Finally have my new apartment. Lots of cleaning and unpacking to do. 
Forgot one of the closets. It’s a large clothes closet with plenty of space and shelves. I have two good size closets.
I will be busy for quite a while.
Tessa
I take Percocets. I still suffer pain, but without it, things are much worse. I do my best to keep my doses on time. I keep a list with the times I should take them and when I actually do so no taking too early.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
We draw to us what our thoughts are. Think positive thoughts and bring more positivity into you life, not the negative.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
She talks about the people who are so self-focused that they seem to derive pleasure from dwelling on all the things that are going wrong in their life. I am afraid that is me. It is not exactly pleasure, but it draws attention and it also draws more of the same thing. The more I dwell on it the worse it gets and the more I draw to me. Every day something else happens and I go here I go again. Why do these things happen to me? The simple answer is that I draw them to me, by constantly dwelling on them. It isn’t easy to stop either.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
Aside from the Cymbalta this is the only other cocktail that has worked. Sometimes I miss the mania, but basically it is better without it and all the mood changes.
And this one lets me sleep. No real side effects and sleep. Some days though I sleep way more than necessary, but I take it. I don’t want to mess with this cocktail and screw it up trying to make it better.
Bankruptcy court April 16th in a town I hate to drive in and includes highways which really scare me.
Next epidural is April 17th and on the neck this time. Back is not taking. She says she has other things we can try besides the surgery so I am to quit worrying about that for now. Neck is getting worse and have a problem with numbness (or pins and needles as it should be called).
Still nothing from public housing about the apartment.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
I am guilty of this. I moan and whine about my lot in life, my pain, my lack of money or whatever, that believers of the Law of Attraction feel that I am drawing those bad things to me. I could just as well be drawing the good to me instead. It works both ways. We attract what we feel good or bad.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
As I have mentioned my dad has done faith healing for as long as I can remember and his people that received the healings (including me) believed they were being healed. I am well aware of the placebo effect and I can’t say for sure that he is healing me or that I just expect to feel better. I believe the point is that it helps and I don’t need a scientific ruling to say it is true or false. I accept that I feel better, therefore his healing helped.
Healing can be done hands-on or from afar. Reiki is one of those types of healings.
Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian
Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com
