Tag Archives: Diabetes

Pain, Pain Go Away!!


I have been doing my best not to complain about the pain. The family is tired of  hearing it and think I use it as an excuse to get out of things. Maybe they are right, but it doesn’t change the pain any. I have been trying to distract myself with writing poems, working on blog. cleaned some of my room because Dad told me to and reading some of the blogs online.

I even went to a football game for my grandson and didn’t mention the pain and how sitting in the bleaches hurt. I just watched the game as much as possible and shut up. I promised the family I would stop pushing them away so that is the reason I went to the game. My grandson didn’t even get to play. My ex-husband was there which still sets my blood to boiling (so much for forgiveness yet), but he was involved mainly with our grandson the Marine who leaves tomorrow for 2 years in Okinawa, Japan. At least he is not in Afghanistan.

I am trying to remember some of the good stuff from when I was married. I am trying to forget the bad stuff, but it sure is hard. More bad than good.

My blood sugar numbers are all over the place. I have no control whatsoever and they say it is the pain and stress causing it. I can hardly wait for the high numbers from the steroid shots.

Tomorrow I have my appointments with the dietician and the nurse at the Diabetes center and then my psycho-therapy appointment. I go every weeks. Lately it has been very emotional.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

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Doctors! I am sick of them!


Just came from my Endo appt and I am about to spit nails. Man he pissed me off. He is fine with the Keto/low carb diet, but he wants my numbers above 100. I want them lower/normal. He said no because I might have a low if I aim for those numbers. I said at 140 damage is being done right? He said yes. So why do you want my numbers higher. Because you MIGHT go low. Might, good grief. I might die tomorrow too, I might lose my eyesight (already have some damage), I might lose a limb (I definitely have neuropathy – had nerve test this morning). An awful lot of mights out there, but I want to spare myself that. He told me I was a perfectionist and yes I am and that he wished more of his patients were like me (huh?), but he wants me between 100 and 150 fasting and 100 and 170 for lunch, dinner, and bedtime. My numbers support this WOE works. A1c down 2 points to 6.9 and my average numbers 2 months ago were 179 and now are 117.

My bipolar was starting to rage and I had to shut up before I said something I would regret. I backed down, but he told me the ADA’s diet is good because most people are diagnosed when they are eating 200-300 carbs per day so their diet is good if you look at it that way. Thing is they keep it that high. They don’t work at bringing them down. I will continue eating this way and aiming for 80 or so and he will have to deal with it if I decide to even tell him. Although he did raise my fast-acting insulin by 1 point per sliding number, but told me not to increase the Tresiba slow-acting to help bring them down. Talk about twilight zone.

My scale budged downward 2 lbs. Does not mean it won’t go back up, but it is the first downward movement I have had.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Just a little work goes a long way!


I have been working on the new “Tessa Can Do It” blog and just these last few days I am finding a new growth in my readership. I am making the effort to follow up with those that leave me likes or messages and spending more time reading other’s blogs like I used to.

There is no way I can read everyone I follow and for that I am sorry, but anyone who has a fairly good size following understands where I am coming from. i have vowed to work more on keeping up with the blog and now that I am going from 2 blogs to one blog I should have a little more time to read once the conversion is complete.

I am making a separate listing in the reader for my new followers or for the old ones as I find them and they still interest me. I followed everyone in the beginning in an effort to build readership and some of these aren’t even in English. I hate trying to get it translated.

Also working on my blood sugars. They are all over the place and higher than I want so need to watch what I eat a little bit closer. My pancreas no longer makes its own insulin so I have to inject what I need and that is what will bring it down. It doesn’t really come down on its own anymore.

I just ate scrambled eggs, sausage and bacon. Since my number at the time was 78 I didn’t think about injecting any insulin and it is happily rising on its own. My nurse taught me a little bit about using the insulin to correct these incidents. I forgot to inject it this morning when I ate. I am still learning about correcting without over-correcting. I keep glucose tablets on hand just in case my sugar drops to dangerous lows. I was 44 last week and that took some time to come up and I was lucky that I was just light-headed and didn’t pass out. MUST be careful.

Went to our usual brunch today and this restaurant is headed downhill. They have closed many already and this one is on its way to join them. The food sucks and its employees have lousy skills. The only good thing is that the food is half-price, though I doubt that will save it in the end. There are no customers when food is regular priced. The only reason we don’t go to another restaurant is that this one is closer for my friend who doesn’t do much driving and she can tolerate the food. I hate it! We had to get the manager today. Our waitress was having all her tables complaining. Probably won’t finish the day off.

