Tag Archives: Pinched Nerves

Yeah no surgery!


Yeah, no surgery. Just steroid injections. I also got a much stronger pain pill and enough for every 6 hours and 30 days worth. First shot isn’t until November 14 though. Dr said a couple of weeks, but by the time I got there it was 4 weeks unless I wanted to travel and go to a surgery center which is more expensive. I am getting it there at the dr’s office.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Tomorrow Afternoon I Finally See Pain Management


It has been a long painful wait, but it is finally here. I am nervous about what decisions may or may not be made. Wondering if I will be sent to a neurosurgeon or just have steroid epidurals.

I am working on changing everything to the new bank. The biggest thing being my social security disability check. The bank said usually they are able to make the change themselves, but gave me paperwork in case I have to do it by hand myself.

I would have stayed with the old bank, but due to financial reasons I have to leave there and break the ties. I will still being doing business with them for a bit, but then I won’t and leaving then won’t be such a good idea. So breaking ties as soon as possible. Shopped around for the bank that was similar to them. I prefer my old bank, but I will get used to the new one soon.

I think I will try the bank’s bill pay. I didn’t trust the concept and working in the online department let me know things that could go wrong. I now have automatic withdrawals and I might as well have one place to pay all the bills instead of going to each site and make a payment. Sometimes I just don’t trust technology.

The pain is back again today. Yesterday was just a break I guess. A welcome one at that.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

The pain has lessened some…


I have to admit that the pain has lessened some. Certainly not gone and still need the pain pills, but there is some relief since yesterday.

Now I just can’t sleep as this whole thing has messed up my sleep cycle since I would sleep when I took the pain pill and had some relief, enough to let me sleep.

I paid bills today and that is almost done for the month. What is left will go on the credit cards. It is only a way to slow down the fact that I will have to file for bankruptcy especially with all this medical going on.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

No point in asking…


Why me? There is no point in asking as there is no answer forthcoming. If you believe in re-incarnation you could say I am paying for one hell of a sin.

The only thing I know is that I can barely stand it anymore. The pain pills are not helping or my pain is worse than I thought.

I am using a cane now to walk and need support to pull myself up and down stairs. I can’t do it on my own. Getting out of bed is pure excruciating pain and almost impossible for me to do now.  I thought I knew what a 10 in the pain score meant before, but that is now a 15. Worse than childbirth at times and my 3 children were born naturally no pain relief. I have lived with chronic pain for over 40 years yet it is still possible to find pain that is worse than that.

Last time I went through this I didn’t think it could get worse, but it can. Oh it certainly can. I have heard good and bad things about surgery if they go that route. I could become totally immobile. Heck I almost am now. Not sure I like them messing with my spine. I won’t even let the chiropractor touch it anymore.

My Fibromyalgia is joining in on the fun. I am in full flare, pins and needles from that. numbness and pins and needles throughout my entire body from pinched nerves and Fibro. Arthritis running amuck. Some people have mild arthritis, but don’t know just how bad it can get. And it could be rheumatoid arthritis and worse so I shouldn’t complain too much I suppose. I would gather that is worse. Mine is inflamed and wrapped around my spine and squeezing.

They call it degenerative for a reason. It will not get better. It will continue to get worse. Talk about a life sentence.

My anxiety is super high even with meds. My bipolar is actually fairly stable at the moment so I am not dealing with my mental health being out of control. Thank God for small favors at least.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Jittery!!


Several people including my son, best friend and dad have told me to quit googling what is wrong with me and how they treat it and especially the surgery that is possible. All I am doing is upsetting myself and my son says it is bringing out the negativity in me. He is probably right. My mind tends to go to the negative first no matter what. I can’t just think about something and be positive about it.

I think it has helped me understand what might happen and that people have come out of it and recovered for the most part. Having a physical therapist tell you that you should never have back or neck surgery because most people are worse off afterwards sure didn’t help and that was 7 years ago when I tried the physical therapy for my then pinched nerves. Now the physical therapy didn’t help. We moved on to the steroid shots and surgery was not on the table. Now it is.

I hate the wait. Give me all these things that might be and might go wrong and then tell me I have to wait over a month and a half or more for someone to make a decision and of course it wasn’t the person I was seeing in the orthopedic office. It goes orthopedic, pain management and then possibly a surgeon or maybe not.

How is a person supposed to be positive when all this is going on and taking so long for answers. Before the current tests were done surgery was not on the table according to orthopedic office and now after the results surgery is suddenly very much an option and he was able to rush that cervical MRI right through when the results were added to the request. I was barely out of the driveway and the first one took a week. What am I supposed to think?

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

What am I doing at 4 AM?


I can’t sleep and the pain isn’t helping. I had about 3 hours sleep and that usually means that it will take a few hours or more before I am ready to sleep again.

I am researching and watching videos on youtube.com about spinal fusion which is something I might have to go through. There are very few if any discs left in my spine and bone on bone is very painful.  Spinal fusion is one way they fix it, however it is usually only one or two vertebrate that they fuse. I don’t know how bad mine is or if it is possible to fuse them.

The videos were kind of freaky although it did give me some hope as to recovery and being able to move again depending on what they end up doing. If I am lucky I can just have the steroid shots and live with the chronic pain, but maybe not. I already have nerve damage another consideration and the stenosis of the spine could cause more pinching of the nerves besides what they do see in there already. They only MRI’d the cervical and lumbar and I know there are some in the thoracic area as well.

