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Sick again and another ER visit.


Every time I eat I get sick from both ends. Trying to eat the least upsetting food for my stomach. I was dehydrated and had to go to ER. They couldn’t tell if it was from the new meds (started right after) or a bug. Either way it has been over a week now and I still am sick after eating.

Mentally I am sick as well. Between the two I am in bed all the time and sleeping.  I sleep at least 16 hours every day. Went to psyche nurse today and she is adding an older anti-depressant to my cocktail. Though I have to wait since what she ordered doesn’t come in that size and they have to order it anyhow.

I am so sick and tired of this. I am suffering physically and mentally and still having trouble with my cognizance. Typing is a real trial and can’t spell anymore.

Please excuse my ins and outs. I will be here when I can tolerate it.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Daniel Ray I mentioned you in my video!


Drug Withdrawal


Brunch and Drug Withdrawal…


Bipolar and ex-husbands


Cell Phone Hell


My old phone is about to die completely. I ordered a new one online last Wednesday. Come to find out it is backordered and I get a new delivery date every day. Very annoying especially since calling is all my phone can  do now and the battery dies quickly.

This all started with 2 different techs at Apple. I have an iPhone. Verizon doesn’t work on them. Apple couldn’t help and the phone was quickly shutting down. I called Verizon since I needed a new phone. I had to pay off my old one which was around $100 and then set up my plan which is now unlimited across the board including the data. However, the rep didn’t know it was on back order although she should have been told when ordering it. She apologized, but it is already done and wait I must since I also ordered the supplies. By the time the money went back on my card it will most likely, hopefully, be here.

Still withdrawing from my psych drugs. Next week I go down to a very small dose. Wonder if it will be bad. So far I have been pretty well with this one.

I have been fantasizing about my ex-husband. Now that I have forgiven him (and I) for what happened 40 plus years ago I find myself drawn back to him. He doesn’t know how I feel. My children do and so does my therapist. Of course I also want to go back in time and start over. I know that isn’t possible. Neither of us are the same. I won’t take orders and he is now used to following “hers” and so things aren’t really ideal and he hasn’t made any indication that he wants to start over (yet), I have prayed to God to do what he thinks is best. Do I want him back or am I dreaming or am I just feeling alone. I am not interested in another man at this time for sure.

Oh well, life goes on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Here I am, typing again. Bad week!


Well friends at the moment I must type again. My cellphone, which I was using to upload videos took a nosedive. Barely works so I decided to try a webcam. Had the buttons to connect to YouTube, but found out in support they no longer support YouTube or any other social media. I took it back to the store. I don’t skype so it was no good to me.

My printer was going. Got a new one and it wouldn’t hook up, so I took it back to the store and got another one and this one is working.

I am just totally done. My back is in severe pain and the headaches terrible. Still withdrawing from the second medicine. She is drawing this one out since it is a cut-table pill.

And either tomorrow or the next day I will have a new iPhone. It is pretty useless right now. I got unlimited everything including data. I am going to start using my  new phone to do things since when my son and I have to find a place to live we won’t be able to afford cable. I will use my phone for netflix, wordpress, facebook, etc. I need to learn how to use the calendar and other necessities I normally do with the computer or a calendar.

Still have my channel and will try again with the new cell phone though have to be more careful and keep the storage free. I used up all the storage and taking things off doesn’t help. Keeps disconnecting me and the buttons are sticking.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com