let her know how it goes last night and the next few days because I will need a new prescription since I will run out doubling them.

I am also back on another antibiotic, cough pearls, a steroid and a rescue inhaler for the wheezing, sore throat, terrible cough and congestion in my chest.

I am so tired of this.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Therapy


I needed a ride to therapy today since I lent my car to my son since his is in the shop and he had to go to work.

I write a thorough journal for her to read and it is exactly how I am feeling. Makes our sessions better.

My fasting sugar was 348 when I got up. Expected it to be high, but not quite that high. Endocrinologist has me on very little medicine and it didn’t work when my PCP put me on it and it doesn’t work now, plus he eliminated one.

New antidepressant is not letting me sleep, but she just told me to stay on it. She wants me on it for a few weeks, at least 2 weeks. She is expecting it to change and it is making me somewhat suicidal in thoughts. I don’t care if the world ends tomorrow.

I hate the fact that I have lost my major interest in my blogs. I would rather sleep (like that is happening with this new antidepressant). It is hard to build a blog when you have lost interest. I remember my thrill in the beginning. This one is over 2 years old. My writing blog is over several years older.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com