Today I was reading my email and my deletions couldn’t be done without deleting just one or reading one. I had marked a huge amount to delete and I hate when it does this.
Anyway I decided to read one and it was my notification of my Medicare Advantage program payment. I have it taken out of my bank automatically.
I was surprised to see just $2.40 on there. So I immediately called Aetna. It was good news. My state which gives me extra care due to the minimal SSDI check I get, had retroactively given me a refund. My new bill is almost $20 a month less. Can’t complain about that. I am thankful for any help I get.
Saw endocrinologist yesterday and he upped my insulin and I joined a 50 carbs or less group on Facebook.
I asked about getting off of insulin and he flat out told me I had to lose a lot of weight. I wasn’t insulted by it because it is true and I have come to terms with my weight. Maybe the low carb diet will help like before. Doing great til I quit, but this time there is no quitting. I am in it for my life. I want to live.
Tomorrow is my first silver sneakers class. I am so out of shape just walking a few feet takes my breath away. This class is for seniors and done on a chair. Sounds like what I need to get started.
I am happy, content, wealthy in ways other than just money.
I am sending you light, love and energy from our Lord, Jesus Christ!
I have been busy. Joined a health club with my silver sneakers membership and it is no cost to me. I used the bike for 5 minutes today and could barely breathe. Heart rate was high and took close to an hour to come down.
Struggling with the insulin shots as the more I do the harder it is to find a spot that is not sore. May have to switch from my belly to my thighs. Need time for my belly to heal.
Determined to work out and get back into shape so maybe I can reduce or eliminate the insulin and other maladies I suffer from, plus losing weight will eliminate a lot of health problems too.
I am happy, satisfied, content, healthy and getting wiser.
This is a bad time to be working on my positivity. I know I didn’t want to blame my bipolar for everything that is wrong with my life, but I am sinking deep into a depression. My mood stabilizer isn’t working on the mood swings. I am still saying my mantras of “I am” and trying to not think negatively.
I am happy.
I am healthy.
I am prosperous.
I am content.
I am going to find housing that fits my needs.
I am so tired of sticking myself with needles every day. Some really hurt, although most don’t. Today my glucose readings were super high including my fasting sugar. If I eat three meals the last one is in the early evening. Too late obviously, I am not going to get up early to eat in the early morning either. So might only have 2 meals a day.
Dr. Wayne Dyer uses that quote above instead of seeing is believing.
Last night before falling asleep I said over and over the “I am” statements. I must not have convinced myself because 5 minutes later my pain increased. Worse than it has been in some time. I have to believe it. Part of me doesn’t. Part of me wants to blame someone else for all my problems.
My faith in God is dwindling right now. I do not believe in him as strongly as I did for a while. What I was afraid would happen didn’t in so many cases, that I should believe more strongly.
I am happy!
I am healthy!
I am prosperous!
I am content!
I am not going to let this stop me. I know there is truth in this and have been successful at times. I must believe it to see it. It makes so much sense.