Just came from my Endo appt and I am about to spit nails. Man he pissed me off. He is fine with the Keto/low carb diet, but he wants my numbers above 100. I want them lower/normal. He said no because I might have a low if I aim for those numbers. I said at 140 damage is being done right? He said yes. So why do you want my numbers higher. Because you MIGHT go low. Might, good grief. I might die tomorrow too, I might lose my eyesight (already have some damage), I might lose a limb (I definitely have neuropathy – had nerve test this morning). An awful lot of mights out there, but I want to spare myself that. He told me I was a perfectionist and yes I am and that he wished more of his patients were like me (huh?), but he wants me between 100 and 150 fasting and 100 and 170 for lunch, dinner, and bedtime. My numbers support this WOE works. A1c down 2 points to 6.9 and my average numbers 2 months ago were 179 and now are 117.
My bipolar was starting to rage and I had to shut up before I said something I would regret. I backed down, but he told me the ADA’s diet is good because most people are diagnosed when they are eating 200-300 carbs per day so their diet is good if you look at it that way. Thing is they keep it that high. They don’t work at bringing them down. I will continue eating this way and aiming for 80 or so and he will have to deal with it if I decide to even tell him. Although he did raise my fast-acting insulin by 1 point per sliding number, but told me not to increase the Tresiba slow-acting to help bring them down. Talk about twilight zone.
My scale budged downward 2 lbs. Does not mean it won’t go back up, but it is the first downward movement I have had.
Teresa (Tessa) Dean Smeigh
-Advocate for Mental and Invisible Illnesses
-Author of Articles, Stories and Poems
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