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Daily Devotions – March 21, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh


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He Died on the Cross For Us

By Teresa Smeigh

Following in the Lord’s Footsteps

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2 Corinthians 9:6

Put your hope in the Lord. Travel steadily along the path. He will honor you.

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Remember that you will reap what you sow. Be conscience of the choices you make. Every choice is a seed. Invest bountifully and you will be joyful when harvest time comes.

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Dear Father,

Help me invest my life bountifully in ways that honor you.

Amen

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The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you! I Corinthians 6:23

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate For Mental And Invisible Illnesses

-Author Of Articles, Stories And Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Daily Devotions – March 20, 2017 by Teresa Smeigh


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He Died on the Cross for Us

by Teresa Smeigh

Following in the Lord’s footsteps.

Hebrews 4:16 NKJV  Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

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As we begin to understand our relationship with God our prayers will become much bolder.

The more we grow and progress our relationship with God, the bolder we will approach him.

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Dear Father,

I pray to know you better and grow our relationship so that I might be bolder.

In the Lord’s name I pray,

Amen

Cell Phone Hell


My old phone is about to die completely. I ordered a new one online last Wednesday. Come to find out it is backordered and I get a new delivery date every day. Very annoying especially since calling is all my phone can  do now and the battery dies quickly.

This all started with 2 different techs at Apple. I have an iPhone. Verizon doesn’t work on them. Apple couldn’t help and the phone was quickly shutting down. I called Verizon since I needed a new phone. I had to pay off my old one which was around $100 and then set up my plan which is now unlimited across the board including the data. However, the rep didn’t know it was on back order although she should have been told when ordering it. She apologized, but it is already done and wait I must since I also ordered the supplies. By the time the money went back on my card it will most likely, hopefully, be here.

Still withdrawing from my psych drugs. Next week I go down to a very small dose. Wonder if it will be bad. So far I have been pretty well with this one.

I have been fantasizing about my ex-husband. Now that I have forgiven him (and I) for what happened 40 plus years ago I find myself drawn back to him. He doesn’t know how I feel. My children do and so does my therapist. Of course I also want to go back in time and start over. I know that isn’t possible. Neither of us are the same. I won’t take orders and he is now used to following “hers” and so things aren’t really ideal and he hasn’t made any indication that he wants to start over (yet), I have prayed to God to do what he thinks is best. Do I want him back or am I dreaming or am I just feeling alone. I am not interested in another man at this time for sure.

Oh well, life goes on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Giving to others…way to go Danny


I always give to others. There but for the grace of God go I!!!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

I believe in MIRACLES – cyst in breast is gone, normal mammo


I am so relieved I could dance if it didn’t hurt so much. Instead I will praise and thank God for this miracle. Miracles can and DO happen.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

God’s Plans


“God’s Plans” by Teresa Smeigh January 2017

My life is planned by God,

This I do believe.

God’s plans are set ,

Whether I like them or not.

I pray for those that need it and even those

that do not know that they do.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Teenagers! I was one once long ago and I broke many of the 10 Commandments. (Non-fiction)


Teresa Dean Smeigh at age 16

Teresa Dean Smeigh at age 16

Many of you have seen this picture of me before. I was 16 and didn’t believe in God. I believed in me. I was selfish and wanted everything to be about me. Flirting in lust and with someone else’s boyfriend. I have asked for forgiveness for all my morally wrong sins. I didn’t go illegal. No pot for this girl and no cigarettes EVER!! Never tried them.

I looked loose and fast, but looks can be deceiving. I was what they called a tease “watching my language here.”

Nothing pleased me more than open admiration by the males around me. My biggest thrill was to watch a man squeal brakes trying to stop he was so into watching me. No one was ever hurt in this process. I was young and this was the beginning of my Bipolar’s control over my sexual habits called Hypersexuality.

Here I am at 17. I had an hourglass figure and had to wear hip huggers because if the waist fit the hips didn’t, This Virgin’s obsession with sex was getting harder to control, but I wanted to wait until I was at least 18.

Teresa Dean Smeigh at 17 years old

Teresa Dean Smeigh at 17 years old

At 17 I was still continuing to tease. Some would say I got what I deserve. I say I should be able to go dressed sexily without the worry of being raped. I had 2 attempted rapes and then the emotional rape by my boyfriend below. It turned me off sex, but not sexy dressing.

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This is my now ex-husband and I at 17 and on the Jersey Shore boardwalk. Not too long after this he emotionally raped me. I was forced to say yes. It was the end of our happy relationship and the beginning of hell.

I recently found out I had a miscarriage at age 17 not too long after our sexual relationship started. I thought it was a clot, like I would sometimes get. Not too long ago I was looking at a gestation chart and realized it looked like a fetus. I never forgot that in all those years.

I was married for 23 years and we divorced in 1999. He is still with the woman he hooked up with. He was supposed to marry her and hasn’t yet. Long engagement if they ever do get married. He was in a hurry to marry her too. Nibby nose is curious as hell as to why he didn’t marry her back in 1980. None of my business.

All our live children were born after marriage. Unfortunately the miscarriage was a blessing. We weren’t ready to be parents at 17. We were too young for everything dealing with sex and marriage.

I regret those days, but there is no way to change things. I am a Christian now and God forgives me. During mania I try to keep the hypersexuality under control. It is a bonafide symptom of Bipolar.

Perhaps if I had said no to him firmly he wouldn’t have left me and life would have been different. (That was his threat and we had just made up).

PS We hardly had sex during our marriage. Enough to have 3 kids. 🙂

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com