I dragged myself out of bed at 11:30 since I had a 1:00 PM appointment with my GP. This is always anxiety-filled for me.
He doesn’t believe in Fibromyalgia. We talk around it because he simply believes it is a term used when they can’t figure out what is the matter with you.
Luckily for me I have a Rheumatologist who does believe in it and tries medications and gives me Lidocaine/Steroid injections in the trigger points which sometimes give me relief and sometimes they don’t.
So my GP is responsible for my lectures on weight (you gained some more, you need to lose some of that weight). Actually I need to lose half my body weight as I am only 4’11” tall. My lectures on my diabetes. My numbers are too high, check my levels, watch what I eat…blah, blah, BLAH! I am a compulsive eater. I eat when anxious (all the time) and when bored. I hate foods that are good for me. I eat one meal a day and maybe a snack. All bad for diabetics. Sometimes I forget my meds.
Then we spend some time talking about psyche medicines and what I take for the Fibromyalgia. These don’t concern him, but wants them in the records.
My thyroid has been very off for several months now, close to a year. I take one of the higher doses of Synthroid. Today it was perfect.
My Blood pressure is a little high, but for a diabetic it is ok and I take meds for that as well.
I was told again to lose weight and all my pain issues (arthritis, degenerative disc disease in 1/3 my spine, all 3 areas and a pinched nerve in the neck, plus the non-existent Fibro will go away.)
I am over 50 and he pushes for Colonoscopy (no way Jose), pap smear (no way Jose) and a mammogram. Those I will do although I don’t thank him for sending me and they decide to do a biopsy and nothing was wrong.
I am stubborn and I have enough wrong with me that we don’t need to look for more. LET’S JUST SAY WE HAVE TO AGREE TO DISAGREE, MY CHOICE RULES. STUPID OR NOT!
Advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also a devout Christian
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