Tag Archives: Mental and Physical Illnesses

Bipolar Hypo-mania, Therapy Today


Therapy was needed today. Had some things I needed to sort out. Luckily I have a great therapist.

Still in hypo-mania mode. Better than depression.

Very emotional though. Crying more than usual.

Fasting sugar level was in the range this morning. Still eating much healthier and I did not eat the cake or pastries offered today at the chiropractor.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

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My fridge is lower carbohydrate now and more healthy


I have fresh vegetables including broccoli (Danny Ray is saying “I told you so LOL”). Meats, high in protein (good for diabetics) and no carbs.

One of my problems with the insulin is that my meals must be more regulated. No eating, munching whenever I feel like it. Will be good in the long run and may even lose weight, but driving me crazy right now.

My fitbit announced at 2PM that I had hit my walking goal for the day. My goal is still low. It is just under 2000 steps per day right now. May be time to raise it.

My antidepressant is still working except for the mood swings (manic right now, or maybe hypo-manic) and I am sleeping too much still. Appointment tomorrow. She might lower it or raise the mood stabilizer. This has been the best one so far aside from the initial reaction to the Cymbalta which lasted 8 months.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Bipolar:Over the Rainbow or Down the Rabbit Hole


Just can’t win. Mood swings and never know where I am going to land. And antidepressant has me sleeping my life away solidly. Barely aware of phone or alarm.

Still physically ill. And my tummy is purple from the injections of insulin. Oh what joy!

I hope to rejoin the community fully someday soon. Still can’t type.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Diabetes runaway, 500 5 hours after lunch, 300 this morning fasting.


Not only that I am suffering bad stomach problems which I finally had to use the Zofran for nausea. I get pains after eating.

I am sleeping better with just the Antidepressant Remeron, but not as well as the first 2 days. I slept last night from 12 midnight to 5 AM this morning. Finally decided to get up since I am not tired or groggy. The sleep aids always made me so groggy all day I stayed in bed.

Ooops lost my focus and forgot what I was doing. My stomach has hurt for hours now. At least the pains are lessening.

Tomorrow I see the endocrinologist and see what his next brainy idea is. Nothing working so far,

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

Antidepressant and sick again


This antidepressant remeron is supposed to be a sedative too. Always a problem for me because I react the opposite. I wanted to stop, but she had forgotten that I take an OTC sleep aid and at a high dose. She made me double my dose of antidepressant and stop the OTC sleep aid. I have been up all night to late morning, early after aftersoon since I have been taking the the sleep aids with the new antidepressant.

I was shocked. I fell asleep early last night, slept all night to mid afternoon when my son woke me up. Maybe she was right. I have to let her know how it goes last night and the next few days because I will need a new prescription since I will run out doubling them.

I am also back on another antibiotic, cough pearls, a steroid and a rescue inhaler for the wheezing, sore throat, terrible cough and congestion in my chest.

I am so tired of this.

 

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

 

Sick again and another ER visit.


Every time I eat I get sick from both ends. Trying to eat the least upsetting food for my stomach. I was dehydrated and had to go to ER. They couldn’t tell if it was from the new meds (started right after) or a bug. Either way it has been over a week now and I still am sick after eating.

Mentally I am sick as well. Between the two I am in bed all the time and sleeping.  I sleep at least 16 hours every day. Went to psyche nurse today and she is adding an older anti-depressant to my cocktail. Though I have to wait since what she ordered doesn’t come in that size and they have to order it anyhow.

I am so sick and tired of this. I am suffering physically and mentally and still having trouble with my cognizance. Typing is a real trial and can’t spell anymore.

Please excuse my ins and outs. I will be here when I can tolerate it.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com

This is a copy of my journal I write for my therapist


Journal – morning only – I figured I would put the journal on here so I don’t have to write it over:

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December 14, 2016

Day after therapy and I am still animated. I know it is false since it is mania and not my only mood/mask I show. I still have energy and am cleaning up my room as much as my physical body will let me. This is a breakthrough. Depression I only do what I must do at the very minimum. A huge bag of paper is recycled. This is paper that was shoved on a desk top and some of my file drawers. I still have several boxes down here from when my kids moved me to the downstairs room to prevent falls. I still fall. Fell off the chair yesterday. Getting up was fun and difficult. I did finally make it without screaming the house down in the middle of the night.

My sleep is running for about 3 hours, bathroom break and then up around 5 or 6 AM. This isn’t a bad sleep cycle. I also have a BiPap machine for sleep apnea.

So far today I gathered all the plastic grocery bags and set them on the stairwell for my son. I dusted two large pieces of furniture and took everything off them and dusted them.

I checked my blood sugar. Still way out of control. My doctor is not concerned. He never has been and that is why I got where I was. If I stay manic I will take better control, as long as I don’t get overboard with the mania. Right now, it is at a good point. Helpful, not hurtful. I feel happy and even productive.

I have a long way to go. My moods just aren’t stable though. They still fluctuate.

I took my pills, my inhaler, my eye drops and a glass of water.

I am also setting a goal every day. Keeping it so far. I am working slowly on my poll list. I am taking things slowly because I don’t want to send myself into ultra-mania and lose control. All it takes is a push to send me over the brink.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com