Tag Archives: Life

By Meera Lester – “365 Ways To Live The Law Of Attraction”


I have mentioned the Law of Attraction time and again. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. This  book has 365 ways (or days if you wish) of info. I will post some things if I think them relevant to positivity. Mainly that is what I am more interested in.

I understand the law of attraction. What you project out into the universe you draw to you. Think positive thoughts and you will attract positive people and things to you. Project the bad thoughts and that is what you will attract. As someone put it, whining about my pain and unhappiness will just draw more towards me.  I understand this, but it is very hard not to think negative thoughts when your life basically sucks and my pain is unbearable.

I have had many discussions with my dad about these subjects and a lot of other ones many of you may not believe in. And that’s ok, we are all different and have different beliefs.

Part of me wonders if I am being punished for something I did in a past life. Then again it could be this life. I have done some things that I knew were morally wrong and I feel wicked at times for having lived through some of the things I did in my life.

God has a plan for us and mine isn’t particularly pleasant this time around (if you believe in re-incarnation). And from what I have learned we will relive certain lives until we have learned the lessons God has set out for us. You will repeat a lesson until you learn it.

God bless us all!

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

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What Are the Best and Worst Foods for Bipolar?


What Are the Best and Worst Foods for Bipolar?

Although I have done some research on bipolar and diet and even wrote an article for another site, I have not found the changes to be significant. Another case of everyone is different.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

They egged my car AGAIN!


I have lived here since 2004 and this is the 2nd or 3rd time it has happened. I don’t know why. There were other cars on the street as well and one time they threw glass bottles under the car and my old (as in very old age) neighbor helped me pick up the glass and had called to let me know before I came out and drove away on top of the glass. I couldn’t see them from my house.

My son quipped, “if they throw eggs scramble them!” I retorted, “I prefer my eggs on a plate!”

There were some fancy, expensive cars on the road with mine, but it was me they aimed at.

My pain is getting worse and it will be several weeks to over a month until I can be rescheduled since I had gotten sick before the last procedure. I had a taste of no pain for a while, but now it is back. I lie down for quite a while when I can although that does tend to make me stiff.

My friend and I have switched our brunch day to Sundays rather than Saturdays. Less crowded and better vibes. We were getting aggravated on Saturdays.

Still waiting for the bankruptcy to go forward. I am very anxious. Working on not spending money and wasting gas if I don’t have to go anywhere. Working on setting up a budget as well.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Changing life


I slept all day after a lousy night, in which I couldn’t stop shaking. Dad said I could put the little heater on again. I forgot a whole pain pill time and combined with the lack of arthritis meds made it hard to move. Hours later and I am finally able to move. I didn’t even dress today. I am still in my flannel pjs.

Due to the snow we are not going to brunch again on Saturday. Maybe we will try Sunday.

December 16, 2017

Can’t sleep since I slept all day. I skipped a complete dose of percocets and was starting into detox. Quick got one in as I mentioned earlier.

Later in the day I checked my mail and I had a list of senior and disabled housing (not all subsidized) from the Division of Senior Services. My insurance provided me with a social worker and she asked me about my needs and fears so she gave me numbers and info and then even called them for me. It is a long list almost 2 full pages, but not all of them say subsidized on them and I hope all the ones listed under Gloucester County Housing are covered by the application I already filled out and have a confirmation number for.

I feel hopeful right now even though I know they have waiting lists. They are for seniors 62 (I am 61 til October) and/or the disabled (BINGO). I do dread the thought of filling out tons of applications right now.

It is nice to feel that surge of hope running through me since this bankruptcy has me really kind of down. Hopefully the bankruptcy won’t stop me from being eligible.

I am cooking dinner and writing this at the same time since I can carry the chromebook around.

I contacted Laura, my psych nurse, about changing my appointment and she says I am currently stable enough to wait several months, plus she knows I keep her advised as to how I am feeling.

I am starting to get used to cooking dinner again. I understand the seriousness of my situation and it is starting to sink in. Right now I am cooking bacon and eggs. First time in a long time I cooked the bacon in a pan and will use the juices (fat) to cook the eggs in.

I have been forgetting a pain pill, well actually sleeping through it. I feel the beginnings of detox and take it right away. Sugar numbers have been low and occasionally too low.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

Bankruptcy is not easy or cheap


Eventually this should pay off, but right now it is downright difficult. Everytime I turn around there is another fee, some of which might be waived. Then they want more paperwork. The letter claims we discussed it, but I don’t remember it. I don’t know if it is my anxiety stopping me from remembering or the lawyer doing his standing thing without really having said it, but just thought he did, plus I have been through this before back in 2004.

Confused? Join the club.

In order to pay these additional fees I have to cancel all my dr appointments for the next couple of months. And that is just the the normal fees. If one or more of the creditors want to sue me, I would have to retain him at his hourly rate to have him defend me. That is not cheap. He charges $350 for each billable hour.

Of course I am anxious and can’t get his assistant on the phone. I am surprised I slept at all last night.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

My chromebook now prints


What a task. It took many websites through Google and 20 or so different youtube.com sites to put together a procedure that worked and it now prints. First I had to get my printer hooked up to our WIFI network. I couldn’t do it at first when I installed it for my old computer. So googled there too since the directions didn’t work.

I am slowly learning the more important tasks with the “Dummies” book, youtube.com and googling.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work, new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

Have to cancel epidural due to possible bronchitis and the start of pneumonia


They can’t take a chance on infection getting into my spine, I was wheezing but didn’t realize it wasn’t my asthma.

Tessa