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#WeekendCoffeeShare: Now it is pinched nerves – September 2017


If we were having coffee this weekend, I would be drinking water (my main drink since my diabetes is so out of control) and you could have your choice of beverages.

I would tell you about my new struggles with life. I have pinched nerves in my neck and back causing extensive pain, more than my normal chronic pain. I was given a few percocets, but they won’t last until my pain management appointment October 17. Thanks to all the people abusing drugs, those of us in true pain can’t get what we need. I am thankful for what they could give me.

I have MRI’s to get, a nerve test to study the amount of damage and then steroid injections (there goes my sugar levels sky high) and then hopefully pain meds. This is the second time in 7 years I went through this. Last time I was also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. That is adding its 2 cents as well.

My bipolar is not as bad right now, but it is adding its 2 cents as well. I can’t help, but feel depression during all of this. I have lived with chronic pain for 40 years now and this is so much worse. Hopefully the injections will help. I am going to the same dr so I hope she will follow along with the same treatment.

I am skipping the 2 treatments of physical therapy due to cost and they really didn’t help much last time. Living on a government disability check is impossible and I have no choice, but to go for this medical treatment. It will push the added burden of the bankruptcy sooner rather than later.

I keep trying to remind myself that God will provide for my needs, but the other part of me wants to know why I must go through all this pain, both physical and mental. I know there are people worse off than I and surgery is not on the table at this point, but this is degenerative, hence the name Degenerative Disk Disease. The inflammation from the arthritis and herniated disks is what is pinching the nerves. The injections if possible will help take down some of the inflammation.

They say that not eating sugar helps inflammation. I barely eat any following this low carb diet, but it doesn’t seem to help the inflammation from my standpoint.

Okay, done complaining for now.

Hope you all have a great and blessed week!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one.

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Have to find my lost inspiration! Bipolar is just part of me, not all of me!


I blame so much on the bipolar disorder, but it is only part of it. I have lost most of my inspiration in life. Granted I never had much to begin with, but my writing is suffering, my blog is suffering. My family life is suffering and I just started to make amends with my children. I don’t want to die old and alone with no family.

I started the amends process last night. Lots of crying among us, but a start has been made and I have to admit my son is probably right when he says I am looking for attention. That I don’t feel real without it. I need validation.

Others suffer from things worse than me and go on with life. I use my mental and physical health as excuses. I am intuitive and I know things and could have made a great counselor if I had felt the need and desire.

I want to make a difference in people’s lives as well as my own. I have to start with me for the most part.

I need to bring God back into my life. I have even pushed him into the background. Blaming him for my misery. Life isn’t easy and getting back on track will take some work, but TESSA CAN DO IT!

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Drop your glasses on the ground and stomp 3 times, take the resulting pile to glass store – some one shoot me


Last night in my drugged condition I took 2 doses of slow acting Tresiba insulin. Dangerously low this morning. Then before I knew it it was dangerously high. My life couldn’t suck more, could it??? Probably should shut up, things could suck more.

By the way the eyeglass store put my glasses back together for free. That was nice of them.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Ping backs don’t work for me.


I was just reading a site that said only WordPress blogs give ping backs. Mine used to a long time ago, but now my blogs are both using their own domains. So now I know why I can no longer do a pingback.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Finally able to eat and retain the food.


I am finally able to eat and no pain or other problems from the food. I still don’t know what happened. Just glad it is seemingly over.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Sick again and another ER visit.


Every time I eat I get sick from both ends. Trying to eat the least upsetting food for my stomach. I was dehydrated and had to go to ER. They couldn’t tell if it was from the new meds (started right after) or a bug. Either way it has been over a week now and I still am sick after eating.

Mentally I am sick as well. Between the two I am in bed all the time and sleeping.  I sleep at least 16 hours every day. Went to psyche nurse today and she is adding an older anti-depressant to my cocktail. Though I have to wait since what she ordered doesn’t come in that size and they have to order it anyhow.

I am so sick and tired of this. I am suffering physically and mentally and still having trouble with my cognizance. Typing is a real trial and can’t spell anymore.

Please excuse my ins and outs. I will be here when I can tolerate it.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Daniel Ray I mentioned you in my video!