I am freaking myself out, but can’t seem to stop looking at the info available. I need to know what can possibly happen.

I found out that the stenosis can cause involuntary bladder and bowel loss of control. I didn’t know that the incontinence of my bladder for the last 2 years could be caused by the stenosis. I don’t know if it is fixable or not. It says tell your dr immediately. Well I have mentioned it to many of my drs and no one seemed to be alarmed or care. Now it seems possible it is linked to my back pain and the spinal stenosis. I have to remember to bring it up to the pain dr while she is evaluating me for possible treatments.

2 weeks to pain management appointment. I hope the time moves quickly like the rest of my life is flying by. I want to get past all of this and am hoping surgery is not needed although from what I know and what I have researched it looks very possible.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Pain, trying distraction by writing creatively


I am trying not to complain constantly about the pain. It sure doesn’t help me or anyone else. I am getting sick of myself complaining as well. The pain pills help somewhat, but hope something can be done to decrease the pain some. I can take a lot of pain so you know this is bad.

We are having car troubles right now and 2 out of 3 cars were at the shop today. One is still there til tomorrow only hopefully and the other one they did work on today, but didn’t fix the problem.

I have a ride to my therapy tomorrow at least as my car is being used to get my son to work.

I have been searching for Haiku prompts as that is all I feel like writing right now. No stories seem to be coming, but a Haiku I can whip them out. The Shadorma is similar, but has more syllables to use.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

The situation is worsening. Trying to be positive.


I am positive that I am scared. Things with the spine are scary enough. The orthopedic dr took one look at the tests he had in hand and immediately ordered and had pre-authorized the cervical MRI. I went from no surgery yet to very possibly having to have surgery.

My EMG nerve test showed at least one nerve had no feeling when pricked. My Lumbar MRI showed all but one disc in the lower spine had no cushioning left whatsoever. And more are already in that condition in my thoracic and cervical spine from the last tests 7 years ago.

I also have spinal stenosis. Narrowing of the spinal area and less room for the cord itself to go through causing more pinched areas.

The last time I was there he said I was not a candidate for surgery and now all of a sudden it is a really strong possibility.

I’m scared. I just read up on the surgery. They use anesthesia and intubation. I freak out when something is forced down my throat and I am awake. They better hope that the anesthesia works or they will have a crazy woman on their hands.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one).

Just a little work goes a long way!


I have been working on the new “Tessa Can Do It” blog and just these last few days I am finding a new growth in my readership. I am making the effort to follow up with those that leave me likes or messages and spending more time reading other’s blogs like I used to.

There is no way I can read everyone I follow and for that I am sorry, but anyone who has a fairly good size following understands where I am coming from. i have vowed to work more on keeping up with the blog and now that I am going from 2 blogs to one blog I should have a little more time to read once the conversion is complete.

I am making a separate listing in the reader for my new followers or for the old ones as I find them and they still interest me. I followed everyone in the beginning in an effort to build readership and some of these aren’t even in English. I hate trying to get it translated.

Also working on my blood sugars. They are all over the place and higher than I want so need to watch what I eat a little bit closer. My pancreas no longer makes its own insulin so I have to inject what I need and that is what will bring it down. It doesn’t really come down on its own anymore.

I just ate scrambled eggs, sausage and bacon. Since my number at the time was 78 I didn’t think about injecting any insulin and it is happily rising on its own. My nurse taught me a little bit about using the insulin to correct these incidents. I forgot to inject it this morning when I ate. I am still learning about correcting without over-correcting. I keep glucose tablets on hand just in case my sugar drops to dangerous lows. I was 44 last week and that took some time to come up and I was lucky that I was just light-headed and didn’t pass out. MUST be careful.

Went to our usual brunch today and this restaurant is headed downhill. They have closed many already and this one is on its way to join them. The food sucks and its employees have lousy skills. The only good thing is that the food is half-price, though I doubt that will save it in the end. There are no customers when food is regular priced. The only reason we don’t go to another restaurant is that this one is closer for my friend who doesn’t do much driving and she can tolerate the food. I hate it! We had to get the manager today. Our waitress was having all her tables complaining. Probably won’t finish the day off.

Tomorrow I will be going to my grandson’s football game. I have forgotten some of the rules and it isn’t as clear as a professional game so can’t tell sometimes what the plays are. I used to have a fairly good understanding of the game, but I have switched to Major League Baseball although since it is the Phillies we do a lot of losing LOL although they have gotten much better this second half of the season.

My pain has decreased some. Not sure if the inflammation is going down taking the discs off the nerve or I am just distracting myself more and not dwelling on my medical issues. I still have the 13 pages of papers the doctor’s office is requiring to be filled out. I hate filling all those medical papers out especially since they rarely read them.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (moving posts to other blog and will be deleting this one.

Only lumbar MRI approved.


The insurance company is playing God. They will only authorize the lumbar MRI. Told them they can use the cat scan for the cervical (neck). The pain dr uses the MRI for needle placement for the steroid shots.

I hate that insurance companies can play God rather than the dr who is treating you.

I will get the lumbar (lower back) MRI done on Saturday.

Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh

-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses

-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems

http://www.tessacandoit.com

http://www.finallyawriter.com