Tag Archives: Feelings

Bankruptcy is not easy or cheap


Eventually this should pay off, but right now it is downright difficult. Everytime I turn around there is another fee, some of which might be waived. Then they want more paperwork. The letter claims we discussed it, but I don’t remember it. I don’t know if it is my anxiety stopping me from remembering or the lawyer doing his standing thing without really having said it, but just thought he did, plus I have been through this before back in 2004.

Confused? Join the club.

In order to pay these additional fees I have to cancel all my dr appointments for the next couple of months. And that is just the the normal fees. If one or more of the creditors want to sue me, I would have to retain him at his hourly rate to have him defend me. That is not cheap. He charges $350 for each billable hour.

Of course I am anxious and can’t get his assistant on the phone. I am surprised I slept at all last night.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

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My chromebook now prints


What a task. It took many websites through Google and 20 or so different youtube.com sites to put together a procedure that worked and it now prints. First I had to get my printer hooked up to our WIFI network. I couldn’t do it at first when I installed it for my old computer. So googled there too since the directions didn’t work.

I am slowly learning the more important tasks with the “Dummies” book, youtube.com and googling.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome


Online Dating With Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I am not interested in dating much. The reasons are far and wide.

1.my disorders are many and depending on the activity are beyond my pain and fatigue.

2. I am shy and new people and places scare me.

3. I have been hurt too many times.

I am not looking, but but not giving up completely. I do miss the companionship and support. I am not interested much in sex so that can kill a relationship, but there are others out there looking for companionship only. If it is meant to be, it will be.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Still struggling with Chromebook


My typing is getting worse. It was bad enough,but now I have to get used to a new keyboard.

Tomorrow I have my appointment with the lawyer. Anxiety growing.

Pain is increasing and my next epidural steroid shot is the 12th, One week from today. At least it isn’t as bad as the first time. This pain is less.

My next project is to learn how to print from here and redo the documents I need. I can’t just copy them over as far as I know, I don’t believe Google or Office are compatible. I have a dummies book and you.tube to help me.

Tessa

Financial Woes


People have heard me mention my finances. As time goes on the situation gets worse. I get a small check from the government (SSDI) and have more bills than income. I have been using my credit cards almost to the max now.

I called my bankruptcy lawyer this morning and I will start the process. I also have to make a very tight budget. Times will be tough. Food will be the hardest since with the Diabetes I can’t just eat junk because it is cheap.

I knew this was coming just kept hoping for a miracle.

Tessa

Epidural done yesterday, feeling much better


The local anesthesia was the worst part. Didn’t feel the actual steroid injection. By the time I got my pain pill a couple of hours later it took a couple of hours to start feeling better.

I could turn over in bed without the resulting pain and this morning getting out of bed was easier. I can walk easier, not all stiff and little steps as I did with that terrible pain. I haven’t felt this well in decades.

Ruby I kept your prayer cloth in my pocket right next to where they were working. It gave me comfort. Thank you to you and your church for praying for me.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).

Religious Devotions – November 8, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh (This is a repost and a message I need to remember)


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He Died on the Cross For Us

I will follow wherever you lead, my Lord!

By Teresa Smeigh

This is something different. (Part dream, part reality, I was bullied as a child)

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The beautiful little fairy/pixie got dressed for the morning at school. She dreaded this because the other fairies were so mean to her. She was freshly cleaned and nicely dressed, but they still didn’t like her unless she let them copy her schoolwork.

She flew over to the area where they held school and settled on a branch as far away as she could while still being able to hear the teachers.

The murmuring started among her fellow fairies. “Give us your homework, NOW!” they yelled in unison. They grabbed her and held her down trying to get the homework from her.

I couldn’t watch the poor fairy being bullied anymore and I stepped in, lifted my arm and prepared to save the poor thing.

“Wait! Vengeance is mine,” sayeth the Lord! (Romans 12:19)

I lowered my arm, ashamed at what I had planned to do. I was just as bad as the other fairies.

(“I heard the shout loud and clear – I was awake by then. Jesus was reminding me of the bad thoughts I had for vengeance and reminding me it was his job.”) I tried to punish my ex-husband for what he did to me, but the Lord was reminding me it was not my place to do the punishment and I wished he had gotten there sooner and not let me try to punish my ex-husband. I hurt others in the process.

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Dear Father,

Thank you for reminding me that vengeance is yours. It is not my job to punish anyone. Sometimes I need reminding.

Amen

 

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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you!

I Corinthians 6:23

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (no longer canceling this blog, just not adding new work to it, sign up for http://www.tessacandoit.com for the new posts).