Bipolar in the workplace…


If you had asked me years ago while I was working I would have told you I was a great employee and most of the time I was. I had great work ethics and was polite and respectful.

However my bipolar mood swings hid my true work habits and even when brought up I didn’t really believe what I was being told.

I couldn’t focus. I was constantly day-dreaming and every review notated this. I didn’t believe them.

I was extremely emotional. I cried at the drop of a hat or if you looked at me sideways. When my supervisor took me to the manager and said “you deal with her, I can’t take it anymore!” it started slowly sinking in. I started thinking about it and then I started to become more aware of my behavior and was shocked. This was normal behavior for someone with bipolar disorder, but I didn’t notice it.

It is possible to hold a job with bipolar disorder, but it certainly isn’t easy. There were lots of other incidents and I now am aware of them. I am on disability now and 61 years old so close to retirement age anyhow. I know longer have the thinking abilities anymore to hold a job anyhow.

Tessa – advocate for mental health and invisible illnesses, also devout Christian

Author – http://www.finallyawriter.wordpress.com (this blog contains my old work), new work is on this blog http://www.tessacandoit.com

 

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4 thoughts on “Bipolar in the workplace…

  1. morgueticiaatoms

    All of my jobs were prior to a bipolar diagnosis, the doctor just kept feeding me anti depressants so I spent 4 or 5 months a year manic as all get out. I was an amazing employee, friendly, hyper, energetic…Then would come the depressions, tears, grumpinness, heightened anxiety, inability to focus or finish tasks, a lackluster if not outright bad attitude…It became impossble to work because no one wants an employee who is only stable and useful half of the year.

    And now with the mood stabilizers, half the time I am so numb I can’t even pull of a smile and mean it, let alone be whirlwind of friendly productive functionality. And numb is actually the upside. The depressions and tears are the worst even when not working.

    I envy those who can find the magical balance but 25 years of burning employment bridges in a small, town, I’ve racked up some shabby references and a bad reputation and it was never my intention.

    Of course, it’s not exclusive to employers. Friendships flourish when I am manic and bouncing off walls and fun. They scatter like rodents when the depression comes.

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    1. Tessa Post author

      I can understand what you mean. I didn’t notice and then I had a breakdown and went to a psychologist. I was shocked and this was the beginning of the crash and burn and it kept getting worse. I envy those that can find the magical balance as well. At times I did great and received promotions at work and then another crash and burn. Thank God I don’t have to work anymore. Although even though I am permanently disabled I under stand they can still take it away. Thank God I am almost at the retirement age.

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