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Religious Devotions – October 20, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh


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He Died on the Cross For Us

I will follow wherever you lead, my Lord!

By Teresa Smeigh

Prepare For Blessing!

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Psalm 84:11

The Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord gives grace and glory; no good thing does He withhold from those that walk uprightly.

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As you wait for God to fulfill his promises to you, the thought may enter your mind that you are not good enough for God to give you what you want. He is preparing you to be ready for his plan to be carried out.

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Dear Father,

Thank you for loving me. You are so wise and kind, so I will wait for you.

Amen

 

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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you!

I Corinthians 6:23

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

 

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Major Blood Sugar Drop to 50, 70 is considered low


I had a major drop today and felt like I was going to pass out. Glucose tablets weren’t working and I felt worse so I actually ate some carbs which is not recommended by the group I am in.

Now it is 3 AM and my sugar is 233 so I took some insulin and some low carb food to attempt to bring it down some without going too far. It is a nasty merry-go-round sometimes. The endocrinologist doesn’t want me to go below 100 to 170 which is simply too high for a diabetic. It leads to more meds and body damage that you hear about. If you talk to long time diabetics they know that the recommended amounts are too high and cause damage. However, one of the possible side effects with keeping our numbers in check is lows. I was doing really good there for a few weeks now I have an occasional low which usually isn’t too bad, but this 50 was stubborn and refusing to come up at first and then even though I was at 84 finally I still felt like passing out so I had a couple of mini cookies. Eventually it did come up and is now 233. So totally the wrong way and out of control tonight.

I hate playing this game. It is dangerous and we are subjected to damage such as eye loss, diabetic neuropathy,  amputation and our body organs shutting down from high sugars. The trick is keeping them down without going too low. Epic fail tonight.

Add to that the pain I am in. I don’t understand how you can take a higher dose of pain meds and still feel worse than you did on the lower dose. Plus still trying to get my arthritis meds refilled. I think that is part of it. Then of course, there is the lovely Fibromyalgia. It is flaring big time right now.

I am back to wanting to cry again the pain is so intense, my diabetes is already out of control and I haven’t had the steroids yet which are going to raise them super high and nothing I can do about that because those injections are necessary. I refuse to let this diabetes beat me. Diabetics so often die young because of uncontrolled blood sugars, but my doctor wants me to keep my numbers higher to avoid the lows, but if I do that I risk other problems

Oh and I got my EOB on my prescriptions and my fast acting Novolog taken with  meals is over $2000 for 3 months and the slow acting is almost $500 just for one month so $1500 for 3 months. The needles are over $152 for 90 days and the strips are another high number which I have forgotten. If I didn’t have extra help from the state I couldn’t even take them or any meds, Currently they aren’t charging me a copay for the meds at all thank God!

Hopefully my therapist and I will be working on positivity. I need it. Anything at all happens and I immediately go to the negative side. Can’t see the positive til maybe later if things work out which thankfully they usually do.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Religious Devotions – October 19, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh


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He Died on the Cross For Us

I will follow wherever you lead, my Lord!

By Teresa Smeigh

Seek Me with All Your Heart


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Jeremiah 29:13  You will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me [as a vital necessity] and find me when you search for Me with all your heart.

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A commitment to spend time with God is as serious a commitment as any we will ever make.

The quality of our lives is affected by the time we spend with Him.

Do not become slack in the time you spend with Him because you know he is always available. Make him your priority.

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Dear Father,

I am sorry for the times that I do not make you a priority in my life and do other non-important things. I shall make a commitment to spend time with you every day.

In the Lord’s name I pray,

Amen

 

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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you!

I Corinthians 6:23

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

 

The higher strength meds not helping much…excuse all the mistakes


Part of the problem is that I ran out of my arthritis meds and didn’t realize that the narcotic did nothing for that pain and so all of my joints have joined into the fray.

I am trying to get those meds refilled. I need a new script, now pain management promised to take care of it and the office tech came and asked me which pharmacy I used and sent it, but the pharmacy didn’t get it and they can’t get through to pain management because they won’t talk prescriptions over the phone. So I tried calling the rheumatologist who originally gave me the script and I had to cancel this most recent appt because I am seeing an orthopedic dr and pain management right now and didn’t think being redundant was necessary. Now I am hoping he will rewrite that script without me going in for an appt. So far I haven’t heard anything and it is after 5 PM and I know the drs office is closed. She said she would call if there was a problem. So I will try the pharmacy soon since they also promised to call if it came in. I know how that works with the best of intentions and all.

My life is so confusing right now. I am stumbling through it the best I can. The narcotics are affecting my ability to think though. I am finding lots of writing mistakes on posts and correcting what I do see.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

 

Tomorrow Afternoon I Finally See Pain Management


It has been a long painful wait, but it is finally here. I am nervous about what decisions may or may not be made. Wondering if I will be sent to a neurosurgeon or just have steroid epidurals.

I am working on changing everything to the new bank. The biggest thing being my social security disability check. The bank said usually they are able to make the change themselves, but gave me paperwork in case I have to do it by hand myself.

I would have stayed with the old bank, but due to financial reasons I have to leave there and break the ties. I will still being doing business with them for a bit, but then I won’t and leaving then won’t be such a good idea. So breaking ties as soon as possible. Shopped around for the bank that was similar to them. I prefer my old bank, but I will get used to the new one soon.

I think I will try the bank’s bill pay. I didn’t trust the concept and working in the online department let me know things that could go wrong. I now have automatic withdrawals and I might as well have one place to pay all the bills instead of going to each site and make a payment. Sometimes I just don’t trust technology.

The pain is back again today. Yesterday was just a break I guess. A welcome one at that.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

The pain has lessened some…


I have to admit that the pain has lessened some. Certainly not gone and still need the pain pills, but there is some relief since yesterday.

Now I just can’t sleep as this whole thing has messed up my sleep cycle since I would sleep when I took the pain pill and had some relief, enough to let me sleep.

I paid bills today and that is almost done for the month. What is left will go on the credit cards. It is only a way to slow down the fact that I will have to file for bankruptcy especially with all this medical going on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Religious Devotions – October 15, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh


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He Died on the Cross For Us

I will follow wherever you lead, my Lord!

By Teresa Smeigh

Ask for What You Want from the Lord!


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Matthew 7:11 NLT

“How much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him.”

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Not only does He help you pray, but He will show you what to pray for to remain on His path for your life. God wants you to know his will. He is more motivated to show you his way to your path than you are.

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Dear Father,

Thank you for loving, protecting and providing for me.

Amen

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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you! I Corinthians 6:23

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).