Tomorrow I will be going to my grandson’s football game. I have forgotten some of the rules and it isn’t as clear as a professional game so can’t tell sometimes what the plays are. I used to have a fairly good understanding of the game, but I have switched to Major League Baseball although since it is the Phillies we do a lot of losing LOL although they have gotten much better this second half of the season.

My pain has decreased some. Not sure if the inflammation is going down taking the discs off the nerve or I am just distracting myself more and not dwelling on my medical issues. I still have the 13 pages of papers the doctor’s office is requiring to be filled out. I hate filling all those medical papers out especially since they rarely read them.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one.

My blog is starting to slide away into the ether.


At one point I was in a much better place and my blog was growing. I wrote many posts a day as well as a devotional every day. I wrote thankfulness posts, etc. There were numerous stories and poems on my other blog. I still have 2 and the addresses are at the bottom in my signature.

Now my blog is slowing dying. I have some regulars still and I appreciate you guys hanging around even though I find it difficult at times to follow many blogs. I still get new followers, but I feel as if I am letting them down as well. I have to change things if I want to save it. It is so easy to just give up and I don’t want to do that. I worked hard for these 2 blogs only to let them die.

I am sure I have turned people away with my constant whining about my physical pains. They are far worse than my mental at this point. My bipolar is fairly stable and my panic and anxiety, though still around, are calmed some by the meds.

What to do about 2 dying blogs is my current problem. I am sure people are tired of reading about my health issues. I know I am tired of living through them and complaining about them sure isn’t helping me any either.

I miss my blogs, the old ones, the ones that people enjoyed reading because they were more than just my whining.

I definitely thank all of you or are standing by me and still here and those of you who are new I hope you can find something of interest to keep you coming back.

I have been sinking for a while and just not noticing it. It is time to bring these blogs back on board and give the people something worthwhile.

Comments are welcome. If you have a comment about what is happening here don’t be afraid to share it with me. Perhaps it is not too late to save my blogs.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Low carb, 20 grams or less per day, not working so well.


I have decided to increase my carbs to 50 per day, still low carb, but not as drastic. I am not losing weight and the thought of eating like this the rest of my life is driving me nuts. I need more variety and I am picky as hell. It will most likely mean more insulin at first and I use insulin to correct what I am going to eat to keep my numbers lower.

Most days I probably won’t hit the 50 carb count anyway, but this gives me more choices. I am eating a lot more protein than the group I am in so will follow an atkins group which allows more protein. Atkins starts at 20 and goes up ater 2 weeks so already hit induction. I just reordered the original Atkins book and will attempt to reread. I know they have foods they don’t eat either. Most of them I am fine at, but 20 or less with my practically non-existent appetite has been hell and I am not losing weight.  Something has to give or I am on insulin forever.

Going for nerve test today. Using pain pills sparingly since I have so few and appointment with pain dr isn’t until October 17.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Blood Sugar numbers all over the place


I think the dr decreased my insulin too fast. I am having highs again and no sense to the numbers I am getting.

I called again. They want me to stay on the current doses (I told them I did go back to my original fast-acting Novolog for meals) of Tresiba long-acting of 25 units for several more days and give it some time to settle down.

They are fine with my numbers being between 90 and 130, but I am not. 90 fine, but 100 and above not so fine. I was down to 80’s and 90’s except for the morning and evening lows for about a week. I think they decreased it too much.

After a few days I have to start increasing my long-acting Tresiba by 2’s every 4-5 days.

I hate this. The research is out there that low carb and lower numbers in the normal ranges are the way to go, but the drs stand by the American Diabetes Association and their high carb, high numbers way of life. The ADA  has not changed this in the 20 years I have been diagnosed. They are keeping peoples numbers high and the damage is fatal eventually. I don’t want to die because they are not with the times or suffer other damage.

The decrease in sugar has helped my pain, my bipolar and my diabetes. Sugar is my enemy and so are high blood sugar readings. If I have to humor my dr and do it the more healthful way I will.

90 – 130 is not acceptable. I will finagle my insulin myself if I have to.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Now the eye check – good news, but requires new glasses and no insurance for this either.


Since my sugars are nearing normal, my eyesight is clearing. Need new glasses. The pressure check is still high although one eye came down a little. Worried about Glaucoma and he said if my sugars continue to improve I can get rid of the damage currently being done by the Diabetes.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com